What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
11-12-2017, 06:19 PM, (This post was last modified: 11-12-2017, 06:22 PM by Cainite.)
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
Yeah I apologize to everyone who had to read this.. even those who may have grabbed popcorn and enjoyed watching us embarrass ourselves.

C I love you, man! you're one of the realest people ever. the reason I like you so much is that you don't hide behind anything.. you pour out your heart in every post. that takes real courage to do so. you don't secretly watch american dad like our hostile friend here may do (ok this was the last punch I throw, sorry)
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11-12-2017, 06:55 PM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
Hey, I'm sure he saw you as hostile too.  No worries from me here lol.

I'm actually fairly fake... Gah, blast, I am very fake.  I'm actually a very lazy, very tired, very frustrated, perverted, judgmental, stubborn ass hole.  Just ask my mother hahaha! Hah! Ah hah...  hah...  Yeah.

I honestly believe my only redeeming qualities are the ridiculous amounts of caring I feel for others, my intensive contemplative nature, and my sexual capabilities...

Beyond that, I pretty much judge myself into oblivion.

I saw a post by Diana today while perusing the Who's Online list, about empowerment.  It rang so deeply true to me it actually hurt because I realized I have never once in my life felt empowered.  In fact, more than anything, I very often feel helpless by my own learned motions to make myself so.  It's actually very embarrassing when you reach out for help, then deny it because deep down inside it feels hopeless and pointless.

But I am finding out continually that I should try to be... The best I can be, and I shouldn't beat myself up so much, or be afraid of letting go of old ways of thinking.

Perhaps auric holes can effect how one thinks and feels and not just their susceptibility to being influenced by external forces.

I'm sure I've got a few holes that need some healing...  Ways of thinking that need transforming.
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11-12-2017, 07:02 PM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
...Actually, 2014 was the closest I ever came to feeling empowered.  To 'realizing my power' as I explored the orange ray.

I wonder if there are auric holes unrelated to the chakra center and attached auras.  Like, we can get holes in our physical bodies from smoking, in our brains from drugs...

A VERY INTERESTING thing to me anyways, is the human instinct to react to holes with fear.  Or the great shock and disturbance that comes from holes on the body from, say, a parasitic infestation.

If we're programmed instinctually to react to holes with such emotions as fear, shock, and disturbance, how would we psychologically react to metaphysical holes?

Is a hole what makes, say, an abused person have a tendency to be abusive? Does a hole in the energetic body have any relevance to such?
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11-12-2017, 11:36 PM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
(11-12-2017, 05:45 PM)Cainite Wrote:  How can liking sth mainstream make you stupid? american dad or anything.. I dont watch it but I did actually find the ending of the video I shared very funny. now does that make me stupid?

That ending was funny as hell.

(11-12-2017, 07:02 PM)Coordinate_Apotheosis Wrote:  Is a hole what makes, say, an abused person have a tendency to be abusive? Does a hole in the energetic body have any relevance to such?

It is my understanding that the cycle of abuse is due solely to a repeating, potentially self-reinforcing thoughtform born of experience. It is possible to be abused without dissociating and compromising your auric field, yet still producing a strongly manifesting thoughtform. If there is a hole though, then that opens the door to much worse things manifesting than simple thought patterns.

And let me just drop an opinion while TLOTYM* is present. Avoid 4chan. I see what I think are thoughtforms originating, or at least strongly resonating, with certain negatively-inhabited boards manifesting in some interactions in this thread. I once partook of these, so that's how I feel I know what is at play here. It would be a shame to pollute this oasis of a forum with the swampy waters of another.

You know, my brothers, I think we share some very similar catalyst and experience. We should relish the opportunity to provoke and engage eachother for the purpose of learning. But never forget the underlying truth of the situation, that being the eternal comradery of like souls.


*The League of Troubled Young Men, my resonant demographic.
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11-13-2017, 12:10 AM, (This post was last modified: 11-13-2017, 12:11 AM by Mahakali.)
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
(11-12-2017, 05:22 PM)Coordinate_Apotheosis Wrote:  stuff

>Me, rather confused as to what has happened to you that you see no problem in your anger and murderous intent.

A brief experience of pure, intense bliss, true happiness, feeling perfect and complete, sandwiched between a lifetime of nothing but suffering. You'd develop mental problems if you heard half of it. My psychologist told me that I'd had several lifetimes of experiences and suggested I commit suicide to end the pain, and that was years before any of it even really started.

