How to break a spiritual contract made discarnately? (if possible)

[Cannon]

I believe I incarnated simply to continuously soak up the bad karma our mutual slaves on battlefield Earth continue to create. It would be difficult to describe how I feel, beyond being an immovable will with an irresistible urge to commit suicide.

But I'm reaching my breaking point and then I would simply be dead. Being a wanderer alone is enough to lighten the Earth's load, however.

I feel as though I must break my karma contracts I suspect I made or commit suicide. Is there any advice that I may receive?

I've been through such psychic attacks that the particular tone/taste/type of my suffering at times became ineffable--simply unable to be put into words. But it's not the intensity of the suffering that's getting to me, friends, it's the duration. I've suffered enough. Can anyone help me suffer less so that I may continue living in order to aid humanity merely with my presence as a Wanderer? I am asking completely without faith.

[AnthroHeart]

Can you meditate? That would be a first step I imagine.
If you wish, you can ask Archangel Michael to provide protection with white light from those psychic attacks.
Prayer can also be of aid.

I've been where I was freaking out because of my mental illness and thought I had to kill myself. Meditation helped me the most.
My mom works with archangel Michael when she's healing people.

What's really good though, and I do recommend, is to get some white sage, and burn it in your home.
Let the smoke fill all areas of your home and say "This space belongs to me and my family. Only the light may come here. I banish all negativity from this space."
Be sure to leave a back or front door open while saging your place.
Sage clears out negative energy and leaves a neutral feeling behind. That may provide the relief you need.

[breakingties]

I have been trough physical and psychological suffering for 6 years, cerebral strokes, physically lost my respiration, insane anxiety and schizofrenia. Everyday is a fucking struggle. I tought about suicide several times, but never had the guts to do it.

At the end of the day i surrender completely to god, i am thinking about the mission here on earth and that all this suffering is catalyst for spiritual growth. These are the only advices i could give. Hold on there buddy.

[Cannon]

Thank you, Indigo. Out of all the people who post here, I'm the most fondest of you.

The psychic attacks have taken away my ability to meditate, however. I'll try out the sage, but at this point I feel as though my free will has been taken from me and my only ability is to suffer or die. I'll try to suffer in the meantime.

I just asked for the Archangel Michael's aid, and a tear manifested and landed on my thumb and then my right shoulder.

[Sprout]

I'm sorry for the pain and struggle that you're going through, I wish there was some way I could help you other than share my thoughts distortions with you. I'm fairly young to spiritual growth, so my suffering is quite minute, in my opinion. But I've had some times where I was very suicidal, and would hurt myself physically and mentally. At the end all that led me or my thoughts to just collapse. And I would end up praying for guidance, crying endlessly, surrendering to God, , higher power, higher self, humanity, earth, even to the rays of the sun. And that surrender is what started to transform me, my thoughts and my perspectives. I was still in pain, but I had something to cling to. Find what little joy, love, passion, light at the end of the tunnel that you have in your reality and love that, become that, believe that. You deserve to feel good, you deserve to love and smile. You deserve to transform the karma that you believe you soak up and heal that through you, through your will to live, to love, and to be who you are.

[Cyan]

Help other participants in the contract finish it as quickly as possible, in other words, no.

[Cyan]

Short example:

You believe you incarnated to soak up bodies from battlefields.

This belief in why you incarnated can't as such be changed By special actions.

But if you decide that you'll soak up one body across the entire lifetime and thus fulfill the contract, your own, and at the end of it, you'll still feel the initial reason to incarnate as being true.

If I understand your explanation correctly, what you want is the power to change the reason why you become flesh while being flesh. What you are asking for is there a way to change the ego without going through death of the ego.

Far as I can tell, the ego exists as a line from beginning to end of incarnation and if you switch your desire around you switch your ego or your reason for existing, in other words. If you've made and believe you've made a contract before becoming flesh in the position you are now then there is no way to change such a contract. I don't know if I translate this properly, everything being possible, also the desire to make something impossible is possible and your desire to keep yourself burdened seems determined to keep a change impossible.

