12-28-2010, 01:24 AM
I have not spoken to another person directly this, but I hope, brothers and sisters, you can help me with this development that has incurred since my studying of the Ra material.
I can't say I've had a proper initiation or anything as Ra says the adept goes through, but ever since the universe drew me towards the teachings of Ra more than a year ago, I have developed the ability to hear other people's thoughts. I understand it scientifically as my brain being opened and tuned to receive the brainwaves of others within my proximity as it flows through the infinite. It has been happening for sometime, as my friends sometimes look startled as they recognize I can respond to their thoughts. I have NEVER used this 'ability' to control others, rather to assist them if I hear a question they have but they choose not to verbalize. I guess, sometimes if I feel the thought or question warrants a response and they, as I perceive, have some sort of fear blocking their verbalization of the comment, I go ahead and answer them as generally as I can, so as to not boast of this ability, but rather, to help them. This, recently, has been demonstrated moreso since I've been working at a restaurant where I go ahead and "sense" what others want me to do, whether they be coworkers or disgruntled customers, and assist them quicker with their requests whether or not they specifically asked. The times I've assisted this way I've been accurate with what I've heard.
It feels like a curse sometimes though. Like, I'm really not supposed to be hearing these things, but if its a part of human evolution as Ra describes, then my worry is, are psychic abilities a negative trait? Has the road I've been going down to improve my spiritual life, which I suppose you could define as a service to self, be leading me down the road to service to self without permission? Again, I don't use this to control others. But whether or not I like it, I DO hear other people. I can't control it. But sometimes I wish I couldn't. I just want to be normal. But honestly, spiritual discussion is one of the few things that I'm genuinely interested in. Ra said something along the lines that as one awakens, he/she will being to lose interest in the things he/she was interested in before, and find new things that captivate the mind. For instance, I used to be an avid video gamer; playing hours and hours on end without thinking about it. Now, I can hardly sit down for an hour or two and play without losing interest or feeling like what I'm doing is not accomplishing anything or is just plain unfulfilling.
I ask you, brothers and sisters, what is the meaning of this? This seems to be an ability that I've developed and can't return from. Sometimes I feel evil because others can't do this and are frightened by it. Some deny it, some accept it and think its cool, some accept it and see power. Is this an 'evil' power? Am I totally self-serving now even though I only respond to others thoughts if I believe it is an assistance to others?
I know others who have this ability too, I just don't know if they use it like I do. I don't talk to them very often so I can't really ask, and even then, the only way I know they are psychic is because one time we tried some magic mushrooms, sat in a circle at its peak, (before we laid on the ground looking at the sunset) and had a conversation between all of us psychically, and the questions that we would ask telepathically, we would answer verbally. Like, if anybody were videotaping our convo, we would appear to be insane, because we lept from topic to topic without any apparent means to our changing of topics.
Long post, I know, sorry, but I am startled by this as it is becoming more frequent. Am I going down a slippery slope by running with this or should it be repressed?
Repression doesn't sound very "love" oriented, and if everything in the universe is love, then.... is this the kind of love I want? Can I be STO and psychic?
Many thanks, and much love to all.
I can't say I've had a proper initiation or anything as Ra says the adept goes through, but ever since the universe drew me towards the teachings of Ra more than a year ago, I have developed the ability to hear other people's thoughts. I understand it scientifically as my brain being opened and tuned to receive the brainwaves of others within my proximity as it flows through the infinite. It has been happening for sometime, as my friends sometimes look startled as they recognize I can respond to their thoughts. I have NEVER used this 'ability' to control others, rather to assist them if I hear a question they have but they choose not to verbalize. I guess, sometimes if I feel the thought or question warrants a response and they, as I perceive, have some sort of fear blocking their verbalization of the comment, I go ahead and answer them as generally as I can, so as to not boast of this ability, but rather, to help them. This, recently, has been demonstrated moreso since I've been working at a restaurant where I go ahead and "sense" what others want me to do, whether they be coworkers or disgruntled customers, and assist them quicker with their requests whether or not they specifically asked. The times I've assisted this way I've been accurate with what I've heard.
It feels like a curse sometimes though. Like, I'm really not supposed to be hearing these things, but if its a part of human evolution as Ra describes, then my worry is, are psychic abilities a negative trait? Has the road I've been going down to improve my spiritual life, which I suppose you could define as a service to self, be leading me down the road to service to self without permission? Again, I don't use this to control others. But whether or not I like it, I DO hear other people. I can't control it. But sometimes I wish I couldn't. I just want to be normal. But honestly, spiritual discussion is one of the few things that I'm genuinely interested in. Ra said something along the lines that as one awakens, he/she will being to lose interest in the things he/she was interested in before, and find new things that captivate the mind. For instance, I used to be an avid video gamer; playing hours and hours on end without thinking about it. Now, I can hardly sit down for an hour or two and play without losing interest or feeling like what I'm doing is not accomplishing anything or is just plain unfulfilling.
I ask you, brothers and sisters, what is the meaning of this? This seems to be an ability that I've developed and can't return from. Sometimes I feel evil because others can't do this and are frightened by it. Some deny it, some accept it and think its cool, some accept it and see power. Is this an 'evil' power? Am I totally self-serving now even though I only respond to others thoughts if I believe it is an assistance to others?
I know others who have this ability too, I just don't know if they use it like I do. I don't talk to them very often so I can't really ask, and even then, the only way I know they are psychic is because one time we tried some magic mushrooms, sat in a circle at its peak, (before we laid on the ground looking at the sunset) and had a conversation between all of us psychically, and the questions that we would ask telepathically, we would answer verbally. Like, if anybody were videotaping our convo, we would appear to be insane, because we lept from topic to topic without any apparent means to our changing of topics.
Long post, I know, sorry, but I am startled by this as it is becoming more frequent. Am I going down a slippery slope by running with this or should it be repressed?
Repression doesn't sound very "love" oriented, and if everything in the universe is love, then.... is this the kind of love I want? Can I be STO and psychic?
Many thanks, and much love to all.
