Complementary understanding: a beautiful conversation

[JustLikeYou]

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Azrael, can you elaborate about this Language of Light and where one can learn about it? (Or learn it?)

[Unbound]

This is rather off-topic, so I will keep it brief.

To my understanding you could consider it the "language of the bodies", in a manner. The word "Light" is perhaps misleading, and I am considering approaching the topic under a different title in the future. It is, more or less, a creative language which is a translation of the frequencies of one's inner Being. That is, it is an "emotional", or vibratory language. In this case, I refer to the Language of Light because the current mode of construction infers that negative energy put in the language will negate its effectiveness. This is because the Language of Light is part of Being, and when negativity comes in the Being becomes obscured by Doing. I am aware that the Ascended Masters use the term Language of Light for something similar, which I discovered after thinking of the name myself.

Anyways, perhaps I will start a thread on this matter...

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It was the primary mode of communication in Lemuria, somewhat less-so in Atlantis as intuitive language began to evolve in to instinctual language.

[Shin'Ar]

Important to note that all sound is vibration, as is light.

Thoth states that there is a specific vibration that is designed into the Emerlad Tablets in such a way that the reading of them causes a specific vibration that enables and increases understanding of the teachings and secrets hidden within them.

There is much to symbolism and language of which most of humanity is completely unaware.

And with regard to Atlantis and Lemuria we must remember that they were very different cultures and experiences.

[Unbound]

Yes, yes! You see, I am quite sure the Emerald Tablets were formed using Thoth's own Language of Light, the alchemical processes were organic, not mechanical, I feel.

Actually, on topic of the thread, I have been spoken to by a voice which registers as Thoth, whom often instructs me in important moments of realization and testing of the awareness of the Self.

It is also true that Atlantis and Lemuria were very different cultures and experiences, most certainly, the Language is rather Universal, so in a way it takes many, many forms. You could almost call it the Language of Frequencies.

This is also relevant to the thread, in that I believe this is the way many of us are communicated with by Intellligences of the Deep Mind, and beyond.

[Shin'Ar]

Yes, yes! You see, I am quite sure the Emerald Tablets were formed using Thoth's own Language of Light, the alchemical processes were organic, not mechanical, I feel.

Actually, on topic of the thread, I have been spoken to by a voice which registers as Thoth, whom often instructs me in important moments of realization and testing of the awareness of the Self.

It is also true that Atlantis and Lemuria were very different cultures and experiences, most certainly, the Language is rather Universal, so in a way it takes many, many forms. You could almost call it the Language of Frequencies.

This is also relevant to the thread, in that I believe this is the way many of us are communicated with by Intellligences of the Deep Mind, and beyond.

Yes, Thoth is here.

[Unbound]

Glad to know we are now officially acquainted.

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The bugger almost convinced me to shave my entire body! Tricky teachings, the Masters have, who do everything to deter you from realizing the complete balance each is already within. Why deter you? How shall I say, wearing the masks of the witch-doctor they frighten us out of the Dark and towards the Light.

Our Individuality and our Oneness with the Universe, are One. Both can be expressed together, and that is what the Masters taught. That ALL, is ONE.

[Shin'Ar]

Glad to know we are now officially acquainted.

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The bugger almost convinced me to shave my entire body! Tricky teachings, the Masters have, who do everything to deter you from realizing the complete balance each is already within. Why deter you? How shall I say, wearing the masks of the witch-doctor they frighten us out of the Dark and towards the Light.

Our Individuality and our Oneness with the Universe, are One. Both can be expressed together, and that is what the Masters taught. That ALL, is ONE.

Around it, they close the veil of their night.
There through it's lifetime
that soul dwells in bondage,
bound by the fetters of the VEIL of the night.
Mighty are they in the forbidden knowledge
forbidden because it is one with the night.

NEVER FORGET THAT WHICH WE STRUGGLE TO ESCAPE. IT IS THE ORIGIN FROM WHICH WE WERE SPAWNED, AND THE VERY GOAL THAT WE SEEK.

