03-12-2019, 12:01 PM
Hello Arian,
Welcome to the forum. I've recently joined it also. Hey, it's o.k to "vent", and not keep life's pressures all bottled up inside yourself.
From your post, you indicate that you've done a lot of reading. I would guess that most on the forum have that in common with you. Just reading the posts, you can tell that there's a lot of knowledge here, as well as many people with compassion and love for others.
On the "reading" subject, from the authors you list, I note that you mention a few of those known for dealing with the "conspiracy" subjects. I've read their materials as well as many others that bring to light the negative nature and actions of their "Hierarchical Pyramid".
(The following is just my life's experience)
I studied same for many years, ultimately depressing myself (and others) with every trip I discovered down another rabbit hole. A year or so ago, I finally came to the conclusion that ... o.k. ... I got the message. Metaphorically speaking, I "hung up the phone". I got it. It's rotten at the top of the pyramid, and that's just the way it is. Now, how much of this knowledge am I going to continually allow to spoil/exhaust/deplete my life-force, taking my mind/energy/time away from living in the present "moment". Dwelling on all that was "wrong" around me had literally stolen much time from my life over the years, time I'll never get back.
I'm not saying the study of the conspiratorial system is wrong, or that its your "problem", and that doing what I did will make all your negative situations go away. I'm just sharing what I did to attempt to bring more balance to my own life, and I can say that it did.
Whenever you have some spare time at home, bring up youtube on your tv. Select videos with a half hour or so of nothing but Nature... animals, landscapes... listen to the wind blow and watch as it moves the grasses in the scene back and forth. See the Creator.
You found a place of peace and beauty in that grove. Don't let it go. Keep in contact with it by "going there" in your mind when you have opportunity. Nourish it. You'll get there. It's yours.
I hope you find some "value" within this post Arian. My best wishes for you.
Welcome to the forum. I've recently joined it also. Hey, it's o.k to "vent", and not keep life's pressures all bottled up inside yourself.
From your post, you indicate that you've done a lot of reading. I would guess that most on the forum have that in common with you. Just reading the posts, you can tell that there's a lot of knowledge here, as well as many people with compassion and love for others.
On the "reading" subject, from the authors you list, I note that you mention a few of those known for dealing with the "conspiracy" subjects. I've read their materials as well as many others that bring to light the negative nature and actions of their "Hierarchical Pyramid".
(The following is just my life's experience)
I studied same for many years, ultimately depressing myself (and others) with every trip I discovered down another rabbit hole. A year or so ago, I finally came to the conclusion that ... o.k. ... I got the message. Metaphorically speaking, I "hung up the phone". I got it. It's rotten at the top of the pyramid, and that's just the way it is. Now, how much of this knowledge am I going to continually allow to spoil/exhaust/deplete my life-force, taking my mind/energy/time away from living in the present "moment". Dwelling on all that was "wrong" around me had literally stolen much time from my life over the years, time I'll never get back.
I'm not saying the study of the conspiratorial system is wrong, or that its your "problem", and that doing what I did will make all your negative situations go away. I'm just sharing what I did to attempt to bring more balance to my own life, and I can say that it did.
Whenever you have some spare time at home, bring up youtube on your tv. Select videos with a half hour or so of nothing but Nature... animals, landscapes... listen to the wind blow and watch as it moves the grasses in the scene back and forth. See the Creator.
You found a place of peace and beauty in that grove. Don't let it go. Keep in contact with it by "going there" in your mind when you have opportunity. Nourish it. You'll get there. It's yours.
I hope you find some "value" within this post Arian. My best wishes for you.