In such conditions, going through the desire is difficult and I would recommend getting to complete the outer desires of the desire before proceeding, in other words, before changing yourself look at the people influenced By your desire and attempt to be of help and have that change your desire. That or in short, if it is impossible to change a desire change the people around you and see how that influences your desire.

Hope that helps.

[AnthroHeart]

I asked my teacher for advice, and she gave the following:

How awful!  This simply cannot be . No one would be put on earth to simply suffer. He is under the influence of dark entities and his ego  has gotten out of control!  The idea that you are somehow saving humanity is most likely a dark entity taking and vantage of his ego and his desire to be special and important and then driving him into the ground . Sage would help for sure. He just has to say no. He has full will power over his life. He can ask for a reading and I would help him

I hope that helps. If need be Cannon, PM me and I'll give you my teacher's contact info.

[Cannon]

Cyan, it does help.

Ego-death is one of the things I don't really mind anymore, as in I don't care either which way my ego goes. It's ultimately just the destruction of the Mind/Body/Spirit complex. I've been put through horrific delusions wherein a genuine infinite death as the materialists on Earth believe occurs would be paradise in comparison to the realities I've been induced to believe in whilst suffering depressive states in my bipolar disorder. I had one delusion in which I caused the One Infinite Creator itself to commit suicide, to become the Unconscious Infinite as spoken of in the LOO, and then remake the entirety of creation only to create me again, an infinitesimal probability which must be found eventually, a thing which should not exist for it causes only agony for the creator, only for the Creator to commit suicide again and again in the only method it knew how--to become unconscious yet again, only to inevitably find me again within its endless search in self discovery.

Pretty much sucks to be you at that point. It was satisfying in a way, however, because the reason for it was my "panache" or "chutzpah" that caused the Creator the agony. My personality tone itself was the death of all goodness. It was an attempt to make me service-to-self, I believe, if I'm telling the whole story correctly.

[Cannon]

Indigo, I would love a reading from your teacher and would be truly honored to receive it. I expect to be found wanting in many areas, so it will take a bit of panache to withstand, but I'll manage.

[flofrog]

Cannon, just sending you love and all best wishes. Like a Indigo, meditation is the first thing I would think. I don’t know if this will help, I know I committed suicide in another life when, as a father, I found the body of my son in a battlefield, and in this life one of my children, less than two yrs old, neardrowned and was in a coma for thirteen years, very soon after the accident being off any machine to sustain him, so apparently planning to stay on. Everyone was attracted to him. In his third year of coma, I had that reading which said he had planned this, as he had a debt to pay and was during that time helping souls to transit after their passing between Earth and Nirvana. My karma was to see that I could carry through without committing suicide again. It was in fact way lighter than it seems because he was so lovely and transformed the life of my other children and mine.
I so send you love.

[Cannon]

Cannon,  just sending you love and all best wishes. Like a Indigo, meditation is the first thing I would think. I don’t know if this will help, I know I committed suicide in another life when, as a father, I found the body of my son in a battlefield, and in this life one of my children, less than two yrs old,  neardrowned and was in a coma for thirteen years, very soon after the accident being off any machine to sustain him, so apparently planning to stay on. Everyone was attracted to him. In his third year of coma,  I had that reading which said he had planned this,  as he had a debt to pay and was during that time helping souls to transit after their passing  between Earth and Nirvana. My karma was to see that I could carry through without committing suicide again.  It was in fact way lighter than it seems because he was so lovely and transformed the life of my other children and mine.
I so send you love.

You are a beautiful soul, as is your son.

[Infinite]

Do it this: http://www.heartki.com/21-day-spiritual-...l-michael/

[Cannon]

Do it this: http://www.heartki.com/21-day-spiritual-...l-michael/

Thank you so much for that link. I believe it may have saved my life, and that is far from an overstatement.