I was never happy, except now it's worse, because I know what it's like to feel the most awesome happiness in the world. But they tore it away because it wasn't orthodox or "proper", even though I could have been perfectly happy without it going whatever direction they were worried about...

I fucking hate Christians.

Anyways, there's not anything that can really hurt me anymore, and that's cold comfort (even when I was rammed by a car and forced to crawl hundreds of yards through the mud with multiple compound fractures, all I could think was "It'll be okay, I've been through worse than this before"), but nothing that makes me happy, either. It's all pain, every second of every day, and that lends itself to rage. Yoda had it wrong... Suffering leads to hate, and hate leads to transcendence.

As far as murder goes... Do you subsist solely on light like some kind of breatharian, or do you eat some form of butchered life every day just to keep yourself alive? You live in a society that's a giant factory farm. You can't support it by accusing me of wanting to break its laws ("murder") when the whole system is based on cold-blooded slaughter.

Now, yeah, if I can just walk out, then what need is there for violence? If I can develop myself spiritually and go to a plane where I have the knowledge I want and the power to do as I want, intelligent infinity with no time limit or limitations, then, great. But the Christians (and of COURSE it's the Christians; everything good and beautiful in life gets taken away by the Christians) have given me stern warnings against striving for that ideal, citing the tower of babel story in which God, being a giant crybaby bully as usual, punished humans for trying to work their way out of this miserable hellhole.

Well... if I'm not going to be happy, I see no reason why they should be, so I'll make them suffer unless and until I find a way out.

>In my own exploration of animosity, pure malice, and hatred, I have found the root to be a lack of love being given to the person enacting such emotions.

That's pretty gay. (inb4 mods get upset at me using "gay" as a curse word; I'm bi, it's like n-word privileges; I don't have anything against LGBT; I shouldn't get beeped - video related)





>I feel, from that personal realization, that the only true means to combat the purity of destruction in those emotions is to meet their intensity with gentleness, compassionate consideration for that person's life.

Oh, nice, so what's your favorite strain? Mine are Trainwreck, Death Star, Durban Poison, Northern Lights, AK-47, and Girl Scout Cookies... and I know for a fact I'm forgetting a few, because it's been a while since I've smoked as much as you apparently are, but god damn do I miss that lady. Mary Jane used to be the love of my life, back when I had one.

>It's a bit of twisting logic, but I would describe it that a person whom is denied love, becomes cold, then isolated, then bitter, then enters a downward spiral, they grow aggressive, offensive, trying to remind people that they deserve love.  They want love.  They matter too.

Yeah, I'd say that's twisting some logic.

Maybe it was about love at one point. But, no, this isn't a cry for help, either; I did have a few of those back in middle and high school, and that ship has sailed.

Do I matter to the world? Man, I don't give a f***. That's another epiphany that's come to me recently. As a teen, I was really psychotic and violent and sick in the head, and I didn't have many friends. I cried. I wanted to be "normal". I wanted to fit it and be a part of things.

Then, something probably heard me, and I gained a lot of friends, became kinda popular for a bit. I enjoyed it. But the more I experienced these people, the more I hated them, the more I realized that they didn't think for themselves and walked on the pavement, colored in the lines. Even the so-called counterculture was just a few extra shades of grey. Exceptions being Juggalos and a couple other groups.

I eventually came to the conclusion that I just didn't like people, with few exceptions. Most of the things I do and like are not well-received by society, and actively discouraged in most cases, so I'd rather my very presence unbalance them as much as possible. Presence Chaos with a capital C, and not the stuck-up, pretentious, I'm-redefining-an-edgy-word-to-mean-something-peaceful-and-NORP-friendly-just-to-bait-idiots-who-don't-know-my-definition-of-the-word-because-I'm-the-satanic-temple-or-peter-gillmore-or-the-IOT-or-just-a-fucking-hipster-in-general type of Chaos. Just good, old fashioned disruption.

My theme song:





Whatever desires I have to be liked are just astral debris, leftover structures that are slowly being eroded by other things.

Maybe there is some hope left deep down, desperately wishing for help from someone who actually could, but hope is a toxic and corrosive demon (and not even the fun kind).

Part of me still hopes against all hope that some kind of miracle will pop up out of nowhere and fix what I need fixed, save me. But I know better. The only miracles that happen are the ones you pry out of God's cold, dead hands. So I'm sharpening my hatchet.

