09-21-2015, 04:27 AM
If that is true, then 2:3 odds so far I'm an ascended master, if you corrolate my thoughts to when it occurs, two of three times since I've been journaling it I've seen the dot appear as I thought of possibly being a creator, linked to the 144,000 ascended masters, regarding the creation of the holographic universe.
Did you know the Symbol for Phi looks like a 1 inside of a 0?
And that it looks like a 2D torus?
My doubts:
I'm crazy. Worry I might be partially schizophrenic from how clearly the voices come in again now that I'm trying to be more conscious and loving and less judgmental. Its my biggest doubt, that all this, the beautiful love, consideration and kindness in those voices is all fake.
I'm not smart enough or educated enough in mathematics and sacred geometry (See Blatzaddicts post: Serious Adepts), to actually discover any truth to this creation whether intuitively or such, to share for others benefit...
Doubts in my self belief. Doubts in my self.
I still occasionally stumble into a hellish reality that creates many GREAT doubts regarding my very existence as anything but a dream on the whim of a Moment's notice (my entire life and all existence is just an illusion, I'm an illusion and less than nothing)
I see the world and have doubts that all will be well.
I doubt the good will make up for the bad.
I doubt I am separated but doubt that belief is appropriate or fair to my Human or human self based on the most simple deductive open reasoning regards Free Will and how Humanity is treated on.Earth via 'catalyst'.
Doubt I'm an ascended master.
Doubt I'll ever see, hear, experience extranormal spiritual phenomena.
Doubt I'll ever get to a place in life to be a healer or a teacher of spirituality for others in both areas.
Doubt I'm alive some days and just in a dream. (Because everything feels like a dream again and looks like it.)
Doubt I'm intellectual or smart, and just a dummy who thinks he knows when in reality he don't know nothing.
Doubt I'm even open with myself properly.
Doubt my social and sexual preferences, which makes me doubt even being a STO entity.
Doubt I'm even a Wanderer sometimes.
Much doubt, much indigo ray blockages that I bypass with pure faith and belief. But it has a toll over time.
Which makes me doubt my love of self. Maybe I love knowledge more than I.
Doubt I can wisely love properly or appropriately anyone at all.
Doubt my own love of my doubts.
I'm a very doubtful type now that I list it all out :l...
Did you know the Symbol for Phi looks like a 1 inside of a 0?
And that it looks like a 2D torus?
My doubts:
I'm crazy. Worry I might be partially schizophrenic from how clearly the voices come in again now that I'm trying to be more conscious and loving and less judgmental. Its my biggest doubt, that all this, the beautiful love, consideration and kindness in those voices is all fake.
I'm not smart enough or educated enough in mathematics and sacred geometry (See Blatzaddicts post: Serious Adepts), to actually discover any truth to this creation whether intuitively or such, to share for others benefit...
Doubts in my self belief. Doubts in my self.
I still occasionally stumble into a hellish reality that creates many GREAT doubts regarding my very existence as anything but a dream on the whim of a Moment's notice (my entire life and all existence is just an illusion, I'm an illusion and less than nothing)
I see the world and have doubts that all will be well.
I doubt the good will make up for the bad.
I doubt I am separated but doubt that belief is appropriate or fair to my Human or human self based on the most simple deductive open reasoning regards Free Will and how Humanity is treated on.Earth via 'catalyst'.
Doubt I'm an ascended master.
Doubt I'll ever see, hear, experience extranormal spiritual phenomena.
Doubt I'll ever get to a place in life to be a healer or a teacher of spirituality for others in both areas.
Doubt I'm alive some days and just in a dream. (Because everything feels like a dream again and looks like it.)
Doubt I'm intellectual or smart, and just a dummy who thinks he knows when in reality he don't know nothing.
Doubt I'm even open with myself properly.
Doubt my social and sexual preferences, which makes me doubt even being a STO entity.
Doubt I'm even a Wanderer sometimes.
Much doubt, much indigo ray blockages that I bypass with pure faith and belief. But it has a toll over time.
Which makes me doubt my love of self. Maybe I love knowledge more than I.
Doubt I can wisely love properly or appropriately anyone at all.
Doubt my own love of my doubts.
I'm a very doubtful type now that I list it all out :l...