"You create your reality"

[Aion]

I think that is a very extravagant way to justify suffering and I have no need for such mental gymnastics because I can simply accept that suffering is suffering. I have no need to turn things in to that which that are not, nor to abstract them to the point of dissolution. I see the Void behind all things, I do not need to break them to do so.

You can distort things as much as you wish, but abuse is abuse and no amount of forgiveness or philosophy takes away the pain of trauma when it is being experienced. Remember healing is an exercise to achieve wholeness and wholeness broken means many parts and many sides. Perhaps you have achieved some transcendent state of unity or something and you are now whole and One.

To me it more looks like you are uncomfortable with the existence of the other self and need to reduce everything to yourself to be able to digest that.

I fail to see which portion of my post resonated with that suffering is not suffering. That you will suffering does not negate it's existence.

I don't do mental gymnastics for myself, spiritual truths are of a wordless nature and I seek to offer keys that may allow others to find an inner peace I have found within myself. To see with eyes that see only love and light is freeing and most healthy and is a clear view of what is.  And so far I think in both your case and the one of others, dismissal of my words always seemed to hint toward that you rather cling to your pain than find to feel better. I can respect that without wanting to reinforce it and also seek for myself to offer a differing perspective.

You stated that you do not love yourself in past threads, I can tell you that you are worth loving and you can call that dismissal of your suffering. But I know you are worth loving and I know you will come to see that yourself and I can repeat it again and again to you until that day comes and I may find joy in that.

There may be parts and many sides, but the transcending truth is that each part and each side is love and light and unity.

Ah, but see, you again bring up 'better'. Not all pain is emotional and mental, physical pain is not so easy to simply drop but it's effects upon the spirit can be felt just as severely. I do not lament my suffering but rather I believe it is something which has shaped me due to the very fact that despite endless effort, it will not just 'go away with thoughts of love' and it is somewhat naive of you to think that I have not put effort towards 'just letting go'.

At this point I don't think I am even suffering from those emotional or mental issues, I'm just grumpy and cynical because of the hernia. After the surgery I'll probably be in a much more comfortable state and be more peaceable.