[Unbound]

My friend, that which we struggle to escape is naught but Ourselves. We are all One, and so we are the same Source which has bound us. We seek to escape those possibilities we do not want to believe are existent and latent within our Being, which is Infinite. Yet, the truth is that we have CHOICE. This is what bondage means, when you lack CHOICE.

You free yourself, by accepting the responsibility of the Choices which construct the entirety of your Being. When you realize you create your reality, you are Free. Most reach Freedom, and fail to recognize it, and fail to utilize it, for Freedom is but the first step towards Harmonious Unity. You were Free the moment you realized your Identity, how have you used that freedom?

When you reach the point of death, will you be aware enough to decide, "Oh, I don't want to incarnate again, I'm going to go do this, in this part of the universe for awhile." All it takes is the recognition, and awareness in that moment of transition to do it, to be CONSCIOUS of CONSCIOUSNESS. The Buddhists call this "uniting with Rigpa", the Celestial Light.

I have long since been ready to die, but I have been given this vast gift of Life to honour, and I realized that it must be fulfilled if I am to do my part in the Divine Plan. It is one thing to gain your freedom, but how does one assist others to gain their freedom if One has not recognized their own?

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The "veil", an article of clothing originally adopted for noble-women, not permitted to prostitutes and peasants. In that sense, hiding the face of the Divine Feminine, which is composing of the primary sensing organs. The Night, representative of the Divine Feminine, particularly in the Dark aspect of the Moon.

Another thing of note, all of these ancient teachings were only given to MEN, and much of the subject is the Divine Feminine.

How shall I say, Men were Being taught to awaken within them the Abstract Self of the Feminine Energies, which combined with their innate Masculine energies provides the Gateway, for when there are no conflicts in the Self, all doors are open.

[Shin'Ar]

You have the wisdom of the ancients.

I have been to the extremes of creation and knew the Oneness of it All, and understood at the angles that it is all choice.

We return to the Source from the Source, as the Source, and in the process become a memory. Continuing thought is direction, and the direction is our choice. We are but a memory of the Ouroboros.

[Shin'Ar]

Ah, but the memory is Holographic, and so contains the whole, and thus how the Ouroboros PRO-CREATES Itself.

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Memories, are, how shall I say, entirely self-existent, as they are constructed from Ideas, which are of Permanence.

Yes my brother Azreal but you forget one thing.

Entered I my body.
Created the circles that know not angles,
created the form
that from my form was formed.
Made my body into a circle
and lost the pursuers in the circles of time.
But, even yet, when free from my body,
cautious ever must I be
not to move through angles,
else my soul may never be free.

There is the Law of One, but it is protected by the Mystery. No one can know what exists beyond the edge. As One we only know the memories, for the thought continues. The Hounds protect the future. We must avoid the angles and remain in the Sacred Circle.

[Unbound]

Well, we have to have SOMETHING to do, don't we?

All is the Thought, all is the One, the One is Infinite and Finite is the One seeing itself as Two.

You are correct, I cannot see past Infinity, for it is Me, and I have yet to discover that which is not Self.

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Or perhaps once again, like the same "bondage", perhaps we have only to make the Choice to know... but what responsibility comes with that Knowing? Perhaps we shall never know...

[Shin'Ar]

Well, we have to have SOMETHING to do, don't we?

All is the Thought, all is the One, the One is Infinite and Finite is the One seeing itself as Two.

You are correct, I cannot see past Infinity, for it is Me, and I have yet to discover that which is not Self.

It amazes me that you grasp these concepts. And it pleases me to be able to relate to someone on this level. I look forward to further experiences with you.

[Unbound]

What are angles? The result of TWO lines, rather than One, all angles are dualities.

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And I feel the same as you! I was very pleased when you came upon the forum, as I knew instantly we would have much recourse. Adonai, my friend, that you Are.

