The most negative entity

[GentleReckoning]

Is simply the individual which can cause the greatest change in the future. This is because when we create we pull not with just our physical body, but our emotional body, and our mental body as well. (all the way up to the top of course) If it is translatable to the physical plane, it will be.

In this way the demon hunter always becomes the greatest negative entity. The demon hunter then learns how to defeat his/her demon and becomes a paladin. When the paladin encounters paradox, then the paladin moves towards the scientist. As soon as the scientist understands social dynamics and power structures, then the scientist becomes king. And you can of course get people to call you God. This is just God's light (truth or pure masculine energy) transferring into the physical as by connecting more to your true self you create more and more of your reality to balance. As your reality increases in volume, then you learn how to tune dissonance out more and more. Eventually, you simply become totally alien to the timeline you exist in, as it is rare that teachers are not actively sought and encouraged. Instead the confusion caused by being ruled primarily by TV programming causes the projection of all your subconscious or programmed aspects can be rooted out before the true self comes out.

Once this happens, you create massive dissonance between yourself and your environment. This manifests as projecting zombie like or asleep features onto them. Garr certainly made comments alluding to this, and Don eventually projected so much paranoia (as the group became more and more impactful or negative to the local environment as vibration IS location based). Eventually you just manifest 'bad luck' and are disempowered to the extent that you become the hermit. It is at this point that the 40 days in the wilderness happens as it was called in the religion called christian.

If the individual feels supported enough by his/her environment, this can happen as a test of faith or a climb to a mountain top. For me it was fairly typical in that I simply manifested distance from all societal relationships. And then your final sins are brought before you. Mine were typical in that I wanted to be a savior. However, Jesus had warned me not to try to save people locked by seals and symbols. Instead, stick your arm under the fabric as it were, and beseech God directly.

If you ARE righteous, you will attract energy to your cause. And if you prefer love over fear, what you will create will be colored by that energy. And if you can sense cords and energies, then you will know you for you, and will be able to easily tell when you are misaligned. Men are more attuned to the physical, while women soul of course. So in times like these men will attune to soul as a feat of strength so as to learn/teach other men. Meanwhile, women, more connected to soul, willfully support greater density in their archetypal roles. This is why, of course, so many women are breaking their archetypal role in dress, demeanor, and relational perspective. This is also why so many spiritual seekers give up the physical in their search of soul as they realize at a deep level that all action does is create learning, and that there is value in simply enjoying what one is digesting in leu of excessive catalyst of any kind.

This dispels some of the confusion.

[GentleReckoning]

This is also why so many spiritual leaders either had checkered paths or manifest sexual misconduct. As you become free of dense energies, you attract or offer on a subconscious level to learn others' lessons that you come into contact or on a soul level. You then learn how to balance those as well. This is why there is so much sexual misconduct among the spiritual leaders that actually climb the spiritual ladder. They just start lensing distortions, and eventually one manifests in the physical.

I too have attracted attention on all levels.

[GentleReckoning]

And so I admit that I may be more negative than this world can become positive. So I'm trying to figure out where to go, and chill out, and just enjoy the show the luciferian and zionists put on.

They're clearly projecting being injured as children. Probably harsh parenting.

[GentleReckoning]

Regardless, I'm gonna probably just get impatient and advertise nirvana or godhood in some random city around the world. Seems kinda popular these days.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

I think the most negative being was the One Infinite Creator.  It is all things.

But hey what's wrong with being negative? Someone's gotta be the Wolf that leads the Sheep.

Just wish they were more considerate.

[Louisabell]

Here is my 2c, for what it's worth...

I have pondered on the subject of the difference between the positive and negative poles. In my experience, the negative soul decides that it will no longer try to transmute difficult catalyst into a state of unity (approaching bliss) and therefore resigns itself to a reality of pain and difficulty.

In order to withstand such pain, the negative entity finds its seat of power in commiting an inner death, a complete numbing of the heart in order to withstand the pain, fear and fury of their existence.

Once the negative entity wakes from the deicide they've committed on themselves, they find they are still fully conscious, as consciousness never dies, except this time they have a sense of invincibility. Yet they lack the infinite pouring in of blessed energy that the heart brings.

