05-06-2020, 03:41 AM
(This post was last modified: 05-06-2020, 03:45 AM by Sunclarity.)
This night I had a weird dream. All was well until the end. I'm actually reluctant to tell you as I am afraid. I'm writing this at 4 am by the way. Basically, at the end, I was in some kind of gathering of comedians, gathering which was being funny up until then and was innocenr even at the end. I didn't feel any negative emotion while in the dream, at least, not what I would call of such.
So, in the end, as one of the comedians, I asked the audience and myself if I could be a vessel for Orion entities and what that would entail. The gathering answered yes and I don't remember of my own answer. The dream abruptly ended with me hearing my mom breathing and my phone making a noise. I feel it might have been my higher-self protecting me but I'm not sure and I don't know if I said yes or no.
I'm no channeler and am just an average dude seeking enlightenment. I am not interested in psychic powers and haven't made any serious attempt to my knowledge, so in my view, it would be impossible for me to channel anything even if I wanted. I'm also much inclined to a positive-orientation. Yet, I am afraid. Very. My life is difficult already without an entity making it worse (I have depression for some years now) and I don't know why I had this dream.
I'm someone who gets easily scared. So much I'd shake and cry all over in literal pain if watching a scary movie. My fear is one of the things I wish to understand/love more as it stops me from living life as properly as I could. I fear failing, rejection, feeling bad or uncomforfable for too long, among many other things. Since childhood I do. I hope someone can offer me guidance on this matter and if you can send me love and safety, I'd really appreciate.
I don't want to make this text more convoluted, but I think all information is useful. First, last night before sleeping was a bit weird. A neighbor died and for some reason, I was super happy. Couldn't stop laughing and singing. This may appear negative to some but it wasn't to me. I had no negative emotions whatsoever and I was so happy because 1) I needed to have a good laugh, and 2) I was aware of the true nature of death. Of the facade or beautiful game that it is.
Right before sleeping something weird also happened. It felt as if I was under an hallucinogen. I was seeing weird shapes and colors, like vortices, squares, pillars of little circles moving around. I'm unable to explain why but it wasn't negative either. I mean, true negativity only came after all this - my neighbor, my celebration, my weird visions and dream - when I woke up due to the stimuli mentioned and analyzed the content of the dream.
I think I'll have difficulty to sleep now and that is what I want most help on. I just want to sleep knowing I don't need to worry, that all is well and will be well. But idk, what if I have said dream again and give a positive answer (again if I already did or for the first time if not)? As said, I'm not very strong in the emotional-spiritual sense so I'm incredibly easy to influence.
I wish that I and everyone here experiences today more love than yesterday.
So, in the end, as one of the comedians, I asked the audience and myself if I could be a vessel for Orion entities and what that would entail. The gathering answered yes and I don't remember of my own answer. The dream abruptly ended with me hearing my mom breathing and my phone making a noise. I feel it might have been my higher-self protecting me but I'm not sure and I don't know if I said yes or no.
I'm no channeler and am just an average dude seeking enlightenment. I am not interested in psychic powers and haven't made any serious attempt to my knowledge, so in my view, it would be impossible for me to channel anything even if I wanted. I'm also much inclined to a positive-orientation. Yet, I am afraid. Very. My life is difficult already without an entity making it worse (I have depression for some years now) and I don't know why I had this dream.
I'm someone who gets easily scared. So much I'd shake and cry all over in literal pain if watching a scary movie. My fear is one of the things I wish to understand/love more as it stops me from living life as properly as I could. I fear failing, rejection, feeling bad or uncomforfable for too long, among many other things. Since childhood I do. I hope someone can offer me guidance on this matter and if you can send me love and safety, I'd really appreciate.
I don't want to make this text more convoluted, but I think all information is useful. First, last night before sleeping was a bit weird. A neighbor died and for some reason, I was super happy. Couldn't stop laughing and singing. This may appear negative to some but it wasn't to me. I had no negative emotions whatsoever and I was so happy because 1) I needed to have a good laugh, and 2) I was aware of the true nature of death. Of the facade or beautiful game that it is.
Right before sleeping something weird also happened. It felt as if I was under an hallucinogen. I was seeing weird shapes and colors, like vortices, squares, pillars of little circles moving around. I'm unable to explain why but it wasn't negative either. I mean, true negativity only came after all this - my neighbor, my celebration, my weird visions and dream - when I woke up due to the stimuli mentioned and analyzed the content of the dream.
I think I'll have difficulty to sleep now and that is what I want most help on. I just want to sleep knowing I don't need to worry, that all is well and will be well. But idk, what if I have said dream again and give a positive answer (again if I already did or for the first time if not)? As said, I'm not very strong in the emotional-spiritual sense so I'm incredibly easy to influence.
I wish that I and everyone here experiences today more love than yesterday.