Why not send the letter?
Why not just attack him on his way to his car?
I'm glad you asked for elaboration.
It was a process of first, letting go of the initial feelings of wanting to treat him as I would have treated anyone, 5 years ago. A time when I was a member of one of the most notorious gangs in the city of Wellington, NZ. Probably similar feelings to what you described when relaying the "on the way to his car" senario. After actually being in that moment of knowing I was about to cave someone's head in with a pole, to pay them back for soliciting my clientelle, I saw the whole "revenge" concept a little differently.
I didn't feel like "this niggaz gon get it..."
I felt like "I hope I don't go to jail n never see my kids again" and "how did I end up in this position? Having to destroy this guys life over drug money and a block my team runs"
That's the difference between in the moment rage, acting on impulse...and sitting there for 2 hours waiting for the dude to come home.
So after weighing that s*** up, realizing that I've done more than enough experimenting in that field of catalyst...I decided to go with a letter as a better first option...feel me yo?
After coming to the conclusion that writing a letter would maybe get me the justice I felt I deserved, I went about writing a 13 page breakdown of my 4 months in my role. I broke down how he treated me in a way that everyone that read it, would have no option but to fire him, or face legal action as the discrepencies were gross misconduct. So I'd say, it's not so much that I was trying to scare him, or make him afraid...more just make it so that he could never work again in our industry (commercial radio/music industry), I make beats and my partner is an MC. It's a studio that I work in as a sound engineer.
It was at some point that I realized that I was writing a letter to make him pay for his intentional disrespect. It's not something I'm used to forgiving in a look, let alone 4 months from my manager. I was also writing from the perspective of someone who has already voiced their concerns over an issue in a letter, which seemed to be kept strictly in the CEO's breast pocket lol. I realized that he doesn't want to lose the contract and he's already under scrutiny.
All of this is irrelevant though, given the context of us all being one.
If all is one, it's not my job to judge and dish out justice. That job belongs to his own distortions that hide his demons. If he doesn't want to look at what's causing him to act like that, I can't make him look at the issue. The universe will slap him in the face continually, until he looks. I can hint...or let him know how that choice in behavior is effecting me...but ultimately, it's up to him how he feels about how his choices effect his life. It's not going to make me feel better hurting him, that would just be him being hurt and then probably wanting to either get me, or me having to deal with the feelings associated with being someone who would attack rather than love or forgive. That action just gives every being in the universe the right, when applying the distortion of free will, to treat me in the same way. I'm not keen on being the puppet of a 4D/5D tag team...so I try to keep my emotions in a higher energy space. They feed off the pheremones of anger and fear...so why would you want to feed the lower space dwellers. Getting him fired would have the same effect because he'll feel bad (his kid and wife would be effected) and then it's more healing for other parts of me that are effected by the fallout... It's a dicotomy of sorts but I resolve it by seeing it as "if he doesn't like me forgiving him and not wanting him to have demons, he can leave as this is our mutual space."
I feel like the answer lies in finding that option, which is best for myself AND the other person AS WELL as the entire universe.
In this equation...there is only one answer. When you find it...you have your higher self perspective.
I also believe that you end up getting back what you put out.
The fact that I didn't react in a vengeful manner, resulted in the energy being used by my higher self to create this job, in this space, in this now. Something that I really doubt would've happened, had I stabbed him on the way to his car.
I know there was other stuff in your post about hanging with mexican g'z n s***, but to be honest...(I hope you don't take this the wrong way) I don't care about what you've learned second hand.
Tell me the deepest, darkest fear about what you feel people dislike about you...then talk to me about gangsta...nigga.
Why not just attack him on his way to his car?
I'm glad you asked for elaboration.
It was a process of first, letting go of the initial feelings of wanting to treat him as I would have treated anyone, 5 years ago. A time when I was a member of one of the most notorious gangs in the city of Wellington, NZ. Probably similar feelings to what you described when relaying the "on the way to his car" senario. After actually being in that moment of knowing I was about to cave someone's head in with a pole, to pay them back for soliciting my clientelle, I saw the whole "revenge" concept a little differently.
I didn't feel like "this niggaz gon get it..."
I felt like "I hope I don't go to jail n never see my kids again" and "how did I end up in this position? Having to destroy this guys life over drug money and a block my team runs"
That's the difference between in the moment rage, acting on impulse...and sitting there for 2 hours waiting for the dude to come home.
So after weighing that s*** up, realizing that I've done more than enough experimenting in that field of catalyst...I decided to go with a letter as a better first option...feel me yo?
After coming to the conclusion that writing a letter would maybe get me the justice I felt I deserved, I went about writing a 13 page breakdown of my 4 months in my role. I broke down how he treated me in a way that everyone that read it, would have no option but to fire him, or face legal action as the discrepencies were gross misconduct. So I'd say, it's not so much that I was trying to scare him, or make him afraid...more just make it so that he could never work again in our industry (commercial radio/music industry), I make beats and my partner is an MC. It's a studio that I work in as a sound engineer.
It was at some point that I realized that I was writing a letter to make him pay for his intentional disrespect. It's not something I'm used to forgiving in a look, let alone 4 months from my manager. I was also writing from the perspective of someone who has already voiced their concerns over an issue in a letter, which seemed to be kept strictly in the CEO's breast pocket lol. I realized that he doesn't want to lose the contract and he's already under scrutiny.
All of this is irrelevant though, given the context of us all being one.
If all is one, it's not my job to judge and dish out justice. That job belongs to his own distortions that hide his demons. If he doesn't want to look at what's causing him to act like that, I can't make him look at the issue. The universe will slap him in the face continually, until he looks. I can hint...or let him know how that choice in behavior is effecting me...but ultimately, it's up to him how he feels about how his choices effect his life. It's not going to make me feel better hurting him, that would just be him being hurt and then probably wanting to either get me, or me having to deal with the feelings associated with being someone who would attack rather than love or forgive. That action just gives every being in the universe the right, when applying the distortion of free will, to treat me in the same way. I'm not keen on being the puppet of a 4D/5D tag team...so I try to keep my emotions in a higher energy space. They feed off the pheremones of anger and fear...so why would you want to feed the lower space dwellers. Getting him fired would have the same effect because he'll feel bad (his kid and wife would be effected) and then it's more healing for other parts of me that are effected by the fallout... It's a dicotomy of sorts but I resolve it by seeing it as "if he doesn't like me forgiving him and not wanting him to have demons, he can leave as this is our mutual space."
I feel like the answer lies in finding that option, which is best for myself AND the other person AS WELL as the entire universe.
In this equation...there is only one answer. When you find it...you have your higher self perspective.
I also believe that you end up getting back what you put out.
The fact that I didn't react in a vengeful manner, resulted in the energy being used by my higher self to create this job, in this space, in this now. Something that I really doubt would've happened, had I stabbed him on the way to his car.
I know there was other stuff in your post about hanging with mexican g'z n s***, but to be honest...(I hope you don't take this the wrong way) I don't care about what you've learned second hand.
Tell me the deepest, darkest fear about what you feel people dislike about you...then talk to me about gangsta...nigga.
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