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[BlatzAdict]

Jade I think you are very wise.

It is true, most STS don't even realize that/what they are, they often think nothing is wrong with them - sometimes even think they are perfect. I have many STS friends and it is hard, maybe impossible to convince them that they are so. I don't try to do that. I just give them the love they need, because that is truly what they ... need.
STS persons with integrity know how to hide and blend themselves very well, often very seclusive with who they share their perspectives and desires with. As someone mentioned earlier they don't go around flaunting and imposing their 'gangster' 'swag'. Not saying they don't have any swagger (and when I say that word I mean it as close to the literal definition as possible), they just often don't try to act cool.

Update 3/27/2016 @ 11:30PM: I decided to dedicate more time into my reply so here is some detail and a brief story about my STS friend.
From the STS persons I know, they each have a unique personality, and they don't need to act different, they just be themselves and it's sometimes really influential and does attribute to their characters some. The most successful STS person I know is very anti social, dangerous and has a very unique personality, although it is VERY difficult being their friend. I will try my best to go in detail here with respect to his privacy. He is a drugs and arms dealer. He likes death metal, favorite band is Slayer and Lamb of God. Big time Christian but is well aware the bible is a fraud, in fact he is super aware I guess I could say. A funny quote I can share from him was when we had a discussion about a loophole in the drug law, and I was being too meticulous and he wanted to end the conversation and move on and said "This whole country is a loophole". He hates other STS's. He hates STO's. He really is a genuine misanthrope, and I guess I could consider myself lucky to be his friend, again although it is tedious and requires alot of donate emotional energy. He isn't interest much in my interests but he does his best to find mutual interests. He has a very scarred love life and has trust problems with most women, he often doesn't know how to deal with it and requires alot of my help in that regard. He is quick to violence and has nearly killed me twice. One time I was in the car with him, and his car is a Porsche, and he was arguing with his long time lover after we had went to a concert, we were almost home and he had enough of the argument and decided to accelerate as much as possible and there was probably 900 feet until the road was a dead end. We sped to what felt like 90 MPH before he slammed on the breaks and luckily the car stopped just in time, must've been inches from death. Really depleted me when that happened. His lover was frantic and she even wet her pants. I would consider my friend under the 95% benchmark, but probably (and I don't have the best judgement so this is very approximated) is close. And sadly, I feel like when he does get there, I think he will probably die soon thereafter. He is very unpredictable and has lots of mental issues, sadly. I have the strangest feeling he programmed himself a very violent death. That, or his employer will kill him.

my life has been spent avoiding people like this. there is no way to help individuals who don't want to be helped. at first i thought i could intellectually violate free will, or by giving light i would be able to educate others as to higher predispositions. that i have found myself in failure multiple times in this attempt, perhaps it is just not possible. i used to think that by separation i would better work to not infringe on others with my big mouth. Then i thought why are we here and why did we come here to assist. Therein lies this paradox. To be of service or not to be of service.  For a while I thought okay instead of serving all what about serving those who are ready to expand. 

I met someone similar with a predisposition towards the dark though not in the same level that you describe. They were nonetheless highly interested in Law of One concepts, yet very willing to be outspoken about concepts more generally accepted. I understand these individuals to simply feel that way due to a lack of observation and an inability to move past events that had formative effects on the mind. Whenever replaying the same situation, it leads the individual to go through the same mental processes as what happened the first time in an attempt to rectify the situation, though without serious inner searching, this becomes really a long and narrow path for the few who can persevere.

i suppose that is the point of third density for wanderers to perpetually wander, i miss having comrades. perhaps that is where narcissim comes from? being used to a density where most people are in agreement with you and there are not many people who are unawares, so once coming to a limited state of energy, the same viewpoints and methods entirely cease to be sufficient or efficient anymore.

perhaps it is a social disconnect from Higher D to lower D functionings of energy communication. 

intellect can be alienating. because most people are just happy go lucky, i find it hard to stop being so serious as i see that as a lowering of the mental faculty.