>I see a severely hurt person

Yeah, sure. I'll admit to being hurt. But it's the kind of hurt that helps you transcend all others. Like I said, at this point, anything else is just more black on black. Things can still hurt, but it's all in the same order of magnitude. Nothing to be afraid of.

Like on the Billy & Mandy (and there's a cartoon worth watching) movie. I already live my worst fear every day, so I hold Horror's Hand.

>In many cases of solitary confinement, the confined person WILL act out, sometimes violently, to garnish attention, to be attended to.  To attract 'care'. This is no different from 'troublemakers', this is no different from being alone and then exploding on, say, a store clerk when things accidentally go wrong.

No, I just want my astral body fixed and my merkaba untied and for you and everyone else to leave me the f*** alone. Gimmie that and we'll have no problems at all.

My motivation is to be free, and to torture my tormentors as a backup plan.

>I will try, to be a friend. Maybe that's foolish of me, and stupid.

Yeah.

>So, be angry at me, be offensive.  

Only because you asked so nicely.

>I will hug that crazed animosity, and tenderly remind you that I see your anger and while I may not be able to understand the depth of it, I will not just let it consume itself in rage.

Just remember what you're making contact with. I'm contagious.

>You can fight, but must it be so personal?

Oh, I thought me and Cainite were bonding. Did I misinterpret the situation?

>I like American Dad, I watch that crap.

I watch South Park. I have taste.

Family Guy was funny when I was 12, but American Dad never was.

>probably labeled in a CIA or FBI database as a domestic) terrorist

Go you. Nobody who's worth anything isn't on those lists.




Responding to my ISIS buddy here in a bit. Taking a little break.
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11-13-2017, 01:43 AM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
I think avoidance of 4chan should be a general internet guideline lol.

You know, you paint yourself as a psychopath.  That's pretty cool, I paint myself as a pathetic loser.

I think we enjoy living those realities, it removes us from responsibilities.  Unburdens us with freedom, despite knowing no such freedom.

Your psychologist sounds like he was very well provoked by you, or very well was not very good at his job.

So 'They' whom took your happiness away were Christians.

You say nothing can hurt you.  This is an echo of a song I hold dear to me.

Nothing can hurt me now because I don't care anymore.
Nothing can hurt me.

It is synchronistic in that it's very clear you are already hurting.  You almost come off like a cornered man, ready to kill but not wanting to, hoping, as men will, for the situation to change.

You again provide a gruesome example, yet so few specifics.  Why did this happen?  Why did no one help you?  What is up with that story and why do you omit specific details to help us understand the severity of your situation?

Hate does lead to transformation, though I do not think it is permanent in all honesty, not always anyways.

I am not accusing you lol, you very clearly have stated your desire, I was just inquiring, as it seemed like a kind thing to do.

It's my understanding that the Tower of Babel was a monument dedicated to God, and is a metaphorical tale of furthering the concept of separation being enacted by God in more ways than just concepts, but in language.  The tower was a monument of unity, and humanity was still too young and unaware, so God gave them more time, more catalyst, made life, Harder, for their benefit arguably.

And that was apparently God's right to do so, even if it makes no sense as to why right now.

Why have you been unable to escape the influence of these Christian's?

What do you mean by a way out?  A way out from where?  From what?

What's wrong with being a Pretty Gay? Wink Tongue
I'm serious, you've been denied love, that is a very important part of anyone's life.  Without that love, we can become...  Well, look at infants raised without the care of anyone, nursed like patients, fed, changed, they grow up so vastly different from people with affection and care given to them.  They develop much differently.

This is true whether from as an infant, to adults even.  No love will put us on some difficult roads in life.

Believe it or not man, I wrote all of that sober.  Weed isn't the way to do what I proposed.  Simply choosing to do so, is.  I have chosen to be compassionate and considerate of you.  You are responding to me without hatred directed at me.  You're even being humorous and joking, you're enjoying our exchange even if you seem to say otherwise.  I don't see why else you'd waste your time responding point by point with me.  Maybe you're just playing a game with me, giving me clues to chase a fiction, I don't know, I just know you appear hurt, and that deserves some attention.

Juggalos, I admit, they're an interesting culture, definitely weirdos in both good and bad ways lol...

I think there's more than what you're telling me, I don't know why you hide it though.  Your disruption seems to be self inflicted inwardly.  