So the negative entity experiences a type of spiritual hunger that they can only feed by taking from others, eventually learning how to enlist others into their program as well. The bitterness of this degrading dependence again feeds into the negative entities' feeling of justified anger.

In my view, the negative path is a very serious undertaking. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

[GentleReckoning]

I don't mind it at all. I keep my vessel clean enough to investigate any part of reality at will. And I always bring back some dirt from the travels, which I clean off and travel again.

You really don't need anyone else at all.

[GentleReckoning]

And literally the major point of disconnection is that by simply allowing yourself to enjoy other people's appearance in a non-needy fashion in your day-to-day life that sexual sins disappear.

Considering that that sin is the foundation of almost all religions, it is no wonder.

[GentleReckoning]

For the negative, feeling good, or bad, is not the desire. Any time I meditate, I go to cloud nine almost immediately. It is simply an unrepressing of the child to an extent which makes the collectives subconscious very, very, nervous.

[Louisabell]

I don't mind it at all. I keep my vessel clean enough to investigate any part of reality at will. And I always bring back some dirt from the travels, which I clean off and travel again.

You really don't need anyone else at all.

Can I ask, what is your purpose in doing this? What are your intentions behind such work?

[GentleReckoning]

A simple: "I want to see more of me, because I would like to test the wisdom I perceive I am learning against the greatest teacher, reality." Pretty much all it is at this point. I feel that I lead to the best outcomes, as I learn from all catalyst, balance, and just jump back in and learn more.

[Louisabell]

A simple: "I want to see more of me, because I would like to test the wisdom I perceive I am learning against the greatest teacher, reality." Pretty much all it is at this point. I feel that I lead to the best outcomes, as I learn from all catalyst, balance, and just jump back in and learn more.

Then you have love of truth - a truth that exists outside of your own distortions. I would classify that as a positive orientation.

[BlatzAdict]

you walk the thin grey path, be careful that your karma does not rattle towards the lack of compassion.

the light and the dark are one at sixth density. that is to say good and evil is the luciferian term for encouraging the divisive aspect of two forces, rather than the cooperative aspect, which would then redefine polarity as masculine and feminine in an infinite interplay, or an infinite dance.

unity consciousness would then become the overarching influence between the two. between light and love. between thought, and emotion. between the left and right lobes of the brain. wired into us, as constructs to embody and explore balance.

this creates the holy trinity as spoken in so many texts. the triangle, the pyramid, the confluence of equilibrium that which was responsible for the creation of physical matter in the first place. 3rd density is not for the faint of heart.

the analytical and the dreamer, come to create a fool, an archetype that is foreign to the norm of what is trying to learn, trying to connect through pattern. this foreign thoughtform, because the connections are unrealized, and thus unmanifest in their probable actions and choices throughout the second to second, day to day, only become the very blocks which prevent the connection to intelligent infinity.

Therefore it behooves us all to recognize the mastery within each other. To continually build upon what was put into being by the masters of the past including unsung and unspoken heroes who would have conceived of natural law. If 3rd density beings are also created in the image of the infinite creator, it imbues that third density being with inherent rights which allow that being to exist.

You then get into what would allow for that being to exist, which is shelter, food, and freedom to think. This then gets into the inherited constitution and the republic of the united states, vs the corporate democratic veil that is instituted by the very forces inspired through the Orion (Onion) Empire.

Which is to say that individuals can change the future provided that the individual receiving such information in accordance with the law of free will can decide by which through their personal experience whether or not that information is valid to them individually as a spark of the infinite creator.

The way can never be lit for others, as through free will those other selves, MUST come to their own through their own seeking to decide. Otherwise, this reality would not be as it is, without such a construct or integral resolution in play.