[GentleReckoning]

Yo cannon, I feel you.

Your rising would invalidate the subconscious arguments of those in your family/society/group, etc.

The ego-death cycling which you are experiencing is due to the fact that you are consciously aware of your mood/vibration probably at all times. This causes you to invalidate the arguments of those that drift up and down constantly. The blow-back from this kind of conscious manipulation of density is the square wave type of mood swings that you have noticed.

Consciously expressing hate/change to your body via healthier eating and lifting weights actually fulfills the same energetic voids as the ego-death/death wish cycling you are currently experiencing.

Basically the group consciousness is attempting to sideline/destroy/marginalize spiritual or high-vibrational people. This is why so many artists and musicians end up committing suicide. This process when you are on the bottom is manageable, just because you can imagine yourself at the top. If you're at the top and it happens, it's a death-wish and parties.

A stronger body correlates positively with a stronger individual logos on all levels. Hit me up if you want personalized help.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

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[EvolvingPhoenix]

Can you meditate? That would be a first step I imagine.
If you wish, you can ask Archangel Michael to provide protection with white light from those psychic attacks.
Prayer can also be of aid.

I've been where I was freaking out because of my mental illness and thought I had to kill myself. Meditation helped me the most.
My mom works with archangel Michael when she's healing people.

What's really good though, and I do recommend, is to get some white sage, and burn it in your home.
Let the smoke fill all areas of your home and say "This space belongs to me and my family. Only the light may come here. I banish all negativity from this space."
Be sure to leave a back or front door open while saging your place.
Sage clears out negative energy and leaves a neutral feeling behind. That may provide the relief you need.

I'ma do this too! One question though: Can they use the doggy door?

Yo cannon, I feel you.

Your rising would invalidate the subconscious arguments of those in your family/society/group, etc.

The ego-death cycling which you are experiencing is due to the fact that you are consciously aware of your mood/vibration probably at all times. This causes you to invalidate the arguments of those that drift up and down constantly. The blow-back from this kind of conscious manipulation of density is the square wave type of mood swings that you have noticed.

Consciously expressing hate/change to your body via healthier eating and lifting weights actually fulfills the same energetic voids as the ego-death/death wish cycling you are currently experiencing.

Basically the group consciousness is attempting to sideline/destroy/marginalize spiritual or high-vibrational people. This is why so many artists and musicians end up committing suicide. This process when you are on the bottom is manageable, just because you can imagine yourself at the top. If you're at the top and it happens, it's a death-wish and parties.

A stronger body correlates positively with a stronger individual logos on all levels. Hit me up if you want personalized help.

Ahh. Yeah you mentioned that to me before when I was talking about my childhood. This is a bit easier to understand though.

[AnthroHeart]

Can you meditate? That would be a first step I imagine.
If you wish, you can ask Archangel Michael to provide protection with white light from those psychic attacks.
Prayer can also be of aid.

I've been where I was freaking out because of my mental illness and thought I had to kill myself. Meditation helped me the most.
My mom works with archangel Michael when she's healing people.

What's really good though, and I do recommend, is to get some white sage, and burn it in your home.
Let the smoke fill all areas of your home and say "This space belongs to me and my family. Only the light may come here. I banish all negativity from this space."
Be sure to leave a back or front door open while saging your place.
Sage clears out negative energy and leaves a neutral feeling behind. That may provide the relief you need.

I'ma do this too! One question though: Can they use the doggy door?

I think it makes things easier if the door is open. It allows the smoke to go out too. It's not bad, I like sage smoke, but it does get thick.
It doesn't set off my smoke alarms though, which is interesting.

[Cannon]

I want to share my sincere gratitude for anyone who has even read this thread, and especially for those who posted in it. I am feeling tremendously better.

By the way, friends, I have found the cure for Depression (and perhaps even Cancer.) This has also helped me immensely, though you may not like the news in some way.