Come on now Mahakali.  We all have desires, you call yours energetic debris but surely you must desire something.  You know, I bet you desire to rip off someone's skull, tearing out their spine right with it.  Whatever man, you don't need to deny them.  Maybe you have psychotic desires, at least you hold onto them.  You're not murdering anyone.

I bet you have a favorite food.  Or even a drink? Come on Mahakali, we all desire.  That's not debris, that's human.  You're not some big broken machine man.  You are an intelligent and seemingly enlightened person in your own way and light.  You might shine chaos but a little bit of chaos brings a lot of order.

That chaos, it's presence, is the great shuffling hands of the creator in the primordial deck of life.

Mahakali, without you, we'd all be uniformly orderly to the point of stagnation.  You provide us very important catalyst and experiences, and for that you are a valid individual who's desires matter, greatly!

And YET, I wouldn't be such a great friend if I just let you isolate yourself or let you consume yourself in hatred and revenge.  I'm just a forum goer man, but I can at least shine a small sliver of light at you, let you know someone gives a f*** about you, hopes for your safety even if hope is dastardly to you.  Cares at least a teeny tiny little bit.

Perhaps I will pray for your miracle.  Miracles happen everyday.  God's been dead, the tree of life growing from it's corpse takes time to reach us, but I think small miracles surround you, and if you looked for them, you might even spot a few big ones.  The branches of guidance. I'm very sure you have much more going on behind the scenes than you're led to be aware of, but I think your spirit guides are going to give you a very pleasant surprise one day in the form of some kind of long in the works miracle suddenly being known.

Your bravery is commendable, I could not be so strong in your position.

Your honesty is appreciated despite the subterfuge of omission of it all.

You don't seem so angry at me, so that's good though.

Hey, that's funny, I'm contagious too, I make people double take at the grand idiocy of my apparent brilliance, and turn them into judgmental stubborn jerks just like myself!

You can bond while fighting, watch Dragon Ball bruh

I never watched much South Park, I never got the chance to but one day I will!

I'm probably just on those lists because I want a new government that's less secretive and corrupt.

It's been a pleasure talking to you man, I'll leave you be now if you want, just know I worry about you...  I hope things get better for you, and I'm sorry for everything you've had to suffer through...
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11-13-2017, 05:53 AM, (This post was last modified: 11-13-2017, 05:59 AM by Mahakali.)
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
Nah, some of the channers were tryna help with certain things, even. I don't heed general guidelines.

Psychopath, pathetic loser, call it whatever.

No, I don't care anymore.

The psychologist meant well. It sounds strange, but he was trying to help. Maybe he had an inkling of what I was in for. If I had any sense, I'd have offed myself a long time ago, but I don't, and I'm going to spread the sickness.

No, the idea is for the hatred and revenge to consume other people.

Considering some of God's other behavior in that book, I'm more inclined to believe that that baby-killing, genocidal, pro-slavery, self-described jealous, serial raping bastard just didn't want the competition.

What did I do? Why did no one help?

There were a few acts I was framed for that I didn't commit, along with a few thoughtcrimes that I didn't and a few thoughtcrimes that I did. So moralfags like Aion on this forum who think that people should get the Dementor's Kiss for jaywalking lit up a few torches, grabbed their pitchforks, put on their Klan robes, tied a few knots in a rope, and dragged my ass to the hangin' tree.

No one helped because it wasn't the popular thing to do. Like I said, most people are idiots. Most people called for my head on a platter because they like the bloodsports. The funniest bit is, they tell themselves they enjoy it because I'm a psycho and completely fail to see the irony in that. They aren't sick fucks any less than I am, they just color inside the lines, so the enslavers don't frame them for murder and throw them in an astral wood chipper in front of a couple million people; instead, they get to laugh about watching them do that to people and pretend that they're somehow less sick than I am.

I don't know. My doctors didn't think I'm a full-blown psychopath, but I did get "antisocial features" on a diagnostic sheet or two.

What do I desire? Revenge. Was I not clear about that? I call the other "desires" astral debris because I don't pursue them or attempt to preserve their energetic integrity, because they're not really desires, just mechanical reactions.

>Hey, that's funny, I'm contagious too, I make people double take at the grand idiocy of my apparent brilliance, and turn them into judgmental stubborn jerks just like myself!

It's like being a vampire.

I will have revenge. That's what matters. That's what I need to focus on.




I'm still responding to you, Cain, so please don't strap anything to your chest and go running into a crowd of civilians just yet.
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11-13-2017, 06:04 AM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
Quote:I'm still responding to you, Cain, so please don't strap anything to your chest and go running into a crowd of civilians just yet.

