03-02-2019, 07:59 PM
People say here "don't focus on higher density"
or "don't worry about harvest"
So should I revert to how my first 30 years of life were, before I awakened?
Because we awaken, we should not seek something greater?
We should instead devote our lives to the ordinary world?
Because I want to seek the infinite, but I feel I am being told not to do so.
That I should be happy to be human. I should relish this limited life.
That we are lucky for being here.
But what if I don't feel that way?
What if I want to find my wolf family so bad?
What if anthros mean so much to me that I could cry a river?
If I want them, my soul family, badly, does that mean I should not focus on them?
I feel like I am torn between the higher realms and "having to ground".
I don't know what to do. I want to seek the greater mysteries.
But I am told that I should ground and forget them while I'm here.
Is it ok to love the gods of another anthro race?
Is it ok if I sometimes feel like I'd rather be a slave to an anthro wolf race than to be where I am now?
I don't know. I feel like crying, but I don't have the tears.
or "don't worry about harvest"
So should I revert to how my first 30 years of life were, before I awakened?
Because we awaken, we should not seek something greater?
We should instead devote our lives to the ordinary world?
Because I want to seek the infinite, but I feel I am being told not to do so.
That I should be happy to be human. I should relish this limited life.
That we are lucky for being here.
But what if I don't feel that way?
What if I want to find my wolf family so bad?
What if anthros mean so much to me that I could cry a river?
If I want them, my soul family, badly, does that mean I should not focus on them?
I feel like I am torn between the higher realms and "having to ground".
I don't know what to do. I want to seek the greater mysteries.
But I am told that I should ground and forget them while I'm here.
Is it ok to love the gods of another anthro race?
Is it ok if I sometimes feel like I'd rather be a slave to an anthro wolf race than to be where I am now?
I don't know. I feel like crying, but I don't have the tears.