08-27-2021, 06:02 PM
Hello fellow co-creators. As some of you probably saw from my previous thread I recently became sick for a couple weeks. This thread is about that experience as it relates to fear.
When I was sick, I couldn't help but think that I had the rona. Which in turn led to thoughts of wondering if I was going to need to go the hospital or other more extreme reactions which sometimes occur. What I found most baffling at the time is that this fear which came to the fore is not something I was aware of at all before becoming ill. Now I have actually been quite a bit sicker several times with bronchitis. Including multiple fevers as an adult over 104 degrees fahrenheit, coughing until I passed out and fell hitting my head, and being so short of breath I could barely walk around the house.
There wasn't a single time when I was that sick that I feared death, or considered going to a doctor, much less a hospital. Despite how idiotic I know that sounds given the severity of my illnesses in the past.
Yet somehow with a mild fever of 101, some mild congestion and sore throat, and everything tasting odd, I had recurrent thoughts that I may get much more ill and be hospitalized or even die.
In case anyone is unaware, I do not consume mainstream media, I do not watch TV, I do not engage in most social media. Most of my exposure comes thru radio and youtube videos. Yet despite in my case the limited exposure to the fear mongering that has prevailed since the start of the coronavirus contagion, I was still infected. Not just by the rona, which was an annoyingly long cold for the most part, but more importantly by fear. A fear which managed to hide itself in the recesses of my mind. My daily meditation, my daily affirmations, my belief in the strength and power of the body to heal itself, none prevented the infection of fear.
Yet the actual infection by the rona, required a weakening of my own bodily defenses thru subconscious action. The fear was insidious and required no such opening.
IMO and IME fear is the most negative of emotions one can experience. This is an emotion which will occur to everyone in every life. When viewed in proper context it warns against potential danger. When allowed to spiral out of control it twists and contorts the most benign of things into dangers which are lurking.
I have realized there is likely many people who are afraid of various things without any awareness of the fear, or the utility of lack thereof. This fear is the currency of the media, of fiction and news alike. The fear causes separation, causes division, causes isolation. and causes disassociation. It also causes disproportionate responses to situations and circumstances.
When you look around and think the world has become crazy, look a little deeper and you may see the fear that so many are operating from. The real question, is what fears are YOU operating from? How have YOU been infected and are you aware of it?
Perhaps it would behoove everyone to take time to examine themselves and their responses and honestly assess whether they come from fear, or love. When you find the fear in yourself what do you do? Well, the only thing I know is to accept it and transmute it with love. As an infinite being, there is nothing to fear, all will be well, even if it takes awhile.
When I was sick, I couldn't help but think that I had the rona. Which in turn led to thoughts of wondering if I was going to need to go the hospital or other more extreme reactions which sometimes occur. What I found most baffling at the time is that this fear which came to the fore is not something I was aware of at all before becoming ill. Now I have actually been quite a bit sicker several times with bronchitis. Including multiple fevers as an adult over 104 degrees fahrenheit, coughing until I passed out and fell hitting my head, and being so short of breath I could barely walk around the house.
There wasn't a single time when I was that sick that I feared death, or considered going to a doctor, much less a hospital. Despite how idiotic I know that sounds given the severity of my illnesses in the past.
Yet somehow with a mild fever of 101, some mild congestion and sore throat, and everything tasting odd, I had recurrent thoughts that I may get much more ill and be hospitalized or even die.
In case anyone is unaware, I do not consume mainstream media, I do not watch TV, I do not engage in most social media. Most of my exposure comes thru radio and youtube videos. Yet despite in my case the limited exposure to the fear mongering that has prevailed since the start of the coronavirus contagion, I was still infected. Not just by the rona, which was an annoyingly long cold for the most part, but more importantly by fear. A fear which managed to hide itself in the recesses of my mind. My daily meditation, my daily affirmations, my belief in the strength and power of the body to heal itself, none prevented the infection of fear.
Yet the actual infection by the rona, required a weakening of my own bodily defenses thru subconscious action. The fear was insidious and required no such opening.
IMO and IME fear is the most negative of emotions one can experience. This is an emotion which will occur to everyone in every life. When viewed in proper context it warns against potential danger. When allowed to spiral out of control it twists and contorts the most benign of things into dangers which are lurking.
I have realized there is likely many people who are afraid of various things without any awareness of the fear, or the utility of lack thereof. This fear is the currency of the media, of fiction and news alike. The fear causes separation, causes division, causes isolation. and causes disassociation. It also causes disproportionate responses to situations and circumstances.
When you look around and think the world has become crazy, look a little deeper and you may see the fear that so many are operating from. The real question, is what fears are YOU operating from? How have YOU been infected and are you aware of it?
Perhaps it would behoove everyone to take time to examine themselves and their responses and honestly assess whether they come from fear, or love. When you find the fear in yourself what do you do? Well, the only thing I know is to accept it and transmute it with love. As an infinite being, there is nothing to fear, all will be well, even if it takes awhile.