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Other things to note in that passage - "Body" is not synonymous with "Form", therefore I would replace Body with "Field" perhaps. Consciousness is the raw "material" of Fields.

Created the form that created the form, revealing the truth of unmanifested forms which lies in the Flower of Life. The "I" being the conduit of Intelligence, Thoth being the Intelligence of the Mind. Thus, showing the awakening of Intelligence within the Body.

Made My Body in to a Circle, this can be thought of as a cycle of interaction, the Body is a Field which interacts with itself and thus produces its own changes, and thus the Field is Self-Evolving through the awakening of the Intelligence of the Mind. Thus, pursuers, or the antagonism of Negative Karma is shed within the Incarnative Cycle, which is a gradual process of the awakening of Intelligence in the mind to Self-Evolve the Field/Body.

Then here, even when free from the Body, which can mean both death AND leaving the body in general, showing that if one leaves their body, and FORGETS THEIR IDENTITY AS THE ONE, they will have to rediscover that. Thus, is the long, long trial of simply Remembering in Every Moment of Existence that All is One.

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This may seem like it's off topic, but this actually comes directly to what I conceive of as the basis for the Three Spiritual Guides.

The Three Spiritual Guides, in that Respect, are in that respect one of our individual fundamental "gateways" to the realization of the One. This is related to what we have just talked about because in this sense the "I", or "I am that I am", CONTAINS NO INTELLIGENCE. Rather, it is a field of expression through which Intelligence may express itself.

So, the only thing it takes to "tap in to a higher self", is to ACKNOWLEDGE YOURSELF AS THAT BEING, and their mind and knowledge will open to you, so long as you do not judge, and do not try to colour it to your own desires.

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And on a last note, how shall I say - To realize the mystery, one must give up their Choice.

[JustLikeYou]

To choose to yield is not the same as to give up the Choice. The Choice is continually made at every moment, even if it is only the choice to yield to that which is of the One and not of the Many.

[Unbound]

My friend, what I am speaking of is when you wish to move beyond the realms of the Choice, which is the First Distortion, and thus Final Boundary for those seeking the great Vistas beyond.

How shall I say, at a point of progress Choice ceases to have any meaning, but that does not mean there ceases to be experience. "Giving up the Choice" is something one would only do at the very, very end of their journeys through this particular universe. Would you give up your illusory Free Will to be One with the Source?

That isn't to say that the choice isn't once again renewed, of course.

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This is, how shall I say, beyond the moment, beyond time or space, in to the very nature of Consciousness itself. This, I believe, is the Mystery which awaits us, when we are ready.

[JustLikeYou]

I get it, now we're on the same page. What you describe is something that I have often sat in wonder about. Obviously, it is a matter of mystery, yet I cannot help but throw curious questions out into the void about what it is like when I have chosen to cease to be I and just Be as only the One Undifferentiated can. Though cartoonish dreams often result, the more useful consequence of this meditation is when I find that the ego-self is at times afraid of this ultimate Union.

[Unbound]

That Fear which we work through slowly, slowly in each incarnation.

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@ Ankh: Those sure sound like experiences with your Spiritual Triad!

[Shin'Ar]

From the infinite beginning, a paradox, proceeds three absolutes. Creation, Sustenance and destruction. None can exist without the other. These are the three divines.

From the infinite beginning one force moved upon another creating the polarity of existence. The direction of this movement, being in time/space, is a memory and a continuing thought. Therfore it is finished and continuing, thus the Sacred Circle is created. The Ouroboros.

There is direction on that circle, one way or the other. This is choice.

And there is Mystery that lies ahead that cannot be known because it always continues into infinity. It is protected in such a way that it cannot be known. Thus there is always revelation.

To exist as One, We choose to go one way or the other, but it is already done. The Mystery is what creates the continuation.

[Unbound]

Ehe, I'm uncertain how many can grasp that "Mystery", or "the state of being unknown" IS the Mystery... For there must be an infinite well of the unknown, for creation to continue ad infinitum.