[Louisabell]

you walk the thin grey path, be careful that your karma does not rattle towards the lack of compassion.

the light and the dark are one at sixth density. that is to say good and evil is the luciferian term for encouraging the divisive aspect of two forces, rather than the cooperative aspect, which would then redefine polarity as masculine and feminine in an infinite interplay, or an infinite dance.

unity consciousness would then become the overarching influence between the two. between light and love. between thought, and emotion. between the left and right lobes of the brain. wired into us, as constructs to embody and explore balance.

this creates the holy trinity as spoken in so many texts. the triangle, the pyramid, the confluence of equilibrium that which was responsible for the creation of physical matter in the first place. 3rd density is not for the faint of heart.

the analytical and the dreamer, come to create a fool, an archetype that is foreign to the norm of what is trying to learn, trying to connect through pattern. this foreign thoughtform, because the connections are unrealized, and thus unmanifest in their probable actions and choices throughout the second to second, day to day, only become the very blocks which prevent the connection to intelligent infinity.

Therefore it behooves us all to recognize the mastery within each other. To continually build upon what was put into being by the masters of the past including unsung and unspoken heroes who would have conceived of natural law. If 3rd density beings are also created in the image of the infinite creator, it imbues that third density being with inherent rights which allow that being to exist.

You then get into what would allow for that being to exist, which is shelter, food, and freedom to think. This then gets into the inherited constitution and the republic of the united states, vs the corporate democratic veil that is instituted by the very forces inspired through the Orion (Onion) Empire.

Which is to say that individuals can change the future provided that the individual receiving such information in accordance with the law of free will can decide by which through their personal experience whether or not that information is valid to them individually as a spark of the infinite creator.

The way can never be lit for others, as through free will those other selves, MUST come to their own through their own seeking to decide. Otherwise, this reality would not be as it is, without such a construct or integral resolution in play.

This really resonates with me. Thank you for your insights. I'm dealing with a lot of confusion at this time, for which I am trying to take responsibility for. I knew it would be difficult, but it is testing my patience. I'm sorry if I come across as arrogant. There are many things that I am still quite naive about.

[Glow]

I think the most negative being was the One Infinite Creator.  It is all things.

But hey what's wrong with being negative? Someone's gotta be the Wolf that leads the Sheep.

Just wish they were more considerate.

You aren't totally wrong. I have been told and it resonated that I was of Lucifer. It was like a light got switched on it all made sense like the blink of an eye. Truth be told its an enigma.

Is it an extreme kindness, an act of service for part of the pure light of god to incarnate with full knowledge of the suffering/catalyst it will be creating for the greater good so others parts of self can grow?

Or does it make the darkness even darker to know that a pure conscious light was at the source of so much pain/calamity/struggle/hell?

I guess again it depends on perspective. It was all light before the veil.

[Sacred Fool]

Hmmm, well I suppose it's up to the individual to consider how much of the dissonance such as that herein expressed is of 3d ego (and, therefore, not really all that interesting--my bias) and how much is transcendent.  (That is, of something moire interesting than 3d ego and leading more directly to greater spiritual clarity and balance.)

In my view, the real question is this: to what degree is an entity blocked (internally) from the Love vibration and how much can one resonate with it and melt into it so that self becomes a more expanded object?  One way yields drama, the other, balance.  Not that I have anything against drama, mind you, but sometimes it can create more heat (and obscuration) than light.  The real essence of the matter is in the heart (not the 3d oriented "self"), is it not?

 

[GentleReckoning]

you walk the thin grey path, be careful that your karma does not rattle towards the lack of compassion.

I am very much in severity, but it allows me to play the hermit in the crowd. Greater clarity.

the light and the dark are one at sixth density. that is to say good and evil is the luciferian term for encouraging the divisive aspect of two forces, rather than the cooperative aspect, which would then redefine polarity as masculine and feminine in an infinite interplay, or an infinite dance.

Well, Lucifer is likely the 12th density guide that initiated this octave. Perhaps an entity that can only shine light. Thus creating all relationships, all interactions, all of everything basically. That archetype would seem to fit the sun as the nearest representative. Perhaps why it is the sun/son. And why we are on mother/daughter earth.

unity consciousness would then become the overarching influence between the two. between light and love. between thought, and emotion. between the left and right lobes of the brain. wired into us, as constructs to embody and explore balance.

