STS/STO

[Cyclops]

Here's a session I believe pertains to your feelings in this topic.

http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/is..._0310.aspx

And a simple quote from Q'uo

It is well to note that this is a scheme in which all of your feelings, be they seemingly positive or seemingly negative, are equally valuable and precious to the one infinite Creator. Therefore, you are loved beyond all belief by an entity who could never judge you, but only support, encourage and embrace you.

As you will gain in knowledge be it by more experience, more reading of the material L/L offers or material of your choice, by your communication of self to self contemplation. You will continually un-distort parts of your self and find one of these choices calling more and more. I had these feelings too, instead of dwelling on them I sought to find the meanings and weight that each had to me.