What exactly happened to Don Elkins?

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I have been trying to understand what happened to Don for years now. I think I may have been (or perhaps may still be?) on the same path as him. I want to continue this experience, so I think you can understand my earnest attempts to understand.

I recently stumbled on this quote from session 35. Please keep in mind I am not directly comparing Don to Adolf Hitler or suggesting that he was on the negative path.

Questioner: I would now like to ask for the same type of information with respect to Adolf Hitler. You have given a little of this already. It is not necessary to re-cover what you have already given, but if you could complete that information it would be helpful.

Ra: I am Ra. In speaking of the one you call Adolf we have some difficulty due to the intense amount of confusion present in this entity’s life patterns as well as the great confusion which greets any discussion of this entity.

Here we see an example of one who, in attempting activation of the highest rays of energy while lacking the green-ray key, canceled itself out as far as polarization either towards positive or negative. This entity was basically negative. However, its confusion was such that the personality disintegrated, thus leaving the mind/body/spirit complex unharvestable and much in need of healing.

This entity followed the pattern of negative polarization which suggests the elite and the enslaved, this being seen by the entity to be of an helpful nature for the societal structure. However, in drifting from the conscious polarization into what you may call a twilight world where dream took the place of events in your space/time continuum, this entity failed in its attempt to serve the Creator in an harvestable degree along the path of service to self. Thus we see the so-called insanity which may often arise when an entity attempts to polarize more quickly than experience may be integrated.

We have advised and suggested caution and patience in previous communications and do so again, using this entity as an example of the over-hasty opening of polarization without due attention to the synthesized and integrated mind/body/spirit complex. To know your self is to have the foundation upon firm ground.

I think if you apply this knowledge to the positive polarity, it is equally possible for this to happen. Since we do not know Don's thoughts, nobody can say for sure. I can say that I was extremely earnest in my attempts to understand the Ra Material and polarize on the positive path, which was a very far cry from what I was doing before I "woke up". I just wanted to learn as quickly as I could intellectually, but did very little to integrate the knowledge I was learning. I studied the material as the 'detached, objective scientist'. IMO, Don also approached the whole endeavor with the same attitude. If you are detached from the material, you certainly aren't integrating what is learned.

There is also another similar quote in the material that says something to the effect of: 'if knowledge isn't used, the training tools become negative'. I must be wording it differently because I can't seem to find it. However, once I first ran across that quote, I slammed on the brakes and only carefully proceed with Seeking once I can be sure I have integrated the knowledge I have intellectually learned.

I think this may be part of my "negative time/space" subject I've been worrying about.

And I'm worried about manifesting it (by fearing it), especially since I have this integration concern running in my mind as well.

IS there ANY advice anybody has for me on how to integrate my positive polarization and how to integrate my lessons I've learned on the past several threads?