01-14-2010, 05:42 PM
My story as a Human being starts in the early seventies, born to a teenage Catholic couple, it is not surprising that they decided to give me up for adoption.
I was adopted by Mr. and Mrs. Kent at the age of eight months old and I could not have a better set of parents than them, and I consider them my true parents.
I always felt different during my childhood, which, for many years, I attributed to the fact that I was adopted.
I had a mostly happy childhood, with a large extended family, who were totally accepting and supportive, with the only sadness coming from my awareness of the horrors of abortion…
My parents were heavily involved in the anti-abortion movement and I spent much of my spare time as a child helping out with their campaigning, which, however controversial, set me off early on a Service-To-Others path.
Perhaps it was inappropriate and somewhat naïve of my parents to expose me to such horrific images as found on the anti-abortion leaflets that were in my family home, but being exposed to such darkness made me seek the light with more vigour than I might have otherwise done.
The first tell-tale signs that I may be a Wanderer occurred when I was just seven tears old when I was hospitalised for a month with arthritis.
Even though I did not react well to the teachings of Catholicism, the STO ethic of my family stayed with me and at the age of fifteen, had a prolonged and intense green-ray ( Heart-Chakra ) experience, which I theorise was when I first graduated, at least, Spiritually.
Quoting a lovely and genuine nun, I had what she described as a “Cloud-Nine” experience, which she told me were rare but not unheard of in her experience.
When this experienced ceased, I did the usual teenage thing of taking drugs, starting out with Alcohol and Tobacco and eventually moving on to other drugs during the era of Rave at the very beginning of my twenties.
I do not know whether the frequent intense green-ray experiences I had were genuine STO Love, or just the result of the Serotonin flooding my brain as a result of the MDMA I had consumed - or both?
Even though I had been working in retail since the age of sixteen, during the Rave days, I became involved in supplying my friends with drugs and got into serious trouble with the authorities for these activities.
I only mention this because a few weeks after we were first busted, I went with those friends to a Rave, and took far too many drugs and had a heart attack in the middle of 16,000 people and whilst recovering had a telepathic conversation with a non-Human entity and was offered the opportunity to stay on the Earthly plane, an opportunity which I took.
It has only recently occurred to me that this experience was a Sub-Conscious attempt at suicide, perhaps motivated by the heartbreak I had felt most of my life coupled together with the dread of the impending court case and probable incarceration.
Whatever the hidden motivation behind the act of consuming too much, on a conscious level, I thought that I was indestructible, such is the foolhardy naivety of youth.
What I feel is more important though is the question of why a 6th density Walk-In would choose to offer to save this particular physical vehicle I ( we ) inhabit, and I now theorise that it has everything to do with The Harvest…
Either this body was worth saving because it had graduated and become dual-activated, or I was close to achieving this, or I hadn’t graduated at all and the 6th d entity wanted to save me from disappearing down the “sinkhole of indifference”.
It would be many years later that I would re-examine this experience and seek out its true meaning.
Fortunately for me, the court case, resulted in convictions but did not result in any period of incarceration, and we were let off lightly with a period of community-service.
I continued my career in retail / customer-service until the shock death of my father in 1995, which, not surprisingly, was emotionally devastating.
I eventually recovered from that emotional breakdown and started my own retail business in 1998.
This business disintegrated at the same time as my 6 month old marriage disintegrated and I lost virtually everything, including my will to live, in 1999. (No wonder I don’t like the number 9! )
Even though I found this period of my life profoundly devastating, it would seem to me that the STO ethic I had carried over from my upbringing served me well, and I theorise that my second / newer Soul graduated during this period.
In 2000, I moved to the coast to attempt to recover from my nervous-breakdown and make an album…
It was during this time that I found myself spending a lot of time communing with nature, and I can clearly remember making the decision to renew my friendship with Gaia and Sol, which I did, and this was motivated purely by instinct. ( it would be another year before I discovered any contemporary Channeling or study of metaphysics, with my only prior experience of metaphysics coming from my Catholic programming! )
The lifestyle I was living was not financially sustainable on the restricted income I then had and I had to move back to my home town at the end of 2000.
