02-07-2010, 04:13 PM
(02-07-2010, 04:10 AM)kristy1111 Wrote: I think my number one issue here is, that I am still not completely familiar with the "real" god - the real character of the "one". I was taught by a strict religion for many years, so of course I grew to fear God. And now I'm learning that we are supposed to be forgiving and loving, and have tolerance. But I am feeling that this doesn't necessarily mean we have to let people walk on us. Right? I mean, I would think it would be a greater act of love to let these people live their own consequences.
Hi, Kristy.
Sorry to read the depth of pain in your struggle; but I think your insight above could be a useful guidepost as you navigate through this difficult territory. Unfortunately, it's very difficult to get any perspective on something which has infected your nervous system. So, your first consideration when pondering what action to take might be to look at how the very set up you've co-created compromises your own ability to make decisions. If your nephew's orbit is so close as to make you sick, as it were, the wisest first step might be to use some sort of booster rocket to nudge him far enough out in space so as to allow you to collect your nerves and your wits.
So, "The character of Oneness." What a wonderful topic to be brought to! Since you're asking advice, I would offer the following which may be of some use to you.
It could be said that each chakra has its own viewpoint on any given catalyst and any of these viewpoints may be particularly powerful for reasons unknown to the experiencer. In times of deep confusion it can be helpful to sort them out individually to get a better grasp of the gestalt.
So, your heart is guiding you to be compassionate; your social instincts don't seem to playing in this too much; your second chakra might be speaking to you about the strong familial bond with your nephew; your general tone of distress might be a reflection of anguish, fear or despair in your first chakra.
Where would put you fear that God will nail you to a tree if you don't toe the line? That one's a bit complex, no? Everything else seems straightforward and appropriate, but this one feels distorted and misplaced. It could be some kind of parasitic distortion thing sucking from one or various of your energy centers.
Going further into the "sorting them out" part mentioned above, you might explore your experience of the God thing at the levels of your different chakras looking for distortions which relate to what you've discussed. For instance, God as close companion (2), God as the heart of my heart (4), God as indivisible everything (6), and so on. You may be able to more clearly feel, discern and identify the distortions this way.
What to do if you find some? One course of action would be to use your heart's wisdom to determine which alternative distortions are the most loving, then in a spirit of love, inform the others that they are no longer needed and may return to Source. If you're able to disentangle these outgrown distortions one chakra at a time, it might enable you to discern your own loving wisdom in your difficult, extrinsic family situations.
I wish you all the best.
~p~