Activation

[YourOtherSelf]

After thinking it through I have to write it was quite poor attempt. I'll refrain my self from similar actions in the future.

Don't refrain, your attempt actually hit right on the mark. I was thinking along the same line when everything was happening.

Even though I've experienced allot of darkness I've also experienced the polar opposite. I'm of the belief that getting to know this darkness in such an intimate manner is what allows me to express the polar opposite. These were my shadows after all and I made the decision to face them.

Aside from visions of purple light-shapes, You mentioned "talking with deceased"

I wanted to briefly speak more about the lights. They appear in my vision only (others don't see them when I attempt to bring them into focus) under my will/volition.

I'm hoping someone can assist me with any ideas what grade could "be" in relation to the energy centers spoken off by Ra

Something possibly related is all my life I've suffered from severe migraines. I've had them since I was 4 years old (i remember seeing these same lights then and considered them my "friends").

Lately my migraines have increased to everyday, normally upon waking.
"It" looks like a (small) swirling vortex of tiny purple pixels. Only once did they change into a "vision" of the eye of Ra/Horus.

Speaking with the "deceased" happened s few times with certain family members who have passed and possibly others none relation. They explained to me how things "work" where they are in very lucid dreams, and then connecting to events in "waking" life.

Sometimes they come "through" me. It's hard to explain. For instance once over the phone (when someone came through) the person on the other end of the phone heard the voice of an "old lady" even though it was me speaking. This is a boy of a long story so I'll skip over it got now.

My questions - how is your everyday life?

I imagine just the same as others. For instance today was spent outside cutting grass for a few neighbors sweating in the sunshine. It was a very grounding experience =)

What are You able to perceive and feel?

In general I feel a wide array of emotions. From feeling like I could vibrate right out of my body experiencing "love" for no certain reason.

I perceive/feel an intelligence that permeates EVERYTHING. I am in communion with this intelligence at times and it "communicates" back.

How do You understand your Self, other Selves and surrounding You, current reality?

This is a very complex question for me to ponder. I understand through observation.

During another "stage" of this whole experience I felt what I've read being referred to as complete ego death or collapse.

If I had heard of these concepts prior to my "transition' it would have made the process less "frightening". I was literally going in blind, and perhaps that's the way it had to be.

I no longer attempt to label "myself" this or that as I literally see/feel myself in everything. My identity has been "rebuilt" from the ground up. When the boundary between me and the outside world dropped, it took a long time to establish a comfort zone..

For instance once I cried for 15 minutes because I had hit a butterfly with my car. You could imagine what affect watching the nightly news would have without working out many distortions. I've always been a bit of a softy but for even me it was extreme empathy.

Are You able
to perceive simultaneously other realities

I don't see other realities in the all encompassing manner that I see this reality, but I do see/feel certain patterns or connections inherent in some other realms that appear to be connected or stemming from our "world".

Some of these appear as precognitive predictions of future events. Some of these also appear to be manifestaytions of my conscious will. These have "proved" to myself that consciousness operates in a non-local manner.

And I exercise caution when viewing other self's in such a manner that my projections may influence them.

I'm asking all above, because I would like to better understand You and your"condition" (pardon this not very fortunate term, although best I can use while being sure You will understand my query).

No worries friend! It would be impossible for me to misconstrue *condition* was a valid word choice as any other. =P