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Well, I think there is a threshold in the sinkhole somewhere, where you would say one is no longer just ignorantly choosing back and forth or neither... personally, I am describing my mother as someone I know who has consistently chosen (doubled) to serve herself over others. I can hardly think of -any- instance where she was any example of being a service to others entity. If I had to put a roundabout number on it, I would say she might be near 75-80%. That's pretty intense, and I can tell you if you were around her you would feel her intensity.

My mother wasn't 'only' a drug dealer, she also worked for the state government in a department focused on fraud recovery. She's very deliberate and wily in her machinations much of the time. Though, in context, an illegal drug empire is likely an STS organization, and the higher up one is on the ladder, the more power they have, just by virtue of the amount of people underneath. I wholeheartedly disagree that someone who wants to polarize STS would only want a position of obvious power, by that I'm assuming you mean something in the political arena. My mother may have "stepped down" to the drug realm but she was definitely born into a life of wealth and luxury. Her mother married successively richer and one of her step-fathers even had a private plane, so she's traveled all over this continent.

I don't typically try to rate how STO/STS I believe someone is, but when presented with this question, I had to ask myself about my mother, who is someone I know rather intimately, and would be the closest person I know personally to fitting this bill. And the more I thought about it, the more it was obvious, and the less I could see that would 'redeem' her to being anywhere desiring to be of service to others in the way that I understand it. Very little to no heart chakra energy but constant attempts at blue-ray. Constant demands that others subjugate to her. No remorse or regard for the feelings of others. Again, I do not think she is harvestable, but I do not think she is in the sinkhole, either.

You know... I'm not very close to my sister and actually don't think of her often, but now that I am in this context, I wonder if the same isn't for her, too? I mean, she's actually treated me worst most of my life. And, if I believe that my mother has any sort of negative metaphysicality like I am spouting in theory, my sister actually bids her far more often than my mother is able to bid my sister. They do constantly go back and forth. My sister used to be a supervisor at a sales call center (plenty of negative opportunities there, trust me), until she got fired for drug charges in her past when the company was sold. Now she makes an absurd amount of money as a stripper.

I don't say these things lightly, but I also don't say these things to condemn them, either. Again, I do not think they are harvestable negative entities. But, I can honestly not think of a single instance where either of them have done anything for me as a selfless, giving gesture - or for anyone else, for that matter. I definitely do not say that lightly. They are takers, and my only value to them has been what I can do for them, period. There's no indifference in them - their existence is about glorifying themselves. I almost had to add the caveat "well my mother didn't abort me" as a selfless gesture, but she HAD had an abortion before me, so I'm guessing that it was likely my Catholic father who married her 6 months before I was born who made that decision. She has since threatened to kill me multiple times. My sister has even more, and has pulled weapons on me, broken my bones, etc. They both exhibit the type of insanity of those who attempt to polarize negatively in a manner without structure or any semblance of understanding, and thereby ultimately confusing themselves. My sister is still quite young, though, and now that she is moving in the elicit sex/heavy drug circles she may have other 'opportunities' to greet her along the way.

87.7 Questioner: What is the environmental situation of this particular fifth-density negative entity, and how does he work with fourth-density negative in order to establish power and control; and what is his particular philosophy with respect to himself as Creator and his use of the first distortion and the extension of this use of the first distortion to the fourth-density negative? I hope that this isn’t too complex a question.

Ra: I am Ra. The environment of your companion is that of the rock, the cave, the place of barrenness, for this is the density of wisdom. That which is needed may be thought and received. To this entity very little is necessary upon the physical, if you will, or space/time complex of distortions.

Such an entity spends its consciousness within the realms of time/space in an attempt to learn the ways of wisdom through the utmost use of the powers and resources of the self. Since the self is the Creator, the wisdom density provides many informative and fascinating experiences for the negatively polarized entity. In some respects one may see a more lucid early attachment to wisdom from those of negative polarity as the nexus of positions of consciousness upon which wisdom is laid is simpler.

The relationship of such an entity to fourth-density negative entities is one of the more powerful and the less powerful. The negative path posits slavery of the less powerful as a means of learning the desire to serve the self to the extent that the will is brought to bear. It is in this way that polarity is increased in the negative sense. Thus fourth-density entities are willing slaves of such a fifth-density entity, there being no doubt whatsoever of the relative power of each.

87.8 Questioner: A reflection of this could be seen in our density in many of those leaders that instigate war and have followers who support, in total conviction that the direction of conquest is correct. Is this correct?

Ra: I am Ra. Any organization which demands obedience without question upon the basis of relative power is functioning according to the above-described plan.

Wow Jade, after I replied to my post my post I went back and read all the replies below it and re read all the other replies above it. After reading yours I can say I in some aspects Mirror you like Blatz said. It amazes me when have such powerful things in common with people. I don't think it's necessary to go to deep into detail but it is never a coincidence that we meet or are related to STS persons as STO. I have tremendous respect for you being in that situation and doing the best you could. I'm terribly sorry for your circumstances. I have family that are deeply confused but I don't know if they are STS, because they want to change, but they are addicted to heroin and my aunt forced her teenage daughter and son to sell heroin and crack on the streets to support her addiction, which in turn provided her children means for developing theirs. It's not a pretty situation and my grandmother is deep in dept due to always having to bail them out or giving them money for rent and drugs and it's obvious affecting her health, which is exponentially in decline as of recently. I think about my grandmother often and try my best to make sure she isn't in too bad shape. I take her out for lunch as much as possible, I even bought her the Law of One material for Christmas this year, hoping that since she works for a book publishing company as a proof reader she's enjoy it and maybe make a connection but unfortunately it didn't resonate with her.

Above the White lodge (STO) and the Black lodge (STS) there is a third lodge which
manages the two others. I've heard it from Aivanhov but i don't know much about
this third lodge.

The Lodges were actually incorporated in a television program called Twin Peaks, and this is where I first encountered them. The lodges do make alot of sense with the idea of polarity. I could go on for hours about theories of the lodges. Such interesting and deep topics. Twin Peaks became my favorite television show after I finished it, it really has some deep imagery and does a fantastic job invoking emotions.