11-09-2009, 01:00 PM
My whole life growing up I've had this strange feeling that somehow I'm different. I couldn't quite place it, but I knew something had to be off. I've always hated school, mostly because of the fact that I hate doing anything that I don't want to do. And I act on this hatred. My whole life I've had to essentially force myself to be bright, optimistic, because if I didn't I'd be in an insane asylum. I first began to awaken on the fourth of July of this year (2009) when at a friend's cookout someone appeared to be reading palms. What he was actually doing was determining the person's personality type by the way they handed their hand to him. What he told me was that I am what's called an INTP (two good examples are House from the TV show and Einstein), and that it's the rarest type in the world (only about 0.052% of the population). This came to me as no surprise, for it made sense that someone who felt so different from everyone his whole life actually was extremely different from practically the entire world. I enjoy being by myself more than anything, and if I didn't feel guilt bound by my family I'd have run off to live in the woods by now.
Later in July my brother, a friend of ours, and I were hanging out at my house, doing what we (a group of teenagers in High School) typically do, which involved the use of a plant that is absurdly illegal. Earlier that day our friend was talking about this video he had seen parts of online, he said it was called 2012 enigma, and the guy actually talked a lot about your pineal gland and chakras. I was a little intrigued. Later that night my friend and my brother went outside for a little bit while I stayed in the basement. A little while later they came inside saying they just saw something strange in the sky. What they described to me was a group of three stars that formed an isosceles right triangle. A bit skeptical, I went outside with them, and looked upward. What I saw was just an isosceles triangle. They then swore to me it was not the same shape it was right now when they saw it a few minutes before. We stayed outside and watched for the next few minutes. During that time I saw that the size of the angle at the top of the triangle was clearly increasing by as much as about 10 to 20 degrees in about 5 minutes. Stars don't do that. Realizing then that it had to be a UFO I got so gripped with fear that I sprinted inside the house. I then realized I shouldn't have been afraid, but by then it was too late.
A few days later I watched the video 2012 Enigma by David Wilcock, and was blown away. The few weeks that followed transformed my life completely as I had an insatiable appetite for this new information. I later discovered the Law of One series online and began reading. One day I found my way to divinecosmos.com and the first thing I saw was an advertisement for the CD "Wanderer Awakening" and became entranced by the word Wanderer. Not for another few weeks did I figure out why I felt this way. I began to read Carla's book "A Wanderer's Handbook". I took the 20 question test and came up with a score of 91, which the book said meant I almost certainly am a Wanderer. From here I've figured I'm more likely the second type of wanderer; not someone who's spirit is from another world come here for a purpose; but someone who has had almost all, if not all, past incarnations on Earth and just so happened to in a past life completely prepare myself for 4th density incarnation, but has chosen to wait for the rest of the earth's people to reach this point as well. This makes a lot of sense to me, as it explains my personality type, which allows me to very easily accept all of this universal information as absolute irrefutable truth. I also naturally am sort of frustrated with the world that it doesn't operate nearly as well as it could, for what I define as absolutely no good reason.
I still am not 100% sure about my purpose as a wanderer or if I've found my complete purpose yet. I do know that I definitely am meant to be alive in a physically matured vehicle for the 2012 winter solstice age shift. As far as what leads up to that, a few theories. These range from spreading knowledge of the Law of One to other people to awakening my dormant fourth density abilities or powers in order to play a particular helpful role in a coming crisis (such as the H1N1 death vaccine). More than anything though I now live each day with this massive internal feeling, akin to what a child waiting for Christmas in December feels, towards the December 2012 age shift. I just can't wait for it, and I don't quite know what I'm going to get, but I'll definitely be happy for it when it happens.
This is where I am and how I got here, I hope it makes for a good read for someone. Adonai
Later in July my brother, a friend of ours, and I were hanging out at my house, doing what we (a group of teenagers in High School) typically do, which involved the use of a plant that is absurdly illegal. Earlier that day our friend was talking about this video he had seen parts of online, he said it was called 2012 enigma, and the guy actually talked a lot about your pineal gland and chakras. I was a little intrigued. Later that night my friend and my brother went outside for a little bit while I stayed in the basement. A little while later they came inside saying they just saw something strange in the sky. What they described to me was a group of three stars that formed an isosceles right triangle. A bit skeptical, I went outside with them, and looked upward. What I saw was just an isosceles triangle. They then swore to me it was not the same shape it was right now when they saw it a few minutes before. We stayed outside and watched for the next few minutes. During that time I saw that the size of the angle at the top of the triangle was clearly increasing by as much as about 10 to 20 degrees in about 5 minutes. Stars don't do that. Realizing then that it had to be a UFO I got so gripped with fear that I sprinted inside the house. I then realized I shouldn't have been afraid, but by then it was too late.
A few days later I watched the video 2012 Enigma by David Wilcock, and was blown away. The few weeks that followed transformed my life completely as I had an insatiable appetite for this new information. I later discovered the Law of One series online and began reading. One day I found my way to divinecosmos.com and the first thing I saw was an advertisement for the CD "Wanderer Awakening" and became entranced by the word Wanderer. Not for another few weeks did I figure out why I felt this way. I began to read Carla's book "A Wanderer's Handbook". I took the 20 question test and came up with a score of 91, which the book said meant I almost certainly am a Wanderer. From here I've figured I'm more likely the second type of wanderer; not someone who's spirit is from another world come here for a purpose; but someone who has had almost all, if not all, past incarnations on Earth and just so happened to in a past life completely prepare myself for 4th density incarnation, but has chosen to wait for the rest of the earth's people to reach this point as well. This makes a lot of sense to me, as it explains my personality type, which allows me to very easily accept all of this universal information as absolute irrefutable truth. I also naturally am sort of frustrated with the world that it doesn't operate nearly as well as it could, for what I define as absolutely no good reason.
I still am not 100% sure about my purpose as a wanderer or if I've found my complete purpose yet. I do know that I definitely am meant to be alive in a physically matured vehicle for the 2012 winter solstice age shift. As far as what leads up to that, a few theories. These range from spreading knowledge of the Law of One to other people to awakening my dormant fourth density abilities or powers in order to play a particular helpful role in a coming crisis (such as the H1N1 death vaccine). More than anything though I now live each day with this massive internal feeling, akin to what a child waiting for Christmas in December feels, towards the December 2012 age shift. I just can't wait for it, and I don't quite know what I'm going to get, but I'll definitely be happy for it when it happens.
This is where I am and how I got here, I hope it makes for a good read for someone. Adonai
It's rather amusing, but it's as it should be... they are perfect in that they are in the point of their life where they have chosen to be. But I encourage each of you to come out from your roles and not play, and not take the game so seriously.