[Shin'Ar]

Ehe, I'm uncertain how many can grasp that "Mystery", or "the state of being unknown" IS the Mystery... For there must be an infinite well of the unknown, for creation to continue ad infinitum.

I am often compelled to just type.

[Unbound]

Much of what I type here I am aware of as "channeling", so often I go back and read my own words and they seem completely foreign to my mind.

[Bring4th_Austin]

I was going to ask you if you have been channeling your posts lately Azrael...they definitely have the structure, feel, and information indicative of it.

[Unbound]

I have been since I began on this website, to be honest, just my "in-tuneness" with my guides and Intelligences have increased, I have discovered new facets of intelligence, etc

I have been channeling Azrael from the beginning, once in awhile Michael, and nowadays Andariel has been contributing, being of the aspect of Intelligence, or Creation.

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How shall I say, as a primary Absorber, I suck up words and concepts like no tomorrow, and then I gracefully hand over the organization of said words and concepts to the Intelligences which work through my Being. So, we work in tandem, I collect new concepts, so that they may have a greater field of expression to communicate with.

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I will also share some with you all, of the state of balance. For there is a Spiritual Triad of Guides, there is also the Shadow Reflection of this Triad which is the Animal Natures.

For myself, I am Asmodeus, I am Belial and I am Ba'al. Yet, these facets of myself understand their place as a source, or Catalyst for compassion and understanding. They are the dark potentials, that are the Spiritual Triad under the Veil, which are DESIGNED to give way to Light when the Light shines upon them, and so, these dark forces are neutralized by the Light within my Being, and have no control or influence over that which I am, for I know them, am aware of them, and do not let them from my sight.

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How shall I say, to conquer a fear you must give it a Name. I have named my fears as demons and seen how powerless and empty they are in the face of my Spiritual Permanence.

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Now that I think of it, the three negative aspects also correspond with weakness in my lower chakras.

Asmodeus - Sacral Chakra, Belial - Solar Plexus, Ba'al - Root Chakra

[Shin'Ar]

O darkness, come into the Light.

Formless was HE within his TEMPLE,
yet was HE formed in the image of men.

Dwelling among them yet not of them,
strange and far different
was HE from the children of men.

Chose HE then from among the people,
THREE who became his gateway.

Choose HE the THREE from the Highest
to become his links with Atlantis.

Messengers they, who carried his council,
to the kings of the children of men.

Brought HE forth others and taught them wisdom;
teachers, they, to the children of men.
Placed HE them on the island of UNDAL to stand as
teachers of LIGHT to men.

Each of those who were thus chosen,
taught must he be for years five and ten.

Only thus could he have understanding to bring
LIGHT to the children of men.

Thus there came into being the Temple, a dwelling place
for the Master of men.

I, THOTH, have ever sought wisdom,
searching in darkness and searching in Light.

Long in my youth I traveled the pathway,
seeking ever new knowledge to gain.

Until after much striving, one of the THREE,
to me brought the LIGHT.

Brought HE to me the commands of the DWELLER,
called me from the darkness into the LIGHT.
Brought HE me, before the DWELLER,
deep in the Temple before the great FIRE.

There on the great throne, beheld I,
the DWELLER, clothed with the LIGHT
and flashing with fire.
Down I knelt before that great wisdom,
feeling the LIGHT flowing through me in waves.

Heard I then the voice of the DWELLER:
"O darkness, come into the Light.

Long have ye sought the pathway to LIGHT.

Each soul on earth that loosens its fetters,
shall soon be made free from the bondage of night.

Forth from the darkness have ye arisen,
closer approached the Light of your goal.


THESE THREE HAVE LONG BEEN THE LEADERS OF MAN FROM DARKNESS INTO LIGHT. THEY ARE THE GATEWAY.

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WHAT DARKNESS DO THE THREE LEAD AWAY FROM?