During this period of reflection, meditation and music-making, I had come to the realisation that I had too much I wanted to say to fit into the lyrics of many albums, and so I decided to embark on the creation of a book of philosophy.
It is now, January 2001, and I was in the process of writing my book…
Motivated by the desire to pursue the interests of one of my childhood heroes, namely Jim Morrison, I had become fascinated by the notion of the “Universal Mind” and the practices of Shamanism, half way through the original draft of my book I had, for the first time in my life, access to the internet and so I stated searching for info reading these subjects.
And so, on the 15th January 2001, I discovered a website of supposed Channeling from a group who claimed to be representatives of 6th density STO, namely the Cassiopaeans…
The full description of what happened next requires a 10 page essay, and although I am days away from completing the rewrite of this, I do not want to bore you with its inclusion in this post.
To offer a brief description of what happened, I had what would later be described by Q’uo in a personal session, an “Indigo-Ray Blow-Through” and saw atomic-structure and then my 3rd d self next to what I assume was my 6th d self.
I found this profoundly mysterious experience totally confusing and overwhelming at the time, which led to a few misinterpretations as to what had actually occurred which led to my family becoming concerned and so I ended up in the intensive-care unit of my local psychiatric institution.
Regardless of the hypocrisy and oppression forced against me basically for my Spiritual beliefs, I do not regret this experience in the slightest as it was easily the most beautiful, wonderful and amazing I have ever had.
And even though it took, what remains of my ego, many years to accept the violation of my free-will leading from the shrink’s opinion that I have a psychotic illness, I do not even regret this determination, as I am effectively out of the Rat-Race indefinitely, and what I do for others is motivated by a STO ethic and not a pay-packet!
I was released from hospital after the 28 day “sectioning” and have kept out ever since.
In my subsequent study of the Cassiopaean material, I eventually came across references to the Ra material and started to study it.
I have since formed the opinion that the two paradigms clash considerably and the Cassiopaean material contradicts The Confederation’s paradigm on many important subjects and I felt that I had to make a personal choice as to which paradigm I would continue to put my faith in…
As I’m here on this forum, the choice I made as to which paradigm to put my faith in is obvious!
In early 2005, I learned that Carla was planning a speaking trip to Britain, and so I contacted L/L to arrange a personal channelling session during her time here.
During my session with Q’uo I learned that my assumption that my original Soul was replaced by a Walk-In during the over-dose at the Rave was incorrect and that both Souls still inhabit this body…
I also learned that during my “Indigo-Ray-Blow-Through” the vision I had was actually me witnessing with my “Third-Eye” atomic-structure…
Suffice to sat that I was rather shocked to discover these revelations, however much they now make sense to me in a way that has deep resonance for me.
Prior to my personal session, I had theorised that I was a Wanderer and / or Walk-In, which is why I assume that Q’uo was happy to confirm that this is the case without violating the “Law Of Confusion”.
So here we are in 2010...
Even though I suspect that I am dual-activated, with Q’uo hinting at such, I am not prepared to give up on polarizing or serving The Creator in whatever form it chooses to incarnate as…
But I didn’t need a channeling source to convince me to dedicate myself to Service-To-Others, it has always been in my nature to be STO!
This is the year that I finally finish my book of philosophy and I am looking forward to concentrating on my music once this is complete.
As you may have guessed, my life has been one hell of a roller-coaster-ride…
Would I choose to change anything about my past knowing what I know now - probably - but that wont happen - so I feel that I must be most grateful for the wonderful opportunity I have as a Human-being…
To Love, to Give and to Serve.
As to the title of this post, “are two Souls better than one?” my response would probably be “no”…
Yes, I feel the Love of two Souls, but I also feel the pain and frustration of two Souls…
The positive aspects of Human existence are amplified but so also are the negatives.
Yes, I am incredibly homesick, but we knew that this would happen before we came “here” and whinging about it will serve nobody!!!!
Compared to the vast majority of Humanity, I live a life of relative luxury and freedom, and although it may seem that this is not the case - I am grateful to be “here”!!!!
Please feel free to ask any question you have regarding my life - it would be an honour to respond.
For the sake of Love and Light
We are Jim Kent
I was adopted by Mr. and Mrs. Kent at the age of eight months old and I could not have a better set of parents than them, and I consider them my true parents.
