05-20-2012, 02:24 PM
(This post was last modified: 05-20-2012, 06:49 PM by AnthroHeart.)
Wow Confused, I just went through an intense experience these last couple of weeks. A spiritual/religious crisis it was. I had to find the truth of what I truly believe. I've been as high as an angel ascending into heaven, and as low as a lost soul being pulled into a black hole of sin for eternal sepration from God, and many things in between. I fought with everything I had till I was weary, and only Love pulled me through.
Now, as I write, there is a whole nother degree of peace and calm about me. Things seem to go right, the world just feels right. I just don't know if I'm dead or alive, is the feeling I get. It's a strange feeling. Though I intuitively know I'm still alive. I am living now based on how I feel. I had a crisis around Jesus and the cross before setting now more on zen buddhism which I am wanting to learn. There are some catalyst as well, such as I was carrying a desk with someone that just fell apart on me and popped me in the head.
My life sort of now is like that last line of the Tale of Desperaux. "We could say that it was happily ever after, but where's the fun in that?"
I feel like a kid again, like as if I were 14 years old. It's an amazing feeling. I went hiking with another family, probably around 5 miles and I wasn't even worn out. I played with the other children at the jungle gym they had there. I climbed up, slid down the slide like a child. I've probably spent a few hours on the swings too. It's such an amazing and freeing feeling. The more I let go of my beliefs, the more synchronistic becomes my life. There's still that mystery about whether I'm alive or not, since I did "experience" a death. If this is 4D, I can certainly say it's 100X more harmonious like Ra said. But I really don't use that name anymore.
The stress of everyday life has dropped to zero pretty much and I don't worry really anymore. I told God the other day "I love God so much" and I shed a slow tear. God is the One Infinite Creator, but the name God to me seems much more fatherly. Though I think I'm coming down from my spiritual high.
Love and Light,
Gemini Wolf
Now, as I write, there is a whole nother degree of peace and calm about me. Things seem to go right, the world just feels right. I just don't know if I'm dead or alive, is the feeling I get. It's a strange feeling. Though I intuitively know I'm still alive. I am living now based on how I feel. I had a crisis around Jesus and the cross before setting now more on zen buddhism which I am wanting to learn. There are some catalyst as well, such as I was carrying a desk with someone that just fell apart on me and popped me in the head.
My life sort of now is like that last line of the Tale of Desperaux. "We could say that it was happily ever after, but where's the fun in that?"
I feel like a kid again, like as if I were 14 years old. It's an amazing feeling. I went hiking with another family, probably around 5 miles and I wasn't even worn out. I played with the other children at the jungle gym they had there. I climbed up, slid down the slide like a child. I've probably spent a few hours on the swings too. It's such an amazing and freeing feeling. The more I let go of my beliefs, the more synchronistic becomes my life. There's still that mystery about whether I'm alive or not, since I did "experience" a death. If this is 4D, I can certainly say it's 100X more harmonious like Ra said. But I really don't use that name anymore.
The stress of everyday life has dropped to zero pretty much and I don't worry really anymore. I told God the other day "I love God so much" and I shed a slow tear. God is the One Infinite Creator, but the name God to me seems much more fatherly. Though I think I'm coming down from my spiritual high.
Love and Light,
Gemini Wolf