Long, ago in the days of the first man,
warfare began between darkness and light.
Man, then as now,
were filled with both darkness and light;
and while in some darkness hell sway,
in other light filled the soul.

Aye, age old in this warfare,
the eternal struggle between darkness and light.
Fiercely is it fought all through the ages,
using strange powers hidden to man.

Adepts has there been filled with the blackness,
struggling always against the light;
but others there are who, filled with brightness,
have ever conquered the darkness of night.
Where e'er ye may be in all ages and plane,
surely, ye shall know of the battle with night.
Long ages ago,
The SUNS of the Morning
descending, found the world filled with night,
there in that past, begun the struggle,
the age old Battle Darkness & Light.

Many in the time were so filled with darkness
that only feebly flamed the light from the night.

Some they were, masters of darkness, who sought
to fill all with their darkness:
Sought to draw others into their night.
Fiercely withstood they, the masters of brightness:
fiercely fought they from the darkness of night
Sought ever to tighten the fetters,
the chains that bind men to the darkness of night.
Used they always the dark magic,
brought into men by the power of darkness.
magic that enshrouded man's soul with darkness.

Banded together as in order,
BROTHERS OF DARKNESS,
they through the ages,
antagonist they to the children of men.
Walked they always secret and hidden,
found, yet not found by the children of man.

Forever, they walked and worked in darkness,
hiding from the light in the darkness of night.
Silently, secretly use they their power,
enslaving and binding the soul of men.

Unseen they come, and unseen they go.
Man, in his ignorance calls THEM from below.

Dark is the way of the DARK BROTHERS travel,
dark of the darkness not of the night,
traveling o'er Earth
they walk through man's dreams.
Power they have gained
from the darkness around them
to call other dwellers from out of their plane,
in ways that are dark and unseen by man.
Into man's mind-space reach the DARK BROTHERS.

Around it, they close the veil of their night.
There through it's lifetime
that soul dwells in bondage,
bound by the fetters of the VEIL of the night.
Mighty are they in the forbidden knowledge
forbidden because it is one with the night.

Hark ye O old man and list to my warning:
be ye free from the bondage of night.
Surrender not your soul to the BROTHERS OF DARKNESS.

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List ye, O man, to he who comes to you.
But weigh in the balance if his words be of LIGHT.
For many there are who walk in DARK BRIGHTNESS
and yet are not the children of LIGHT.

BEWARE THE DARK BRIGHTNESS!

[Unbound]

Are you taking these quotes from the Emerald Tablets?

Perhaps not in this thread, but I would very much like to see a broken down, symbolic analysis of what you are implying.

My issue with archaic writings like these is that so many things are left undefined. In this "Darkness", "night", "brightness", "Light", etc

So, if "the reincarnational cycle" is the "darkness", and this comes from "attachment to the flesh", do you propose that the only possible path to "freedom" is through an aesthetic lifestyle? Do you need to reject other humans, and reject the very fact of your incarnation? Do you need to CONTROL yourself constantly, and attempt to control others through the fear of being "trapped"?

My confusion comes from this: I have seen beyond polarity, I have mingled with infinity, I have see the Illusion as the Illusion, and so what is my work at this point? Have I nothing to do but turn men away from the lives they are living for my ideal of "freedom"? Perhaps now that I know my "true identity", I have nothing more to do than to simply die, cause then I'm "free", right?

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It amuses me, how men quiver at the very names of demons, how they quiver at the very mention of Darkness. When it is all Illusory, it is all just an idea that is a tool for Self-Creation.

[Shin'Ar]

Yes, these are teachings from Thoth, the Sun of the Light.

To me the teachings are clear, but I cannot say if they are clear to all who read them because there may be a certain connection required.

What I can say is that what it reveals to me here I can also find in many other teachings as well.

The direction we are advised to go is clear. The thing we are advised to beware of is also clear. Not only here in the teachings of Thoth but, in the Ra material and in many other ancient teachings aslo. If one chooses to embrace the dark and enjoy its offerings they do so at a price.