You mean ego death. That which as it happens repeatedly causes subconscious projection of intelligent awareness into all of awareness creating a feedback effect where all of reality projects awareness onto you. Closer to late 6th density.

this creates the holy trinity as spoken in so many texts. the triangle, the pyramid, the confluence of equilibrium that which was responsible for the creation of physical matter in the first place. 3rd density is not for the faint of heart.

the analytical and the dreamer, come to create a fool, an archetype that is foreign to the norm of what is trying to learn, trying to connect through pattern. this foreign thoughtform, because the connections are unrealized, and thus unmanifest in their probable actions and choices throughout the second to second, day to day, only become the very blocks which prevent the connection to intelligent infinity.

It is just increased connection. First you raise your vibration. This creates greater potentiated electrical charges on all levels. You then begin to manifest your thoughts much faster. Then you learn how to filter (masculine) allowing you to block dissonant projections as you create your reality.

Therefore it behooves us all to recognize the mastery within each other. To continually build upon what was put into being by the masters of the past including unsung and unspoken heroes who would have conceived of natural law. If 3rd density beings are also created in the image of the infinite creator, it imbues that third density being with inherent rights which allow that being to exist.

All is transmuted to love. I find I serve them best by testing them against reality as their followers are terrified to do. As reality is projected by all of reality this creates the paradoxical state where they are constantly validated and invalidated over time. Then they fade away, and only wisdom remains. The plank determines your level of growth. Namaste if you will.

You then get into what would allow for that being to exist, which is shelter, food, and freedom to think. This then gets into the inherited constitution and the republic of the united states, vs the corporate democratic veil that is instituted by the very forces inspired through the Orion (Onion) Empire.

I swing much more towards socialism with a frisky liberal bent than towards anything else. As far as the orions... in a polarized society, the gray looks evil to the white as they have permissions exceeding theirs and to the black they constantly vie for status. This creates a situation where seclusion or massive energy expenditures are the preferred modes of living. I am not a prime example.

Which is to say that individuals can change the future provided that the individual receiving such information in accordance with the law of free will can decide by which through their personal experience whether or not that information is valid to them individually as a spark of the infinite creator.

Determined first by the individual's filter, then resonance and feedback.

The way can never be lit for others, as through free will those other selves, MUST come to their own through their own seeking to decide. Otherwise, this reality would not be as it is, without such a construct or integral resolution in play.

An interesting logos. There is a movement similar in the most dogmatic of christian churches, but in expression it is opposite. Perhaps it is the same object or fractal. I find it causes great density leading uncontrollable expansion. I find the concept of play, and dress up to be better teachers.

[GentleReckoning]

I think the most negative being was the One Infinite Creator.  It is all things.

But hey what's wrong with being negative? Someone's gotta be the Wolf that leads the Sheep.

Just wish they were more considerate.

You aren't totally wrong. I have been told and it resonated that I was of Lucifer. It was like a light got switched on it all made sense like the blink of an eye. Truth be told its an enigma.

Is it an extreme kindness, an act of service for part of the pure light of god to incarnate with full knowledge of the suffering/catalyst it will be creating for the greater good so others parts of self can grow?

I seem to have found a bug with myself and many others that have spent time living the Law of One. It is simply great resistance to any activity that could lead to negative catalyst. I am curious as to how this specific fear is beneficial as risk-taking is typically that which leads to greatest growth. Because when something happens that is perceived as negative the soul that knows that god answers all questions begins to ask "Why god?" and all sorts of other questions that take forever to balance. Christianity offloads this onto a perceived other self. The 'problem' then is casual acceptance of personal vice.

Or does it make the darkness even darker to know that a pure conscious light was at the source of so much pain/calamity/struggle/hell?

Well when you can only teach through death/rebirth of aspects of the soul, and you aren't honored as that which allows all true learnings, then yeah probably.

I guess again it depends on perspective. It was all light before the veil.

The soul determines the level of perceived catalyst, and the amount of confusion before the lesson is learned. Karma is straightforward. Death is the archetypal symbol of transmutation. The sickle the symbol of harvest.

[GentleReckoning]

In order to withstand such pain, the negative entity finds its seat of power in commiting an inner death, a complete numbing of the heart in order to withstand the pain, fear and fury of their existence.

Once the negative entity wakes from the deicide they've committed on themselves, they find they are still fully conscious, as consciousness never dies, except this time they have a sense of invincibility. Yet they lack the infinite pouring in of blessed energy that the heart brings.

