08-04-2018, 10:29 AM
(08-02-2018, 02:29 PM)IndigoGeminiWolf Wrote: I am working with cards with my teacher. She writes out questions on a card, and shuffles them,
and I take each one without knowing what they say and give what I feel.
They said yes my love for anthros is healthy - I saw image of children in a classroom and was very happy
Is there a being that is anthro preventing me from feeling universal love? - I am sad, heartache.
What is the darkness that prevents me from seeing universal love? - I saw image of anthros, and felt no.
Am I loved by the Universe? - No. Darkness closes in, prevents me from seeing.
Have I replaced the spirit of God/universe/One with an anthro? - Yes. Exploring a shaft/cavern. Adventure, fearless.
So the love I feel can be healthy for them. But it seems that they are blocking my ability to feel universal love.
And somehow I have elevated them to godhood. I didn't even know I was doing that.
Any recommendations on what you love getting in the way of universal love?
And how to not see them as so holy.
And with my mother living with me, it feels like emotionally I can't get my head above water.
It is causing anxiety that goes with me wherever I go.
(08-04-2018, 01:31 AM)Agua Wrote: Dear Indy,
to give my two cents:
I believe the "problem" is that you are trying to skip a whole stage in your spiritual evolution!
In my experience, this does not work, to be more specific:
It does not work the slightest bit at all!
Since you're a very open person, i allow myself to be honest and open:
There is a "part" in you that is obviously craving for love. This "part" is most likely very young still.
There was time when you desperately needed love and didnt get it and i am sure in that time, things happened that made you lose all trust in human beings.
This "part" was in need of love by a human being, and only love from a human being will help this "part".
This "part" would have needed a loving human being to fully enter this world.
And it still does need that, in order to fully enter this incarnation.
This "part" actually is not only a part, but moreso what you truly are, but at the moment clouded by the lack of love and other things.
This "part" cannot be satisfied by gods love alone, the reason is very simple:
The adult, that you are, is not in that desperate need. So if you connect with gods love as an adult, it reaches the adult. It doesnt reach the you d " craving part".
This is because you SEPERATE from that craving part.
In order to connect with that "part", you have to experience it. You have to bring it "into this world".
But your unspoken believe is:
This world is dangerous, humans are dangerous, they cannot be trusted.
You spend a lot of time beaming love to the creator and to higher dimensional beings.
This is very sweet of you, but they dont need your love, also they surely appreciate it!
If you look at it from outside:
Obviously you wanted to be in this world, otherwise you wouldnt be alive.
Ask yourself:Which percentage of your waking hours do you actually spend IN this world?
In this world would mean being in nature and being in a real physical human contact.
How much time do you spend outside this world or trying to get out?
Outside would mean, in abstract realms, for example on the computer, in the internet, on this forum.
Also, how much of your spiritual work is dedicated to getting "away from here", reaching some other place, world and so on.
And how much of your spiritual work is dedicated to bringing what you zruly are INTO this world?
Once you connected with that "part" in you that needs love, once you brought this into this world, you can go the next step and connect it with gods love.
But you first have to access it, otherwise it is impossible to connect it/yourself with god truly!