I always felt different during my childhood, which, for many years, I attributed to the fact that I was adopted.
I had a mostly happy childhood, with a large extended family, who were totally accepting and supportive, with the only sadness coming from my awareness of the horrors of abortion…
My parents were heavily involved in the anti-abortion movement and I spent much of my spare time as a child helping out with their campaigning, which, however controversial, set me off early on a Service-To-Others path.
Perhaps it was inappropriate and somewhat naïve of my parents to expose me to such horrific images as found on the anti-abortion leaflets that were in my family home, but being exposed to such darkness made me seek the light with more vigour than I might have otherwise done.
The first tell-tale signs that I may be a Wanderer occurred when I was just seven tears old when I was hospitalised for a month with arthritis.
Even though I did not react well to the teachings of Catholicism, the STO ethic of my family stayed with me and at the age of fifteen, had a prolonged and intense green-ray ( Heart-Chakra ) experience, which I theorise was when I first graduated, at least, Spiritually.
Quoting a lovely and genuine nun, I had what she described as a “Cloud-Nine” experience, which she told me were rare but not unheard of in her experience.
When this experienced ceased, I did the usual teenage thing of taking drugs, starting out with Alcohol and Tobacco and eventually moving on to other drugs during the era of Rave at the very beginning of my twenties.
I do not know whether the frequent intense green-ray experiences I had were genuine STO Love, or just the result of the Serotonin flooding my brain as a result of the MDMA I had consumed - or both?
Even though I had been working in retail since the age of sixteen, during the Rave days, I became involved in supplying my friends with drugs and got into serious trouble with the authorities for these activities.
I only mention this because a few weeks after we were first busted, I went with those friends to a Rave, and took far too many drugs and had a heart attack in the middle of 16,000 people and whilst recovering had a telepathic conversation with a non-Human entity and was offered the opportunity to stay on the Earthly plane, an opportunity which I took.
It has only recently occurred to me that this experience was a Sub-Conscious attempt at suicide, perhaps motivated by the heartbreak I had felt most of my life coupled together with the dread of the impending court case and probable incarceration.
Whatever the hidden motivation behind the act of consuming too much, on a conscious level, I thought that I was indestructible, such is the foolhardy naivety of youth.
What I feel is more important though is the question of why a 6th density Walk-In would choose to offer to save this particular physical vehicle I ( we ) inhabit, and I now theorise that it has everything to do with The Harvest…
Either this body was worth saving because it had graduated and become dual-activated, or I was close to achieving this, or I hadn’t graduated at all and the 6th d entity wanted to save me from disappearing down the “sinkhole of indifference”.
It would be many years later that I would re-examine this experience and seek out its true meaning.
Fortunately for me, the court case, resulted in convictions but did not result in any period of incarceration, and we were let off lightly with a period of community-service.
I continued my career in retail / customer-service until the shock death of my father in 1995, which, not surprisingly, was emotionally devastating.
I eventually recovered from that emotional breakdown and started my own retail business in 1998.
This business disintegrated at the same time as my 6 month old marriage disintegrated and I lost virtually everything, including my will to live, in 1999. (No wonder I don’t like the number 9! )
Even though I found this period of my life profoundly devastating, it would seem to me that the STO ethic I had carried over from my upbringing served me well, and I theorise that my second / newer Soul graduated during this period.
In 2000, I moved to the coast to attempt to recover from my nervous-breakdown and make an album…
It was during this time that I found myself spending a lot of time communing with nature, and I can clearly remember making the decision to renew my friendship with Gaia and Sol, which I did, and this was motivated purely by instinct. ( it would be another year before I discovered any contemporary Channeling or study of metaphysics, with my only prior experience of metaphysics coming from my Catholic programming! )
The lifestyle I was living was not financially sustainable on the restricted income I then had and I had to move back to my home town at the end of 2000.
During this period of reflection, meditation and music-making, I had come to the realisation that I had too much I wanted to say to fit into the lyrics of many albums, and so I decided to embark on the creation of a book of philosophy.
