01-14-2013, 08:31 PM
yeah it's trial and error i guess. but i don't feel in error, because i embrace the trial period. 
i feel excited by this change in me. it's like i've actually become a better person by being a jerkface. because now i feel more genuine in myself. and more clear. that when i feel like saying something nice it's completely out of my free will to do so, instead of pressure to do so. and it feels so good then. it shows me i have good in me after all! not just forced good, but actual good. not good all the time but i'll take what i can get because a little amount of trustworthy goodness is worth more to me than a whole lotta fuzzy goodness that has dodgy origins.
i feel excited by this change in me. it's like i've actually become a better person by being a jerkface. because now i feel more genuine in myself. and more clear. that when i feel like saying something nice it's completely out of my free will to do so, instead of pressure to do so. and it feels so good then. it shows me i have good in me after all! not just forced good, but actual good. not good all the time but i'll take what i can get because a little amount of trustworthy goodness is worth more to me than a whole lotta fuzzy goodness that has dodgy origins.
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