This is their choice. I do not judge, I only reveal the truth of the choices and the advice given by those teachers to which I adhere. There are many teachers who would advise differently and some follow them.

As to what do we do with our life if we choose to follow the Light; we walk forward instead of backward. We seek to become free of reincarnation so that we might enter into an existence of higher being. We become Higher beings.

How do we accomplish this? By learning how to conquer the hold that the flesh has over us which keeps us from walking toward the Light. This means becoming aware of the difference between being completely at the mercy of your self gratifications, and being able to understand them and be in control of them. This means becoming aware of the fact that your true identity is not of flesh, but that you are a being of light, which has not yet realized its truth.

The butterfly that sits on the edge of the leaf and pretends to be a caterpillar because it liked the feeling of having many legs, is living in the darkness. When it deliberately chooses to remain on the leaf and chew it over and over again and again, when it actually has the option to fly away into a new being, it lives in the darkness. When it cannot find the strength to fight off that desire to remain behind, it is trapped in the darkness. And when it deliberately strives to keep others from knowing the truth, and trap others with itself, it becomes a Son of Belial.

The difference between the two is the choice of the One. This is choice and polarity. The duality of the One.

[Unbound]

Well that all sounds and looks the same as I've seen the teaching expressed countless times, and the way I have cognized it myself. (I've been reading the Emerald Tablets myself, as well.)

However, this still doesn't answer my question. What is the purpose of becoming a "Higher Being"? Is not to constantly seek to "heighten the self" a form of Service to Self, and an attachment to self-gratification? What is a self-gratification that has been understood and "controlled"? How do you recognize that within yourself?

Once again, is this suggesting that the only way for me to "be of the Light", is to deny the flesh and all things associated with it?

I am asking these things because they are a point of confusion for MANY people. What seems implicit to you, is incredibly convoluted due to language to other people. This is part of my work here, I am interested in translating the Ancient Wisdom so that it can be understood by All.

I mean, for myself, I hardly even conceive of myself as "human" anymore, I work in many times, many dimensions and by no means have any sense that I am merely my Body, or that it is the true essence of my Being. Rather, I am at the point now where my thought is: Okay, so I'm an immense being of Light, and I know I've COME BACK here, WHY?

Since I have been rather awake for much of my life (I have never really been attached to the body, I could daresay most of my life I was off in other dimensions), I'm at a point where I am honestly uncertain what is an appropriate path of Service to Others. Since it seems my knowledge and attempts to teach are disdained, confusing or convoluted by interpretation, I am really quite uncertain at this point if there is any purpose to my continuing to live. Perhaps due to the remarks of others, but I frequently feel that I am not being in Service to Others, even though I strive to make that choice in every moment, and I feel that perhaps the greatest service I can do is to remove myself from incarnation.

Frankly, I don't know how to approach this state of feeling.

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I mean, you constantly repeat these same concepts of "freeing oneself from the darkness".

Well, where are you? Are you Free? Are you still trapped in Darkness? Why are you still here if you have seemingly discovered the secrets to enlightenment?

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How shall I say, I am trying to bring poetic mysticism in to a more practical, understandable field. We are no longer in the time where teachings must be hidden by fanciful imagery.

[Shin'Ar]

We cannot deny the flesh, anymore than we can deny the third density, anymore than we can deny the One. We are what we are, at any level of being and awareness.

This experience in the flesh came about by a number of events that were the choices of consciousnesses that have gone before us. This earth and its place in the universe has been an experience to add to the All. What we have learned here we have both enjoyed and hated. There has been beauty and ugliness, love and hatred, light and darkness. As it is with the the All; polarity.

But this is one stop on a geat journey. The rest of the universe is not bound to this density or this experience. I cannot say that there are not similar experiences elsewhere in the universe. But I can say that the entire universe is not this one experience.Our Higher Being is not an experience of flesh, body or identity. It will not be a matter of floating about wondering what to do next. Our Higher Being is related to being One with the All and realizing our divinity. We will not be in this third density form. We will be Light and Energy, continuing thought and consciousness experiencing this existence in ways that will be nothing like this temporary form we have now. What opportunities and amazing adventures that opens up to us is beyond our comprehension as long as we rely on this brain of flesh.