It is now, January 2001, and I was in the process of writing my book…
Motivated by the desire to pursue the interests of one of my childhood heroes, namely Jim Morrison, I had become fascinated by the notion of the “Universal Mind” and the practices of Shamanism, half way through the original draft of my book I had, for the first time in my life, access to the internet and so I stated searching for info reading these subjects.
And so, on the 15th January 2001, I discovered a website of supposed Channeling from a group who claimed to be representatives of 6th density STO, namely the Cassiopaeans…
The full description of what happened next requires a 10 page essay, and although I am days away from completing the rewrite of this, I do not want to bore you with its inclusion in this post.
To offer a brief description of what happened, I had what would later be described by Q’uo in a personal session, an “Indigo-Ray Blow-Through” and saw atomic-structure and then my 3rd d self next to what I assume was my 6th d self.
I found this profoundly mysterious experience totally confusing and overwhelming at the time, which led to a few misinterpretations as to what had actually occurred which led to my family becoming concerned and so I ended up in the intensive-care unit of my local psychiatric institution.
Regardless of the hypocrisy and oppression forced against me basically for my Spiritual beliefs, I do not regret this experience in the slightest as it was easily the most beautiful, wonderful and amazing I have ever had.
And even though it took, what remains of my ego, many years to accept the violation of my free-will leading from the shrink’s opinion that I have a psychotic illness, I do not even regret this determination, as I am effectively out of the Rat-Race indefinitely, and what I do for others is motivated by a STO ethic and not a pay-packet!
I was released from hospital after the 28 day “sectioning” and have kept out ever since.
In my subsequent study of the Cassiopaean material, I eventually came across references to the Ra material and started to study it.
I have since formed the opinion that the two paradigms clash considerably and the Cassiopaean material contradicts The Confederation’s paradigm on many important subjects and I felt that I had to make a personal choice as to which paradigm I would continue to put my faith in…
As I’m here on this forum, the choice I made as to which paradigm to put my faith in is obvious!
In early 2005, I learned that Carla was planning a speaking trip to Britain, and so I contacted L/L to arrange a personal channelling session during her time here.
During my session with Q’uo I learned that my assumption that my original Soul was replaced by a Walk-In during the over-dose at the Rave was incorrect and that both Souls still inhabit this body…
I also learned that during my “Indigo-Ray-Blow-Through” the vision I had was actually me witnessing with my “Third-Eye” atomic-structure…
Suffice to sat that I was rather shocked to discover these revelations, however much they now make sense to me in a way that has deep resonance for me.
Prior to my personal session, I had theorised that I was a Wanderer and / or Walk-In, which is why I assume that Q’uo was happy to confirm that this is the case without violating the “Law Of Confusion”.
So here we are in 2010...
Even though I suspect that I am dual-activated, with Q’uo hinting at such, I am not prepared to give up on polarizing or serving The Creator in whatever form it chooses to incarnate as…
But I didn’t need a channeling source to convince me to dedicate myself to Service-To-Others, it has always been in my nature to be STO!
This is the year that I finally finish my book of philosophy and I am looking forward to concentrating on my music once this is complete.
As you may have guessed, my life has been one hell of a roller-coaster-ride…
Would I choose to change anything about my past knowing what I know now - probably - but that wont happen - so I feel that I must be most grateful for the wonderful opportunity I have as a Human-being…
To Love, to Give and to Serve.
As to the title of this post, “are two Souls better than one?” my response would probably be “no”…
Yes, I feel the Love of two Souls, but I also feel the pain and frustration of two Souls…
The positive aspects of Human existence are amplified but so also are the negatives.
Yes, I am incredibly homesick, but we knew that this would happen before we came “here” and whinging about it will serve nobody!!!!
Compared to the vast majority of Humanity, I live a life of relative luxury and freedom, and although it may seem that this is not the case - I am grateful to be “here”!!!!
Please feel free to ask any question you have regarding my life - it would be an honour to respond.
For the sake of Love and Light
We are Jim Kent
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I don't think so. The world is brutal, but like you say it's mostly the people on it causing suffering to the people on it. Hell is other people. Yet I'm assuming we all came here on our own accord. Apparently the suffering is not sufficient deterrent. This world hasn't been bad to me and most of the people I know. I'm assuming totality it's not as bad as it looks on the evening news. Yes there is suffering but amid it are also the flowers in bloom.