Why am I not surprised? you seek to widen your holes.
You may be obsessed with me. I don't care about you.

I bet the other people who u say have wronged u in the past, they don't even remember you or know you!

Stop talking to me or about me. I have done nothing to you. and find your childish attitude kinda adorable.
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11-13-2017, 06:08 AM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
And the terrorist jokes are just damn stupid. you're not funny. stop trying too hard if you want to offend me instead of being just plain annoying.
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11-13-2017, 06:52 AM, (This post was last modified: 11-13-2017, 06:57 AM by Mahakali.)
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
(11-13-2017, 06:08 AM)Cainite Wrote:  Blah, blah, blah.

>"I don't care about you at all"
>responds within minutes to anything I post that mentions him very briefly at the end, thinks entire post is about him
>"you're obsessed with me"
>after he writes me a message and I respond to everyone else first, tell him that I'll get to him eventually
>"stop trying so hard"
>multiple posts in a row any time someone mentions him in passing


Yeah, okay.

No, I'm not obsessed with you, I just didn't want you to think I was trying to ignore you or didn't read your response or something.

If you're not offended by the terrorist jokes, then I'll continue with them, because they amuse me, at least, and that's what my goal is here.

If you REALLY don't care about what I have to say, you can prove it by not begging me to stop replying to the things you write to me in the same breath as you post multiple-post responses to rants that weren't even primarily directed at you.

No, I won't stop talking to or about you when you reply to my posts. You'll still get a response.
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11-13-2017, 07:00 AM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
A clown like you can't offend anyone. you just annoy them. others give you hugs but I slap you to wake you up. as I would do to my little brother.
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11-13-2017, 09:51 AM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
(11-13-2017, 07:00 AM)Cainite Wrote:  A clown like you can't offend anyone. you just annoy them. others give you hugs but I slap you to wake you up. as I would do to my little brother.

http://www.thesaurus.com/browse/offend

In an incredible twist worthy of a whole franchise of M Night Shyamalan movies, "annoy" and "offend" are actually synonyms. You just invalidate my viewpoint because the etheric structures they built and shoved into my aura programmed you to belittle me. Even people who otherwise wouldn't get biased by them. Annoying as f***, but also gets people to underestimate me severely a lot of the time, and that would be useful if I weren't so prone to believing those structures myself. People like you who can't see through them are nothing to worry about.

On the contrary, I tend to annoy/offend the piss out of people every time I turn around whether I intend to or not, and I really need to stop treating that like a disability and start treating that as the superpower it is.

At any rate, we do have one thing in common, and that's the deep inspiration we draw from our role model Abu Bakr al-Baghdadi... Think about it. He was held in an American prison camp for a year. al-Qaeda's leadership didn't like him, thought he was too crazy and aggressive. Even Obama himself dismissed him as a "junior varsity" terrorist who would never measure up. But al-Baghdadi didn't give up on his dream, didn't listen to the naysayers or the moralfags, and just look what he accomplished.

By the time he was finished, al-Qaeda - the most feared terrorist organization in the world responsible for the deadliest terrorist attack in history - were getting called "a bunch of has-beens" by the media. I'm sure you're far more familiar with his life and beliefs than I am, but we can both agree, for our own reasons, that he's a deeply inspiring figure that we should strive to emulate in our own lives.

I need to work harder, sure, and I will. It doesn't matter to me whether or not certain people want me around; again, if I've attracted a lot of attention to myself, it means having a lot of influence over other peoples' minds, and someone will recognize the potential in that. And even if not, I do, and I'll start my own s*** with blackjack and hookers. I'll also retaliate against people who did certain things, even if I have to go through Hell Doom-style and kill every single one of the fuckers with a shotgun and a chainsaw, because I'm pissed and that's how we do things when I'm pissed.

Call it arrogance or hubris or whatever else. Even the gods can bleed. If I choose to devote myself to it, I can, eventually, pay everyone back who wronged me. I've thought it over a lot, and if they wanna hit me that hard, it's only natural I should respond. And I think that's why they're so big on trying to get me to forgive them - there's always a way to get to them, but most people they f*** over will have forgotten about it an incarnation or two later, or just drop it because they're afraid for themselves, or get mislead into attacking the wrong people, but for somebody who feels no pain and has no desire other than revenge... well, that's dangerous. Even if they kill me, they won't have seen the last of me.

