03-15-2010, 07:27 PM
(03-13-2010, 02:31 AM)Peregrinus Wrote: Your perception is indeed correct brother. To be the selfless instrument of the One Creator is what I hope may be the highest offering of myself I may make. What the One creator desires of me is therefore not my will, but its will. Healing ability will come, or not, if it is the One Creator's will for me. I simply strive to be of the purest intent.
The catalyst comes harder and faster, cutting to the bone when one makes the decision to become an instrument of the One Creator. Each day, since setting my intention, I go through far more catalyst than I used to, and because my ego is not in play (nearly as much), distilling this catalyst is coming to me easier. Clearly I am still have the bipedal ape mind, and I do understand/expect to have the continuing cycles of up/down as we must all experience in this illusion, but I have let go of expectation. I trust in the Father's will for me and choose to live in the moment, and oh how glorious that is becoming!
I am simply "being", using my heart, mind, and energy in as pure and highest intent as I can. Should the One Creator desire something other for me, I have no doubt it will resonate in me.
Hi Peregrinus! I haven't had much time over the last several days to post, but I wanted to thank you for sharing those insights so openly and honestly. I really do feel that I now have a better (albeit still incomplete) understanding of an issue that was always baffling to me. More puzzle pieces for me to understand this Mystery of Existence.
You have chosen a difficult road -- finding the balance between being an instrument of the Creator's will and avoiding the path to martyrdom. To distill such powerful catalyst and use it for selfless service rather than be overwhelmed by it.
All I can say now is that I wish you well on your path and thank you for sharing your innermost thoughts with us all so that we can benefit from your experience.
Namaste, Peregrinus, Namaste.
Love to all