05-10-2009, 06:29 PM
Whew, what a life so far, but I made it. Here’s the rundown:
Never fit in. Rough childhood and adolescence, few friends because I just didn’t relate to people. I spent much of my time buried in science fiction and fantasy books. You know, the usual.
I was also raised by non-believing Catholics who never the less shoved what I found to be a down right offensive religion down my throat in the hopes that it would “straighten me out.” I thus became an atheist. It was this forced dogmatic religion by obvious non-believers that was a tremendous setback and caused me to turn away from anything spiritual for a long time. It may have even involved a little bending of the free will rule to get me back, but I probably ok’d it pre-incarnation.
Later I turned to drugs, something about the ego reduction of psychedelics called to me, but I nearly got stuck in the “hard stuff.” Also almost got busted several times. Later on in life had a bit of growing fondness for alcohol. Plus I also thought that people on the fringes of society were much more agreeable. It was a series of small miracles that got me through all of that relatively unscathed.
Still looking for a human identity that fit me I became “Mr. Bicycle.” I rode thousands of miles and never stretched once, I had no time, I had to log the miles. When my legs were good and wrecked I turned to Yoga. I also began trying meditation, I figured it would help me concentrate.
Oh, man did the human identity fall away fast after that. Everything started clicking into place. The more I dove into spiritual texts them more it came together. I just kept thinking that I had to do certain things so that I could go home.
Then it got a little ugly. I was still half mired in human Ego but I knew far, far more than anyone I’d ever met about religion and spirituality. Plus I was working with Jesus who is a very bold and direct teacher. I began to see myself as some sort of prophet or saint. I mean why not just tell everyone you know how they were completely wrong about religion and how you have divine connections that give you real answers. Isn’t that what Jesus did? Many people still think I’ve lost my mind.
In a bit of an Ego meltdown I finally shattered most of my human identity and realized that I missed the boat. The leaders of the spiritual revolution are already firmly in place, which is great. I was then without direction for a bit until a most unexpected source turned me on to the Wilcock/Cayce thing, which led me here.
So here I am. I am without a doubt a wanderer. The first feelings I got from Yoga was that this stuff could get me out of here and get me home. Of course now that I’ve woken up, I understand why I chose to do this. Who wouldn’t want to be here, helping bring forth and witnessing the dawn of a new age for humanity? I really do love these silly people and want to show them the way to a better world. What a great time, and I get to be a part of it!
I must admit that I am still new to the Law of One material and am still becoming familiar with the terminology and such. I fought my way to awareness via a weird ancient Yogic/new-wave Christian path. I’m just so glad to make some external connections to the movement. The illusions of this particular world always allow doubt, and I couldn’t quite rule out the possibility that I was actually insane. I feel so much better now.
Never fit in. Rough childhood and adolescence, few friends because I just didn’t relate to people. I spent much of my time buried in science fiction and fantasy books. You know, the usual.
I was also raised by non-believing Catholics who never the less shoved what I found to be a down right offensive religion down my throat in the hopes that it would “straighten me out.” I thus became an atheist. It was this forced dogmatic religion by obvious non-believers that was a tremendous setback and caused me to turn away from anything spiritual for a long time. It may have even involved a little bending of the free will rule to get me back, but I probably ok’d it pre-incarnation.
Later I turned to drugs, something about the ego reduction of psychedelics called to me, but I nearly got stuck in the “hard stuff.” Also almost got busted several times. Later on in life had a bit of growing fondness for alcohol. Plus I also thought that people on the fringes of society were much more agreeable. It was a series of small miracles that got me through all of that relatively unscathed.
Still looking for a human identity that fit me I became “Mr. Bicycle.” I rode thousands of miles and never stretched once, I had no time, I had to log the miles. When my legs were good and wrecked I turned to Yoga. I also began trying meditation, I figured it would help me concentrate.
Oh, man did the human identity fall away fast after that. Everything started clicking into place. The more I dove into spiritual texts them more it came together. I just kept thinking that I had to do certain things so that I could go home.
Then it got a little ugly. I was still half mired in human Ego but I knew far, far more than anyone I’d ever met about religion and spirituality. Plus I was working with Jesus who is a very bold and direct teacher. I began to see myself as some sort of prophet or saint. I mean why not just tell everyone you know how they were completely wrong about religion and how you have divine connections that give you real answers. Isn’t that what Jesus did? Many people still think I’ve lost my mind.
In a bit of an Ego meltdown I finally shattered most of my human identity and realized that I missed the boat. The leaders of the spiritual revolution are already firmly in place, which is great. I was then without direction for a bit until a most unexpected source turned me on to the Wilcock/Cayce thing, which led me here.
So here I am. I am without a doubt a wanderer. The first feelings I got from Yoga was that this stuff could get me out of here and get me home. Of course now that I’ve woken up, I understand why I chose to do this. Who wouldn’t want to be here, helping bring forth and witnessing the dawn of a new age for humanity? I really do love these silly people and want to show them the way to a better world. What a great time, and I get to be a part of it!
I must admit that I am still new to the Law of One material and am still becoming familiar with the terminology and such. I fought my way to awareness via a weird ancient Yogic/new-wave Christian path. I’m just so glad to make some external connections to the movement. The illusions of this particular world always allow doubt, and I couldn’t quite rule out the possibility that I was actually insane. I feel so much better now.
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