03-07-2011, 06:49 PM
I greet you, my brother,
Sometimes it helps to think that this is probably your last incarnation not only on Gaia but also in 3D. I feel sorrow thinking about it and shifting the perspective in my mind towards trying to use this incarnation well. But sometimes it doesn't help, and I only feel joy being in that thought.
I've had my share of these too. I even encountered an old dairy where I wrote that the visitors told me in my dream 13 years ago that these visits were part of my "family tradition". Though I don't know who exactly they were as they acted like STS, but I was filled with happiness and hope for three whole days after that dream, like dancing on the clouds, so it might be STO. Also, 6D lacks polarity, so it might be them. Anyway, last visit I had was yesterday by Shadows as I call them – some grey (as in colour) beings injecting fear, pain and giving me electrical shocks. But as I released my own fear and started to feel only love towards them something started to shine inside of me and the attack faded very quickly away. I am trying to stay humble about this experience though it might change, but still – I feel joy about this experience as I never liked to tell them to leave me alone. They are trying to teach me something and I should be grateful about this service. What kind of attacks do you have? During your sleep or when you are awake or both?
Do you want me to go through each point and comment on it, my brother?
PTSD is caused by an acute or prolonged experience in life that is traumatic. An acute catastrophy results in acute PTSD that might or might not heal by itself. Prolonged traumatic experience results in what is called complex PTSD. There is probably loads of information found on internet but I never bothered to look it up. I was quickly diagnosed by an psychiatrist and put on meds and in treatment program with a psychologist. The points I listed were all symtoms of PTSD. The one that I actually also experienced as severe and is also a big mark of PTSD is guilt. I carried the whole world on my shoulders, as everything in this world that was wrong was my fault. If someone would say anything to me, regardless if there was any caring tone in it or not, I always tried to find reasons for that person blaiming me for something. Needless to say, that it is not useful to have these thoughts.
The treatment program was to experience those moments of trauma with the psychologist over and over again. I had to tell him everything, in details using "I" word in present form, like I am telling it as it happens right now. After couple of times when trauma situations were no longer charged we went through them again with current conscious mind, in details. For instance, he: "Did you really think that it was your fault that it happened?" Me: "No". He: "How does it affects you in this present moment?". This treatment woke me up, as I didn't put any importance to stuff that happened long time ago, and thought that they were not affecting me anymore. Also, I didn't think that it was that bad as loads of "bad stuff happens to good people", and "there is always someone that has it worse", and "I shouldn't complain as I have a great life right now". Well, that's just BS!
The moment that woke me up is when his eyes got wet and he admited that he was touched by my story while myself regarding I didn't feel anything. I told him that I could see that he was moved and asked him why, and he said (very unprofessional which I am very glad for as it was this comment that woke me up) "the stuff you tell me right now is sick!". It took me couple of days to process that information and I started to think how come that psychologist that have been around and heard a lot of sick stuff actually did get affected while I didn't feel anything? This treatment was the first stumbling step. Other steps I took by myself. I decided to stop this insanity I was living in and started to deeply seek my spirituality that has always been there but never got any proper attention. And approximately 6 months later when I found Ra material, it felt like – thank God! I am home now! This insanity is maybe not over, but at least I've got tools through this material how to master this difficult art of living. Anyway, this is my path from severe PTSD to this present self. Please, ask further questions if there is something more I can help you with, my brother.
And you are doing very well!
Love and light!
(03-07-2011, 09:07 AM)Jim Kent + Wrote: I'm not sure whether I'm sick of 3rd density or sick of living as a Human being or both!?!
Sometimes it helps to think that this is probably your last incarnation not only on Gaia but also in 3D. I feel sorrow thinking about it and shifting the perspective in my mind towards trying to use this incarnation well. But sometimes it doesn't help, and I only feel joy being in that thought.
(03-07-2011, 09:07 AM)Jim Kent + Wrote: I have also lost track of the psychic "greetings" directed towards me, they have become so frequent that they have almost become an every-day part of my life!
I've had my share of these too. I even encountered an old dairy where I wrote that the visitors told me in my dream 13 years ago that these visits were part of my "family tradition". Though I don't know who exactly they were as they acted like STS, but I was filled with happiness and hope for three whole days after that dream, like dancing on the clouds, so it might be STO. Also, 6D lacks polarity, so it might be them. Anyway, last visit I had was yesterday by Shadows as I call them – some grey (as in colour) beings injecting fear, pain and giving me electrical shocks. But as I released my own fear and started to feel only love towards them something started to shine inside of me and the attack faded very quickly away. I am trying to stay humble about this experience though it might change, but still – I feel joy about this experience as I never liked to tell them to leave me alone. They are trying to teach me something and I should be grateful about this service. What kind of attacks do you have? During your sleep or when you are awake or both?
(03-07-2011, 09:07 AM)Jim Kent + Wrote: As regarding my perception that I have/do experience the symptoms of PTSD, I will respond to the points you raised...
Do you want me to go through each point and comment on it, my brother?
PTSD is caused by an acute or prolonged experience in life that is traumatic. An acute catastrophy results in acute PTSD that might or might not heal by itself. Prolonged traumatic experience results in what is called complex PTSD. There is probably loads of information found on internet but I never bothered to look it up. I was quickly diagnosed by an psychiatrist and put on meds and in treatment program with a psychologist. The points I listed were all symtoms of PTSD. The one that I actually also experienced as severe and is also a big mark of PTSD is guilt. I carried the whole world on my shoulders, as everything in this world that was wrong was my fault. If someone would say anything to me, regardless if there was any caring tone in it or not, I always tried to find reasons for that person blaiming me for something. Needless to say, that it is not useful to have these thoughts.
The treatment program was to experience those moments of trauma with the psychologist over and over again. I had to tell him everything, in details using "I" word in present form, like I am telling it as it happens right now. After couple of times when trauma situations were no longer charged we went through them again with current conscious mind, in details. For instance, he: "Did you really think that it was your fault that it happened?" Me: "No". He: "How does it affects you in this present moment?". This treatment woke me up, as I didn't put any importance to stuff that happened long time ago, and thought that they were not affecting me anymore. Also, I didn't think that it was that bad as loads of "bad stuff happens to good people", and "there is always someone that has it worse", and "I shouldn't complain as I have a great life right now". Well, that's just BS!
The moment that woke me up is when his eyes got wet and he admited that he was touched by my story while myself regarding I didn't feel anything. I told him that I could see that he was moved and asked him why, and he said (very unprofessional which I am very glad for as it was this comment that woke me up) "the stuff you tell me right now is sick!". It took me couple of days to process that information and I started to think how come that psychologist that have been around and heard a lot of sick stuff actually did get affected while I didn't feel anything? This treatment was the first stumbling step. Other steps I took by myself. I decided to stop this insanity I was living in and started to deeply seek my spirituality that has always been there but never got any proper attention. And approximately 6 months later when I found Ra material, it felt like – thank God! I am home now! This insanity is maybe not over, but at least I've got tools through this material how to master this difficult art of living. Anyway, this is my path from severe PTSD to this present self. Please, ask further questions if there is something more I can help you with, my brother.
And you are doing very well!
Love and light!
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