Activation

[YourOtherSelf]

Navigating around these messages is hard for me using my current device. Forgive me for not using proper methods of replying back to your post.

"" In face what You've wrote after this I am really
curious what was your choice at that time. I
hope it's not very personal and You will be
able to share it.""

Instead of going "home". I made a conscious choice to stay here, believing I could assist others in some manner. I'm pretty sure those back "home" can no longer interact/or see me like they used too.

This was before I encountered the Ra material, so part of me believed I was in fact going crazy. I've put together many pieces of the puzzle since being introduced to the Ra material. It made me feel less alone with everything at the time

:"" I think that above is THE most astonishing
"thing" I've ever read. I personally NEVER had
an experience that would be even close to
what You have wrote. Therefore I'm afraid that
I won't be much of help for You in
understanding it.""

You are of more help than you think. I've been through allot in my life and would not wish what I went through on my worst enemy (if I had one).

"" I've bolded parts, where You described things
that were done to You . Especially: "it would
only take ten seconds".
To be honest I do not know what to make out
of this. You were not asked if You accept it -
it was done - as I understood - without your
conscious consent. All You could do is either
resist it or allow "it" to happened. It's not
Service to Others way (as I understand it).""

I've never looked at the experience in that light.
The only thing I left out was my request to "see" the entity, and it responded "not yet". The process didn't seem forced upon me.


":" I'm sorry for taking so much space here but as
I search for every possible explanation, I
cannot ignore what was said in those videos -
especially that those people were desperate.
I think I've puttet all above in my post,
because what You've wrote is simply
unbelievable for me.
I apologize for my scepticism but it's/he's my
faithful companion since I've entered patch of
the mind many, many years ago.:":"

I will check out the video when time allows. Trust me that I understand/feel your scepticism brother. It's hard for my mind to accept some of the things I've experienced first hand.

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I've left out many details and other experiences. I don't want the majority of what I described to be viewed in a "negative" manner. Many other experiences after this were amazingly "positive."

At the time these events were troubling but that was a necessary part of my self growth. I'm truly in a better place mentally/spiritually after these events. It is hard however, to carry a "normal" life anymore.

I often feel very alone with my thoughts. It's hard to communicate with others when your view of the world its drastically different.

I'm hoping to alleviate this lonely feeling by joining in the community here.

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I don't know if I've been targeted for that brainwave stuff, because I've felt out of my mind many times.

Ditto my friend. =P