But maybe I'll just go for mahapralaya, if that's a thing. That's what I want.

Most of this was to organize thoughts in my own head, for the record.
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11-14-2017, 11:47 AM, (This post was last modified: 11-14-2017, 12:03 PM by Aion.)
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
Quote:So moralfags like Aion on this forum who think that people should get the Dementor's Kiss for jaywalking lit up a few torches, grabbed their pitchforks, put on their Klan robes, tied a few knots in a rope, and dragged my ass to the hangin' tree.

Ahaha You crack me up, man. You have also grossly misunderstood me, but thats okay, Im sure I've misunderstood you plenty as well. If you are under the impression I have in some way condemned you it is absolutely not true. I may not make my choices the same way but I dont look down on you for the way you make yours. I just will always remember when you told me when you wish you could just take it easy, work on video games and smoke weed and I wish for you to have that peace of life. I said even then that it might take going through blood and fire to get there, so not sure how you've taken it that I have such a puritanical perspective. I sure am not even close to being a Christian, far far from it. I ain't no Buddhist either.
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11-14-2017, 12:23 PM, (This post was last modified: 11-14-2017, 12:28 PM by Aion.)
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
Also my best advice to you for achieving what you want, in terms of etheric development, is to pursue and study the subject of Alchemy. Internal Alchemy holds the keys to what you seek. Im not talking about old medieval alchemy of changing metals in to gold. That is also just a system of symbols representative of an internal process of spiritual and etheric development.
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11-14-2017, 03:10 PM,
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(11-14-2017, 12:23 PM)Aion Wrote:  Also my best advice to you for achieving what you want, in terms of etheric development, is to pursue and study the subject of Alchemy. Internal Alchemy holds the keys to what you seek. Im not talking about old medieval alchemy of changing metals in to gold. That is also just a system of symbols representative of an internal process of spiritual and etheric development.

I already know this. I know most of what is commonly available about alchemy. What I need to know is how to reverse the damage done to my brain, heart, soul, aura, and kundalini, because some knowledgeable people used very advanced techniques to f*** it up, and nothing I've read has instructions on how to deal with anything like that. Any ideas on that in particular?

Also, I was referring to the thing where you said that I shouldn't have light in my heart because of my actions, and the rest was hyperbole; I don't accuse of you being a Christian, and don't have to if you act like one. Most people in Western society are Christians in disguise; the world hasn't really recovered much yet even if Christianity's power is fading, and its etheric structures and thoughtforms are still dominant, even among atheists and most neopagans, etc.
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11-14-2017, 03:25 PM, (This post was last modified: 11-14-2017, 03:37 PM by Aion.)
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
(11-14-2017, 03:10 PM)Mahakali Wrote:  
(11-14-2017, 12:23 PM)Aion Wrote:  Also my best advice to you for achieving what you want, in terms of etheric development, is to pursue and study the subject of Alchemy. Internal Alchemy holds the keys to what you seek. Im not talking about old medieval alchemy of changing metals in to gold. That is also just a system of symbols representative of an internal process of spiritual and etheric development.

I already know this. I know most of what is commonly available about alchemy. What I need to know is how to reverse the damage done to my brain, heart, soul, aura, and kundalini, because some knowledgeable people used very advanced techniques to f*** it up, and nothing I've read has instructions on how to deal with anything like that. Any ideas on that in particular?

Also, I was referring to the thing where you said that I shouldn't have light in my heart because of my actions, and the rest was hyperbole; I don't accuse of you being a Christian, and don't have to if you act like one. Most people in Western society are Christians in disguise; the world hasn't really recovered much yet even if Christianity's power is fading, and its etheric structures and thoughtforms are still dominant, even among atheists and most neopagans, etc.

Where did I say that? Well you are to free to label and identify as you will. I'm just some dude on the internet. I care not how you view me. I do not recall saying that and it is not the case. I believe there is light in every heart and indeed it is my wish to grow that light in all cases, as well as with you. I want you to have whaf you want, I just also believe that what you desire now is not actually the heart of your desires and is more a desire that has come out of the conditions of your life.