It is urophagia, the drinking og one's own urine. Please do your own research before questioning or considering this. However, after having done so myself, I'm going to continue going on a urine fast and its helping me greatly, but it was the love that I was send because I made this thread that truly did bring me back from the brink, as well as the advice.

Peace be unto all of you, and all of the rest of us.

I give thanks and praise to the one infinite creator for having existed alongside you all in any way.

[GentleReckoning]

Do keep us updated. I'd love to hear more.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I want to share my sincere gratitude for anyone who has even read this thread, and especially for those who posted in it. I am feeling tremendously better.

No problem man! THANK YOU for posting! Every post one makes that gets good answers is something the whole community can then learn from. That's why I pore through all the posts in this community trying to learn more. I only started reading the Law of One a month ago, and haven't really been keeping up with the book itself, yet the things I've been learning since, from the rest of the internet and DEFINITELY here on this community especially have vastly expanded my spiritual awareness in just a month! So keep posting and interacting with the community man. We got your back! We're all in this together

By the way, friends, I have found the cure for Depression (and perhaps even Cancer.) This has also helped me immensely, though you may not like the news in some way.

It is urophagia, the drinking og one's own urine. Please do your own research before questioning or considering this. However, after having done so myself, I'm going to continue going on a urine fast and its helping me greatly, but it was the love that I was send because I made this thread that truly did bring me back from the brink, as well as the advice.

There has GOT to be a better way X,D

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Can you meditate? That would be a first step I imagine.
If you wish, you can ask Archangel Michael to provide protection with white light from those psychic attacks.
Prayer can also be of aid.

I've been where I was freaking out because of my mental illness and thought I had to kill myself. Meditation helped me the most.
My mom works with archangel Michael when she's healing people.

What's really good though, and I do recommend, is to get some white sage, and burn it in your home.
Let the smoke fill all areas of your home and say "This space belongs to me and my family. Only the light may come here. I banish all negativity from this space."
Be sure to leave a back or front door open while saging your place.
Sage clears out negative energy and leaves a neutral feeling behind. That may provide the relief you need.

I'ma do this too! One question though: Can they use the doggy door?

I think it makes things easier if the door is open. It allows the smoke to go out too. It's not bad, I like sage smoke, but it does get thick.
It doesn't set off my smoke alarms though, which is interesting.

Can the door just be cracked? Maybe I'll leave the door to the garage cracked and the garage door open just enough that I could see a person being able to crawl under it. Not my fault if leaving my house is a huge pain in the ass for malevolent entities. They shouldn't have been here to begin with. Not that I harbour ill will against them. Just sayin'...

Anyway, I live in Florida, man. We got mosquitos out here like a motherfucker. Are you sure these malevolent spirits just can't use a doggy door? I'll gladly take the smoke over the mosquitos. Plus, I can crack a window (with a screen in it) in my room, like I used to when I was a pothead.

So seriously, are you SURE they can't use the doggy door?

[AnthroHeart]

Can you meditate? That would be a first step I imagine.
If you wish, you can ask Archangel Michael to provide protection with white light from those psychic attacks.
Prayer can also be of aid.

I've been where I was freaking out because of my mental illness and thought I had to kill myself. Meditation helped me the most.
My mom works with archangel Michael when she's healing people.

What's really good though, and I do recommend, is to get some white sage, and burn it in your home.
Let the smoke fill all areas of your home and say "This space belongs to me and my family. Only the light may come here. I banish all negativity from this space."
Be sure to leave a back or front door open while saging your place.
Sage clears out negative energy and leaves a neutral feeling behind. That may provide the relief you need.

I'ma do this too! One question though: Can they use the doggy door?

I think it makes things easier if the door is open. It allows the smoke to go out too. It's not bad, I like sage smoke, but it does get thick.
It doesn't set off my smoke alarms though, which is interesting.

Can the door just be cracked? Maybe I'll leave the door to the garage cracked and the garage door open just enough that I could see a person being able to crawl under it. Not my fault if leaving my house is a huge pain in the ass for malevolent entities. They shouldn't have been here to begin with. Not that I harbour ill will against them. Just sayin'...

