I've been having terrible nightmares

[Cainite]

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[Ashim]

In my most recent dream I failed to save my sister from a guy who had taken her hostage and she died. I went to save her but he had an AK-47 and started shooting at me from afar.. then I took cover and looked for any kind of weapon I could find. then he shot her and escaped. after that buddhist monks were walking down the street. they were mourning her death. and I was emotionally messed up.. don't know why I bowed down to the monks.

and yeah that's another thing, I've been seeing myself as a follower of buddha in my dreams. even though I have no religion while awake.
for example I was being executed in a dream and they asked me to not be silent and uncaring. they said if I complain a bit and nag, they will let me go and I said to them : ''That's not the Buddha's way''

My loved ones keep getting slaughtered in my dreams. and I find myself in dire situations.. constantly fighting, escaping death, ...

So what's up with these dreams?

Misery loves company. Your subconscious fears are creating time/space vibrational rooms with negative entities that closely resemble your own unique "identity stamp". Try consciously entertaining the subjects of death and loss until the negative charge is worked off. 
I liken this phase of ascension to a "wall of fire". You may well discover the illusionary nature of these fears and become able to free yourself from their shackles.

[Glow]

In my most recent dream I failed to save my sister from a guy who had taken her hostage and she died. I went to save her but he had an AK-47 and started shooting at me from afar.. then I took cover and looked for any kind of weapon I could find. then he shot her and escaped. after that buddhist monks were walking down the street. they were mourning her death. and I was emotionally messed up.. don't know why I bowed down to the monks.

and yeah that's another thing, I've been seeing myself as a follower of buddha in my dreams. even though I have no religion while awake.
for example I was being executed in a dream and they asked me to not be silent and uncaring. they said if I complain a bit and nag, they will let me go and I said to them : ''That's not the Buddha's way''

My loved ones keep getting slaughtered in my dreams. and I find myself in dire situations.. constantly fighting, escaping death, ...

So what's up with these dreams?

Goodness that must suck, so much better to face this catalyst in your dreams though verses waking life.
Perhaps if you sit with the dreams catalyst and figure out what you would have had to balance if that was your waking life you will work through this quicker.

[Ashim]

In my most recent dream I failed to save my sister from a guy who had taken her hostage and she died. I went to save her but he had an AK-47 and started shooting at me from afar.. then I took cover and looked for any kind of weapon I could find. then he shot her and escaped. after that buddhist monks were walking down the street. they were mourning her death. and I was emotionally messed up.. don't know why I bowed down to the monks.

and yeah that's another thing, I've been seeing myself as a follower of buddha in my dreams. even though I have no religion while awake.
for example I was being executed in a dream and they asked me to not be silent and uncaring. they said if I complain a bit and nag, they will let me go and I said to them : ''That's not the Buddha's way''

My loved ones keep getting slaughtered in my dreams. and I find myself in dire situations.. constantly fighting, escaping death, ...

So what's up with these dreams?

Goodness that must suck, so much better to face this catalyst in your dreams though verses waking life.
Perhaps if you sit with the dreams catalyst and figure out what you would have had to balance if that was your waking life you will work through this quicker.

That reminded me of this Ra quote. Quite on subject. From 18.5

We have found it to be inappropriate in the extreme to encourage the overcoming of any desires, except to suggest the imagination rather than the carrying out in the physical plane, as you call it, of those desires not consonant with the Law of One; this preserving the primal distortion of free will.

[xise]

I find nightmares a blessing, since they are obviously about fear, that much of the interpretation is easy.

The rest is still covered by the veil, but I'd look through common symbols and check their resonance. What concepts you associate with specific people or types of people if they were symbols (such as the sister or Buddhist monks). Some symbols I find are collective though and don't vary, such as females are typically right-brain or feminine energy. May have a deep meditation with the intent to figure it out.

I usually find that loved ones getting killed typically represent a part of me that is killing or warring with the loving concepts inside of me. Usually, a fear is killing them off. But your mileage may vary.

Good luck!

[xise]

I just had a bad dream myself.

