wishing for a mate

[the light fairy]

For several years I have been wondering. In university they sent me to be tested. After 28 hours of the barrage of psychological tests, it was found that I was different. I barely passed the standard IQ tests, but exceeding on the ones that did not have language. Every other test results were superior. What were they to tell the university?
I wrote an essay for a psych class about "The Knowing One". It was a good essay, grammatically correct and well written, however; made no sense. Well, it made no sense to the one reading it, but to me, it was part of the awakening to who I am. My name is Eileen, which means bringer of light and my middle name is Fay, which means fae or knowing one or fairy. I am the light fairy. For some reason I feel very connected to fairy tales and fairies. Perhaps my planet is that way. I also feel part of the ancient North American Indian culture, though I have no Indian or first nations blood or friends of such.
Like every wanderer, I simply did not fit. It is nice to be artistically gifted and musically talented. Basically I have been able to do whatever I desired with little effort, but the hard thing was connecting with my peers. Children and the elderly absolutely adore me, as do animals. People are afraid of me. I have read some of the wanderer connections here and that comes up again and again .
Currently I am on respite, hiding out in a motorhome in a shop in the middle of nowhere, seeing no one. I go to church to raise the vibrations there and have been asked to spread my light by helping in various ways. I will. I have farm animals to care for though and that takes 5 or so hours a day.
That which I desire most is a mate.
I know I am not alone and am awakened now to my purpose. It is lonely though.
Eileen Fay , the light fairy.

[turtledude23]

I understand how you feel, except I'm sort of the other way around, I'm good with language but not good at music, drawing, etc. even though I wish I was. You're not alone even if it feels that way, there's millions of people in the world feeling what we feel. But just by being ourselves we're helping the world. So keep being you

[Meerie]

Welcome Eileen! What a beautiful name you chose for yourself in this incarnation... and yes I agree, you are not alone even if it feels that way.
The forum is a loving place with like-minded people. Enjoy!

[Ali Quadir]

Welcome Eileen... You don't sound that messed up in your language skills Maybe you just think in images and movements instead of concepts.

Is good to have you here, loneliness has been part of the psychology of many of us wanderers. Me included. And that sucks. So come sit at the fires.

Also maybe this topic helps. You're not alone.

[Aaron]

Hi, Eileen! I'm glad you're a part of bringing light to this planet, and I hope you find a little bit of home here.

[Brittany]

Hello, light fairy. Your words seem very clear and well structured to me. Indeed it can be hard being different, but at least we have each other on this wonderful site! Welcome to the family!

[@ndy]

Welcome, your not alone...... or scary. xxxx

[seejay21]

I would love to see your essay! Thanks for sharing your fairytale. I know it will have a happy ending.

[norral]

welcome light fairy. your story is similar to many of us as we just dont
seem to fit in here. i also prefer to spend time with children and animals,
they're much less complicated than adults are.
i want to share a couple of mantras with you that will help you to find
the right mate . the first is

om gum ganapatayei namaha

this mantra removes obstacles in our path to achieving our goals.

the second is

sat patim dehi parameshwara

this attracts to you a man of truth with positive masculine attributes.

fairy we are happy to have you here to add your light to our group

norral

[B61zz13]

You will find a mate in time, Eileen. Patience will make it happen. Love and light!

[kanonathena]

I suggest you do some meditation, a good way to reinforce your sense of purpose, good luck with finding a mate. I also desire to have someone that can truly understand me, but have a look around, there are plenty of loving people!

[Peregrinus]

Welcome dear sister. It brings me joy to see you have found your way back to us, as each of of here has done before you. Know that all that has happened has been for reasons, reasons you chose prior to entering into this incarnate state. All is perfect. The question is, what will you do with perfection?

[Marina2]

Dear Eileen,
May you find what you seek. It sounds like you are in a good place with animals around you. Good luck!

[dolphin]

For several years I have been wondering. In university they sent me to be tested. After 28 hours of the barrage of psychological tests, it was found that I was different. I barely passed the standard IQ tests, but exceeding on the ones that did not have language. Every other test results were superior. What were they to tell the university?
I wrote an essay for a psych class about "The Knowing One". It was a good essay, grammatically correct and well written, however; made no sense. Well, it made no sense to the one reading it, but to me, it was part of the awakening to who I am. My name is Eileen, which means bringer of light and my middle name is Fay, which means fae or knowing one or fairy. I am the light fairy. For some reason I feel very connected to fairy tales and fairies. Perhaps my planet is that way. I also feel part of the ancient North American Indian culture, though I have no Indian or first nations blood or friends of such.
Like every wanderer, I simply did not fit. It is nice to be artistically gifted and musically talented. Basically I have been able to do whatever I desired with little effort, but the hard thing was connecting with my peers. Children and the elderly absolutely adore me, as do animals. People are afraid of me. I have read some of the wanderer connections here and that comes up again and again .
Currently I am on respite, hiding out in a motorhome in a shop in the middle of nowhere, seeing no one. I go to church to raise the vibrations there and have been asked to spread my light by helping in various ways. I will. I have farm animals to care for though and that takes 5 or so hours a day.
That which I desire most is a mate.
I know I am not alone and am awakened now to my purpose. It is lonely though.
Eileen Fay , the light fairy.

Have you considered dating a dolphin?
http://www.bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=1190

[kycahi]

These forums are a great place to express this of yourself, and we are evolved() enough not to thrust solutions at you.

I only offer some of what I heard a few times already, to like seekers. Instead of thinking of new acquaintances as pieces of fruit, to be examined for spots and then put back, think of each one as a contributor to your knowledge base. Have a long conversation or two with each, being a good listener and not declaring yourself as a seeker, but just somebody who likes to be helpful.

After each of these conversations, note your first impression and compare it with the one you take afterward. Probably most times you will realize that you picked up some good unintended "advice," though they probably didn't realize they were sharing any. You might even find a truly hidden treasure.

Very best of luck to you from
Lee