Anyway, I live in Florida, man. We got mosquitos out here like a motherfucker.  Are you sure these malevolent spirits just can't use a doggy door? I'll gladly take the smoke over the mosquitos. Plus, I can crack a window (with a screen in it) in my room, like I used to when I was a pothead.

So seriously, are you SURE they can't use the doggy door?

I think your intent is the most important. I've saged with my doors closed before, and that worked. I don't see why not.
I was just recommended to open the door. But if you can't or prefer not to then that's fine.

[Cannon]

Do keep us updated. I'd love to hear more.

As you wish.

As long as I receive absolutely no recompense in return. No likes upon any of my posts.

The very system of 'liking' posts is abhorrent to me, because it brainwashes people into forming unconscious groupthink habits, due to the apparent weaknesses of our DNA, that are now finally being undone. Virtue should be its own reward.

[Cannon]

When I finally reveal, through finite poetry of infinite subtlety, my suffering, that was for you without the expectation of recompense, you will demand to give me recompense.

For it was so powerful it caused negatives to go positive, and positives to go negative, but I kept the Faith and remained the serviceman, the Sergeant with the Cannon.

So in return I will ask for: "Oblivion."

And so grateful will you be at my service, that at first you will think, astonishingly, he wishes to die!

[Cyan]

Strong emotional alterations in your weekly or monthly cycle point to a vitamin deficiency, I recommend seeing if that is not the case.

[Louisabell]

Glad to see you're feeling better.

I've been put through horrific delusions wherein a genuine infinite death as the materialists on Earth believe occurs would be paradise in comparison to the realities I've been induced to believe in whilst suffering depressive states in my bipolar disorder. I had one delusion in which I caused the One Infinite Creator itself to commit suicide, to become the Unconscious Infinite as spoken of in the LOO, and then remake the entirety of creation only to create me again, an infinitesimal probability which must be found eventually, a thing which should not exist for it causes only agony for the creator, only for the Creator to commit suicide again and again in the only method it knew how--to become unconscious yet again, only to inevitably find me again within its endless search in self discovery.

Pretty much sucks to be you at that point. It was satisfying in a way, however, because the reason for it was my "panache" or "chutzpah" that caused the Creator the agony. My personality tone itself was the death of all goodness. It was an attempt to make me service-to-self, I believe, if I'm telling the whole story correctly.

I experienced something similar. It badly shook me and I found it spiritually traumatising. It took a while, but I realise now that I had pushed myself too close to the Infinite Mystery. I didn't understand why my fairytale visions of the Creation had turned on me so badly, and I came close to losing my faith. But I realise now it was just another gate of fire in which debris could be burned away. I now carry with me a clearer understanding of the Mystery.

I wish you the very best in your healing journey, and may I recommend you try to not let high energy phases run away from you. Be gentle with your very cherished soul  

[isis]

By the way, friends, I have found the cure for Depression (and perhaps even Cancer.) This has also helped me immensely, though you may not like the news in some way.

It is urophagia, the drinking og one's own urine. Please do your own research before questioning or considering this. However, after having done so myself, I'm going to continue going on a urine fast and its helping me greatly, but it was the love that I was send because I made this thread that truly did bring me back from the brink, as well as the advice.

There has GOT to be a better way X,D

I can think of about a million other ways I'd try before that one.

[Cannon]

When I was five years old I was raped in Catholic school by older children imitating that which was done to them. Instead of ejaculate put in my mouth and down my throat, they forced me to swallow their urine. If I can do it again, you cowards have nothing to fear.

http://educate-yourself.org/fc/#urine

[AnthroHeart]

I once read in some detailed instructions for making the Philosopher's Stone, and that the main ingredient in that was urine.
I just remember that it was complicated to make it. I think there was a red and a white Philosopher's Stone. Depending on how far you took it.