So the negative entity experiences a type of spiritual hunger that they can only feed by taking from others, eventually learning how to enlist others into their program as well. The bitterness of this degrading dependence again feeds into the negative entities' feeling of justified anger.

In my view, the negative path is a very serious undertaking. I wouldn't wish it on anyone.

All I lose is expression. My emotional life becomes the emotional experience of a baby, and then the baby in the womb, and then the soul between lives. Greater resonance with the All-Heart, and less with the individual heart.

And at the end of the journey everything is returned, and all energy is blessed. The joys of the mind are as great as the joys of the heart are as great as the joys of the body. It is simply we all choose which path unites the three most powerfully, and then we all fight over the path.

[Louisabell]

All I lose is expression. My emotional life becomes the emotional experience of a baby, and then the baby in the womb, and then the soul between lives. Greater resonance with the All-Heart, and less with the individual heart.

And at the end of the journey everything is returned, and all energy is blessed. The joys of the mind are as great as the joys of the heart are as great as the joys of the body. It is simply we all choose which path unites the three most powerfully, and then we all fight over the path.

I don't understand what you mean here at all. What journey are you speaking of?

[GentleReckoning]

Bhodicitta. United heart, mind, and body.

The positive, and the negative is just a path to the same location.

And as for the expression part, it's just a reference to the emotional numbing necessary to live in a manner that is dissonant to the programming that the collective runs. Because the collective then attacks constantly as a part of the hive attempts to drag what it perceives as another hive member back into 'line' as it were.

(I live in one of the largest drinking towns in the USA, so the collective is a great platform for perfecting the negative/positive as it is so repressed, all I have to do is honor and express myself and I'm highly dissonant)

[Louisabell]

Bhodicitta. United heart, mind, and body.

The positive, and the negative is just a path to the same location.

And as for the expression part, it's just a reference to the emotional numbing necessary to live in a manner that is dissonant to the programming that the collective runs. Because the collective then attacks constantly as a part of the hive attempts to drag what it perceives as another hive member back into 'line' as it were.

(I live in one of the largest drinking towns in the USA, so the collective is a great platform for perfecting the negative/positive as it is so repressed, all I have to do is honor and express myself and I'm highly dissonant)

I think what I am confused about is how this type of awareness is applied to the everyday life. What acts of kindness or non-kindness happen? I don't know what it looks like on a practical level.

I only practice the LOO.

[GentleReckoning]

Primarily it is the awareness of more complete or whole ways to show and receive love. If the people in one's life do not meet one at one's highest level or good, then depression, hate, rage, bi-polar, and all other illnesses manifest as the individual's best aspects are shunned and repressed.

[GentleReckoning]

Many people don't consciously improve their ability to relate to others at all, and that's all that I've studied for a decade or so.

People will avoid learning from you because learning new ways of relating cause dissonance in all the rest of their relationships. So if the individual doesn't seek better relationships, then all attempts to improve their ability to relate will be reacted to negatively.

[Louisabell]

Many people don't consciously improve their ability to relate to others at all, and that's all that I've studied for a decade or so.

People will avoid learning from you because learning new ways of relating cause dissonance in all the rest of their relationships. So if the individual doesn't seek better relationships, then all attempts to improve their ability to relate will be reacted to negatively.

It's not that I disagree with what you're saying. It's just that I don't see where the negative pole resides in any of what you do. Not saying it's not there, I just don't see it.

[GentleReckoning]

Many people don't consciously improve their ability to relate to others at all, and that's all that I've studied for a decade or so.

People will avoid learning from you because learning new ways of relating cause dissonance in all the rest of their relationships. So if the individual doesn't seek better relationships, then all attempts to improve their ability to relate will be reacted to negatively.

It's not that I disagree with what you're saying. It's just that I don't see where the negative pole resides in any of what you do. Not saying it's not there, I just don't see it.

Societies harmonize around the amount of individuation and health that are safe. If you seek to become healthier, greater, or more individuated or fulfilled than the society is (or just for what you are projected to be) then you become negative to that society as people will avoid you, your manifestations will turn negative and on and on and on.

If you wanted to learn how to fly in 3rd density, then you would become 'negative' to the majority of the earth as that would shatter the beliefs of all causing massive amounts of catalyst for the entire planet. So even though it might be highly 'positive', as it is discordant with others it becomes negative.

