One of the tools I use is the human design chart. Which combines the chakra system, astrology, the Kaballah, the i ching and an overall metaphysical paradigm in a way that feels so natural.
Within the human design chart there is a type, there are several types in the human design chart. One of these types is a manifestor. it is my type, Ra Uru Hu's type who kind of 'channeled' the human design chart and David Wilcocks. It is a metaphysical system with a high ability to be applied.
The manifestor seems to me to work a bit differently to the other types in that the manifestor seems to connect with something 'up there' whereas most of the population. The generators with the sacral chakra defined connect fundamentally with each other.
This leads to a lot of problems in that in the relationship among generators, because the sacral chakra is response driven, it allows the person relating to the generator to have a bit of control, and for people that are controlling in general this may be enough. But with the manifestor this does not quite work. There is no sacral response. The manifestor like I said doesn't really relate to the person but relates to theories of things and what is 'up there' as I said.
This leads to this situation where a lot of what the manifestor puts out is very important but just doesn't really relate directly to the world and the arguments and debates therein. Consider two different models. Ra Uru Hu and David Wilcock both put out information that is so unusual that it is not really directly challengeable because it doesn't directly relate to the situation in the world. If you think about someone like a philosopher I respect, Stefan Molyneux, a generator manifestor, he argues and debates others directly because the sacral chakra is there.
There are a lot of other interesting things in these notes on chakras. I missed the point a bit when I was first into the human design chart I think by obsessing over whether I was following my 'strategy' or not but the study of the human design is extremely comforting of its own. When I am actively engaged in it however that is, looking at peoples charts, checking the transits etc. I feel as though I am connected.
In fact, this feeling of positivity and connection is even enough to oppose, to answer with what feels like love, the feelings of paranoia I get around a situation I have met many times. Social exclusion.
This also relates in a small way to densities. I also discovered during moments of utter madness what I think the truth of densities is. As in a lot of the time when I relate to others it is so obvious what density they are from. Just completely obvious. I have met Projectors (another type in the HDC), generators, and generator manifestors (I think) in both 5th and 6th densities but have yet to meet a 6th density manifestor.
This segway takes me onto the title of this blog, "Defence Mechanisms". The problem I have had a lot of times in my life, a repetitive problem, is social exclusion. I might have mentioned I wrote a mini memoir (Only 40 pages!) Outlining a lot of things in my life and my perspective on them. Because there are things in life that just have to be explained. I gave a few people in my close circle the option to read it if they would like. Or pick out chapters.
The ongoing theme is social exclusion. Very calculated and deliberate and in fact so repetitive and widespread that there are quite a few social experiences that are normal in someones twenties that I still haven't had yet. I am talking about normal things here nothing particularly intense.
This is where Bring4th has come in for a big part of my life. The thing with social exclusion is that it is a subtle bullying that you are not meant to notice. So when you are young you do not notice. However, as I have grown older and had different experiences I have realised what has been going on and I believe this forms a big part of my experience in relation to a lot of this stuff.
My first proper job was in a supermarket and started out as a job to do on the side of college. But I became emotionally embroiled in the place even though my relationship with the staff there I believe can be described as abusive. It was here that I started reading the Law of One. A bit later that I started blogging.
At the age when I was actually in that supermarket I did not yet have the social skills to deal with an entire group of people focused on me in a non positive way. My friends outside work turned out to be just as bad at a later date. To me then this is why I got so involved in the Law of One and I wonder if this is also why I felt guided to the topic of past lives and such like that. After I left the supermarket and had a few other experiences. As part of my understanding of the world it had never opened up socially. Nothing had ever really become relevant to me... So it seemed to me that I had been "guided" to be someone who spends a lot of time in solitude and is spiritual. That makes sense right?
But, this is not a healthy way to exist. There is nothing wrong with socialising with your peers at that age which I made a lot of effort to do.
And this I believe is where a hyper complex defence mechanism including beliefs in past lives and such came about.
This pattern of a group focused towards you because of... something is probably one we all relate to in some way, especially here. Would I become one of the group and not suffer that exclusion and associated general abnormality if it meant I had to no longer believe in the Creator? To be an atheist? Not in a million years. But, I am just showing where my pain is as is relevant to these pages.
There is another few points here. In fact I have a fair few things to say still but I plan to continue blogging so I may as well just mention a few of my other points on other days.
But one more thing. I have mentioned densities earlier here. The concept that wanderers are here of differing densities is mentioned within the Law of One. I would just like to say that with this concept of wanderers it is also mentioned that 'the wanderer becomes completely the creature of third density'.
Of the sixth density wanderers I have met. Some of them are truly saintly and I love a great deal but a lot of them were also bullies that were the single biggest pushers of this tendency of social isolation. In a way I believe meeting the negative end of a 6D wanderer is balanced out by coming to these materials and meeting the positive end of them.
I am also not able to visit any particular karma upon some of my opponents. I have a close friend who I believe is 6D who closely resembles one of my "worst enemies", a truly sadistic girl I once looked in her eyes and had to go to church to pray because I felt such malevolence. When I prayed briefly that she receive karma, the enemy. The friend also does, and that made me very miserable.
Other opponents though do seem to be being mashed up in my activities in a way that is so perfect I could never have planned it, but this karma seems to handle groups of people not individuals. 5D entities have a different kind of crappiness which also needs to be addressed sometimes.
Just some thoughts.