In that regard willpower seems to be paramount when it comes to rebuilding one's structure, combined with a knowledge of structure. Having a good understanding of anatomy, both physical and metaphysical is a good first step. First you must be able to detach your view so as to be able to perceive your wounds objectively. Gain a mental image of the damaged state. Then through will you conceive of the transformation from the damaged state to the repaired state. Thats the mental process. Then you have to bring it in to the physical. The mental creates the etheric template. The emotional realm is the key to bridging the mental and physical. Thus you energize the thought-form through faith whether that be based in dark or light or grey. That is the vivifying agent. You must be able to feel in your body everything that you mentally and emotionally conceive of.

Work back and forth between general and specific. Continue in a constant conceptualization of repair, energized by emotional fervor and focus in mentally on the reconstruction. Key here is knowing what you want to create and not fucking yourself up by accident. First learn what is required for a system to be in balance and then through the clear vision the will can reconstruct the physical body.

Thus, faith is the key. You have to really believe, feel, physically feel what it will feel like to be repaired and transformed. You have to know that it will work. You have to kill doubt. You have to have certainty of will. Then reality will yield to you.
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11-14-2017, 03:31 PM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
So as an example of the process.

Say you want to clear up some etheric damage in your head. First you create or perceive a visualization that represents the damage. Then you use your will to transform the visualization from a damaged state. You then use some method of emotional amplification (such as prayer, ritual, music, etc) to vivifying the image and bring it in to physical feeling. You will make yourself feel that which you conceive. Lastly you must embrace the change, you must have total faith and believe in your healing and actively engage such transformations. This is to feel physically the changes that are occurring. It must become real to you on every level for then that is reality.
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11-14-2017, 04:31 PM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
(11-14-2017, 03:31 PM)Aion Wrote:  So as an example of the process.

Say you want to clear up some etheric damage in your head. First you create or perceive a visualization that represents the damage. Then you use your will to transform the visualization from a damaged state. You then use some method of emotional amplification (such as prayer, ritual, music, etc) to vivifying the image and bring it in to physical feeling. You will make yourself feel that which you conceive. Lastly you must embrace the change, you must have total faith and believe in your healing and actively engage such transformations. This is to feel physically the changes that are occurring. It must become real to you on every level for then that is reality.

It's good advice, and I know this already, so I don't know what I'm looking for. It's just... when the convincing becomes so complete that hving faith and remembering the correct configuration are nearly impossible. And the latter is the real problem. If I can't remember to correct frequencies, and it really is that bad at this point, then how do I jump do them?

Focusing, I guess. Meditation, and lots of it. Hopefully that'll work.
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11-14-2017, 04:57 PM,
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RE: What can cause holes in auric fields, LSD, Childhood sexual assult but what else?
(11-14-2017, 04:31 PM)Mahakali Wrote:  
(11-14-2017, 03:31 PM)Aion Wrote:  So as an example of the process.

Say you want to clear up some etheric damage in your head. First you create or perceive a visualization that represents the damage. Then you use your will to transform the visualization from a damaged state. You then use some method of emotional amplification (such as prayer, ritual, music, etc) to vivifying the image and bring it in to physical feeling. You will make yourself feel that which you conceive. Lastly you must embrace the change, you must have total faith and believe in your healing and actively engage such transformations. This is to feel physically the changes that are occurring. It must become real to you on every level for then that is reality.

It's good advice, and I know this already, so I don't know what I'm looking for. It's just... when the convincing becomes so complete that hving faith and remembering the correct configuration are nearly impossible. And the latter is the real problem. If I can't remember to correct frequencies, and it really is that bad at this point, then how do I jump do them?

Focusing, I guess. Meditation, and lots of it. Hopefully that'll work.

Hmm well its not really a matter of 'correct' so much as trying to bring things back in to balance. I don't know if you're familiar with the idea of homeostasis but it is the idea of the overall balance between elements in the body. When there is homeostasis there is health. I extend this view to the metaphysical bodies as well. Thus its not a matter of flipping everything but rather a process of harmonization and equalization. Studying music would be helpful in this regard because frequencies are all harmonic and music. There are notes you can add to dissonant chords which bring them in to a harmonic state. The physical body is hierarchical, ordered. It is the spirit that is chaotic. Therefore when building the body you must focus on the creation of stable structures. It is one thing to channel chaos, but another to have it eat away your body with entropy. If you want to repair the body, etheric and physical, you must think about it structurally and harmoniously. You cannot both tear yourself apart and rebuild yourself at the same time, otherwise you just end up with more broken systems.

When I view you metaphysically you're a being of light with all these black holes embedded in various parts of your body, distorting all of the energy flows. I think they have used your love of chaos against you.
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