The problem is that as you become negative to society, your interactions begin to create massive amounts of light/love (catalyst really) causing massive growth if you know how to balance. This further polarizes you to the negative as you quickly become more healthy emotionally, and spiritually. (eventually reflected physically internally and externally)

[flofrog]

Bhodicitta. United heart, mind, and body.

The positive, and the negative is just a path to the same location.

And as for the expression part, it's just a reference to the emotional numbing necessary to live in a manner that is dissonant to the programming that the collective runs. Because the collective then attacks constantly as a part of the hive attempts to drag what it perceives as another hive member back into 'line' as it were.

(I live in one of the largest drinking towns in the USA, so the collective is a great platform for perfecting the negative/positive as it is so repressed, all I have to do is honor and express myself and I'm highly dissonant)

GentleReckoning, this is such an interesting way to move into your life....very best wishes, and I am so glad you continue to honor and express yourself

This is, I think, shown rather similarly in Peter Weir’s wonderful second movie The Year of Living Dangerously...

[Ghostdancer17]

We would begin firstly by overvieiwing that which differentiates the Positive and Negatively Oriented Entity. For the polarities are in potentiation in Third Density, thus experiences of both positive and negative natures are available which allows the choosing of Polarity in Third Density. This choosing of the Positive Service to Others path or of the Negative Service to Self path is that choosing which is requisite for an entity to make Fourth Density Harvest. Now, the Negative Polarity or Orientation of Service to Self begins to manifest itself in the Fourth Density. Just as the Positive Polarity of Service to Others is manifest in Fourth Density. The newly arrived Fourth Density Negative is at the bottom of the pecking order or negative chain of command, the Pecking Order is absolutely vital to the power structure of the Negative Polarity. Thus the fighting for position, the use of distortions towards power over others and the manipulation of other-selves for the Polarization in Service to Self. This is inherent in the Negative Path. Thus the Negatively Polarized entity continues to polarize until achieving Fifth Density Harvest. The Fifth Density Negative is wise, for these ones are so elite that they do not interact much with those of their own Polarity. They no longer see value in other-selves. Continuing then into Negative Sixth Density. For there are very, very few of the Negative Sixth Density Orientation. The Negative Polarity at this level is extremely intense. Emanating a type of absorption. For at the very top of the Pecking Order or Negative Chain of Command is the Negative Sixth Density Social Memory Complex. This then is Orion, this is the most Negative entity, for Orion is the God of all that is Negative!

It is at around this point in Sixth Density evolution that the Negative Path or Polarity of Service to Self eventually begins to become exhausted, and the most negative entity must needs depolarize to Service to Others/Positive.

[GentleReckoning]

I have no idea what density I am anymore. I'm pretty sure your body operates at all densities simultaneously. It's just how we filter our experience that creates our conscious perception of work at various intensities of light.

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Is simply the individual which can cause the greatest change in the future. This is because when we create we pull not with just our physical body, but our emotional body, and our mental body as well. (all the way up to the top of course) If it is translatable to the physical plane, it will be.

In this way the demon hunter always becomes the greatest negative entity. The demon hunter then learns how to defeat his/her demon and becomes a paladin. When the paladin encounters paradox, then the paladin moves towards the scientist. As soon as the scientist understands social dynamics and power structures, then the scientist becomes king. And you can of course get people to call you God. This is just God's light (truth or pure masculine energy) transferring into the physical as by connecting more to your true self you create more and more of your reality to balance. As your reality increases in volume, then you learn how to tune dissonance out more and more. Eventually, you simply become totally alien to the timeline you exist in, as it is rare that teachers are not actively sought and encouraged. Instead the confusion caused by being ruled primarily by TV programming causes the projection of all your subconscious or programmed aspects can be rooted out before the true self comes out.

Once this happens, you create massive dissonance between yourself and your environment. This manifests as projecting zombie like or asleep features onto them. Garr certainly made comments alluding to this, and Don eventually projected so much paranoia (as the group became more and more impactful or negative to the local environment as vibration IS location based). Eventually you just manifest 'bad luck' and are disempowered to the extent that you become the hermit. It is at this point that the 40 days in the wilderness happens as it was called in the religion called christian.