I was having dinner at a strange house. Hosted by 2-4 good lucking women. I was very attracted to them. One invites me to the hottub. I go to the hottub, planning on getting it on. But in the hot tube are the woman who invited me, a guy, and a younger girl. I am a bit unease as I'm there because they are all just kind of watching me. Then the rest of hosts come out and have forks and knives. They say they want a small taste of me, just scrap off some skin. I don't even respond, I just get out of the tub and jump go outside. I act like I'm running away, and a woman gives chase. I actually end up hiding right in their front yard. She is about to give up, when she spots me. Then I run into the neighborhood, then to train station. I get to the train station and say point out this women and her associates, who follow me in, are trying to kidnap me, but no one seems to care. They are restrained in public though, and before they can get within arms length I think I see an acquaintance. He agrees to help me escape, he says to get on the next train with him. The next train arrives, and there is a rush of people to get on it like the new york subway. People shove him out of the car, he goes to another car. I try to follow him outside the train to the car he's trying to get into. He keeps getting shoved out. So I don't force myself in, thinking it better to stay with him as an ally. At the last second, he makes it onto a car just as the doors close. I'm left outside. I then leave the train station. I get a good headstart as the people chasing me don't realize I've left since there are so many people at the station. I run down a main street, and they are like 1/3 mile behind me in the distance, but I'm a good runner in the dream (decent one in real life).

I then wakeup to my alarm. Will be fun to figure this one out. Probably some cannibalistic concepts I have, that look appealing, but are really devouring me or my concepts about self-love, but that is my logical mind analyzing, I really gotta sit and let the interpretation flow from a meditation. Fun stuff!

[Cainite]

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[Jim Kent +]

In my most recent dream I failed to save my sister from a guy who had taken her hostage and she died. I went to save her but he had an AK-47 and started shooting at me from afar.. then I took cover and looked for any kind of weapon I could find. then he shot her and escaped. after that buddhist monks were walking down the street. they were mourning her death. and I was emotionally messed up.. don't know why I bowed down to the monks.

and yeah that's another thing, I've been seeing myself as a follower of buddha in my dreams. even though I have no religion while awake.
for example I was being executed in a dream and they asked me to not be silent and uncaring. they said if I complain a bit and nag, they will let me go and I said to them : ''That's not the Buddha's way''

My loved ones keep getting slaughtered in my dreams. and I find myself in dire situations.. constantly fighting, escaping death, ...

So what's up with these dreams?

Hi Cainite, 

Before I continue, I just wanted to say that I feel for you brother, a prolonged period of grim dreams is profoundly draining, mentally, emotionally, physically and Spiritually and it's all to easy to be forced into a dark downward spiral.

For me, I perceive it likely that horrible dreams are primarily of two types, very difficult lessons from helpful guides and negative greetings, although I also don't rule out the standard perception of some of them being your consciousness just working stuff out.

I don't claim to know dream interpretation well enough or you well enough to analyse your particular dreams, and your perception of them is of primary import any way. But I will say that they will pass eventually and I'd ask you to hang in there.

If they are negative-greetings, then it's also probable that the dark entity has been attracted to you because of your inner light.

Not getting a good nights sleep can be problematic enough and that's without the stress of living through such repeated horrible dreams.

I hope you get through it soon brother!

L & L

Jim  

[Ashim]

Buddhist monks represent STO adepts.

Only in your dreams pal.

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Funny! ordinary people would advise me against thinking about these fears and would say thinking about them caused the dreams in the first place.

I've seen my dad, my mom and my sister jump out of the window right in front of me and I couldn't do anything to stop them. they just wouldn't listen. it was the first time I was kind to my dad, when he was hanging from the window and I was holding his hand. I told him some kind words and felt sad. it was one of those moments of me that I haven't witnessed else where. the way I spoke to him and everything at that moment.

In another dream I was with my mom and suddenly she transformed into a demon and attacked me violently, then I said ''you're not my mother!''

there are also dreams of battlefield, being wanted by the police and secret service.
Also being held captive by mafia and street gangs or fighting them.

I've had nearly all the fighting and captive dreams you list here, including ones involving parents (though somewhat different in situations). I've taken them to be strong subconscious struggle between competing beliefs within me, usually about love or fear in some way.