But this experience can be prolonged here if we choose to remain. At least, until the cycles change, and we are sent to another density. And the things that cause us to want to remain are those things that we must learn to understand and conquer. Not because they are evil. Not because they are sinful. But simply because they attract us in the wrong direction. And this is where we find the difference between STO and STS. STO is helping others understand this and leading them in the right direction toward their higher being. STS is satisfying ones own attraction to the flesh and this experience, and in order to be able to enjoy that to its fullest one cannot do it alone. They must seduce others to remain with them. This is the agenda of the Dark Ones.

The darkness is that many are caught in the trap of this experience and must go through it over and over again, never increasing in awareness of their true identity or evolving on the path to Higher Being. And some choose to remain here even when they know better.

[Unbound]

Okay, I don't really have any desire to "hold people to the flesh", since by all means I know, and believe, and am aware that it is entirely temporal and that we have much more potentials as Higher Beings, and I have been working ceaselessly for the past 4 years to try to bring this same truth to all around me.

I don't really in any way feel concerned about my own progress, I know that when I am ready to transform and transition I will do so with grace, and awareness.

My issue, at the moment, is that, well, I'm here now, and I have gone through a process of denial of the flesh to realize my true identity, and now I just honestly don't know where to go next. I feel like if I engage in Third Dimensional reality too much it will somehow "set me back" from my identity. There is much pressure to have a career, to be working and gaining money, of course to sustain the self, but intuitively and emotionally I have a very hard time pushing myself to complete these things.

I spend day after day, often online, just talking with people, opening perceptions, bringing people to the awareness of their true being, and I am also in so much pain as a result. I've denied my physical self to the point that I have so little strength in my body I don't know how I can possibly be of Service to Others. I can't even go out in to the cold without being wracked with pain.

I am seriously have issues coping with the idea of the worthlessness of my own physical existence.

[Shin'Ar]

Life here in this density is one of balancing the polarities. That is what alchemy was all about. It was never about turning lead into gold or even about immortality. It was about creating balance in an existence where too far one way or another leads to extremity and imbalance.

Does this mean that we are to find perfect balance and deny the experience alotgether? No! It just means that we have direction and choice in the process. There is choice to go one way or another.

We are here and there is the choice to vibrate in such a way that we emit love and light. There is the opportunity to teach others what we understand. To lead others out of this darkness on a quicker path than they would have been on without your guidance. There is the opportunity to enjoy the beauty and love of this world, and there is also the oppportunity to partake in its ugliness. That is a choice one makes. And there is also a balance somewhere between the two, all dependent entirely on one's choices. the fact that life comes with responsibility to others and obligations does not change the need for balance. No one has said that it is easy. We all know the easy way out. But to go that route will simply put you right back here again, and maybe at a lower level of consciousness. Would you want to lose all that you have gained in awareness and understanding just because life gets a little mundane? We all do the best that we can do with what we have to work with.

Why would a person not want to experience this life just because they are aware that they are evolving? There is much to experience here and enjoy here. But having it under control so that it does not become a veil to truth is your struggle. Enjoying this life, making it one of opportunity and growth, requires balance, control and understanding.

The caution We advise is in knowing that STS will be sent to a place that is entirely STS in the next density. STO will go to an STO place. And we do not know when that transition will take place. So the risk is for those who choose to practice STS who may not want to go into the next density with such vibration. if you want to be in a place like that, than one makes that decision and reaps what they sow. if you do not think that is where you want to be in the next density, than every moment you spend is STS takes you one step closer to that reality. This is what the Ra material teaches us.

What Thoth teaches is that as beings of Light, we are now trapped in the darkness and need to escape it.