If the individual feels supported enough by his/her environment, this can happen as a test of faith or a climb to a mountain top. For me it was fairly typical in that I simply manifested distance from all societal relationships. And then your final sins are brought before you. Mine were typical in that I wanted to be a savior. However, Jesus had warned me not to try to save people locked by seals and symbols. Instead, stick your arm under the fabric as it were, and beseech God directly.

If you ARE righteous, you will attract energy to your cause. And if you prefer love over fear, what you will create will be colored by that energy. And if you can sense cords and energies, then you will know you for you, and will be able to easily tell when you are misaligned. Men are more attuned to the physical, while women soul of course. So in times like these men will attune to soul as a feat of strength so as to learn/teach other men. Meanwhile, women, more connected to soul, willfully support greater density in their archetypal roles. This is why, of course, so many women are breaking their archetypal role in dress, demeanor, and relational perspective. This is also why so many spiritual seekers give up the physical in their search of soul as they realize at a deep level that all action does is create learning, and that there is value in simply enjoying what one is digesting in leu of excessive catalyst of any kind.

This dispels some of the confusion.

I think this is what I'm doing lately. Just enjoying what I digest instead of creating excessive catalyst. When I talked to you on the phone, I remember you saying I was creating too much catalyst for myself. I thought of it as basically taking my sorry, deeply scarred and wounded body while it was healing and putting it through a giant meat grinder only to pull myself out of said meat grinder. I remember praying that I felt I had finally had my ass whooped enough and was ready to heal from it all. Once I had gotten through my dark night of the soul (I'm either out or almost out) I learned to just enjoy and put faith in my higher self. I am CONFIDENT that a life of creation as you've mentioned is heading my way, but for right now, I have lovingly asked my ego to chill out a bit and my higher self to help me out in specific ways. I still must learn guitar, but my job right now is to find a way to relax and HAVE FUN. I think just healing from my dark night of the soul and having fun and being present is currently my task. Once I'm creating, I can fulfill the change inducing role I know I'm meant to create.

I think I may have had power/authority in a past life and abused it or something. Maybe gotten people killed. As I reflect on my irrational fears regarding playing guitar (For a bit, it took immense willpower to overcome anxiety around simple A chord, E chord and D chord transitioning and that little lead guitar line from "Born in the USA" Easy as hell, but will major fear/anxiety causing massive yellow ray and sacral blockages) I come to the conclusion that I DEEPLY fear power, which comes with responsibility. I project power/authority issues onto others and have been dealing with them my whole life (possible/probable karmic readjustment/rebalancing?) and always feared being like those people. I realize now that I cannot escape from the responsibility of having power, as I have potential and therefor, power. Just not control. So I am just as responsible at my smallest as I am at my largest. Yet I still have found myself struggling. Listened to a "past life healing" vid on YT for 2 hours. Felt better. Practiced much more comfortably. Possible placebo effect? Maybe. Possibly worked? Also maybe.

Either way, I say it's just part of the rhythmic flow of things. You go through the process and then you take a break and relax. Maybe that's why 4th density is so comfortable and slow. People are recovering from 3rd density and need to just take it easy for a bit.

As for putting your hand under the veil and beseeching God directly...

I've been focusing heavily on manifestation practices lately and I've been pretty ambitious. I, in a moment of joy and intense visualization, envisioned many things to come for humanity, mentally pulling myself into the timeline where humanity develops a theme of inspiration as service: Inspiring each other, ourselves and all around us into infinity. I also worked on manifesting a reality wherein people take better care of their planet, treat animals better, come into their own creatively, and make the world physically beautiful (According, admittedly to MY preferences) And where people start leading each other and taking responsibility for their own power. Yet another reason why I must learn this lesson myself first, so I can help get the ball rolling.

And so I wonder... is this more along the lines of what Jesus/Sananda meant when talking about beseeching God directly? I was inspired by a video on YT where Sandanda's channeled message said we can affect great change by practices such as these that are visible as light from the etheric perspective and we are VERY MUCH being witnessed the universe as we do so. So is this more what it looks like?

Or am I misunderstanding?