Spiritual and Masturbation

[AnthroHeart]

Is it true that masturbation impedes spiritual progress?

And that no spiritual master or guru masturbates?

I feel like when I do that that I'm giving into fantasies.

Or do some use the masturbation to build energy and work with that energy?

What about masturbating for pleasure, does that somehow dampen your spirituality?

Does it go against a discipline of the personality?

[Aion]

No, no, yes, no, no.

However, it is mostly neutral in my eyes, so in general it doesn't really aid progress either for the most part. I think for some it could even be part of the path to self-love and acceptance. I don't really think there is any universal rule for it. It is another case of the Creator interacting with the Creator.

[rva_jeremy]

So I'm just gonna share some thoughts with you, because this is something I've thought on as well. Discard freely.

I've recently thought that the sensation of feeling "horny" might be handled in a similar manner as Confederation sources say we should treat any desire. That is, to just look at it squarely without judgment, viewing it as a neutral fact rather than some driver to action. If we feel compelled to respond to a sensation with some action that is taken to relieve it, then we're in a pickle. If we can abide the sensation that causes us discomfort, if we can look at it, and size it up, and get the sense of it as a totality and perhaps far more than its incidental expression in our lives, and ultimately accept it, then we have more options. We even have the chance to understand the sensation itself as an energy event, and in that light it isn't such a horrible feeling. There's a lot of power in that energy, and it's worth understanding it as something other than a mere form of pressure buildup!

I don't think masturbation is "wrong" in any way, but I do think it can be a waste of red ray energy that could be channeled up further. Additionally, the imaginative aspect has the potential to lead to some pretty powerful thoughts that may get away from us and influence future patterns of thought. Again: these aren't bad things in an of themselves, like at all. But I think sometimes folks tend to have a lot of judgment of themselves on matters like this which energizes them as potent catalyst.

[anagogy]

It reduces your red ray, vitality energy, for a time.  But that doesn't really mean anything, because somebody might have an overabundance of red ray energy they need to discharge.  So really it could be detrimental or completely benign.  Depends on you as an individual.  If somebody were drained of energy and depressed, I would recommend to them to stop for a time, in order to more quickly charge up their vital energies.  If somebody had too much energy and could never calm down, I would recommend the opposite.  

Like everything in life, it is about balance.  And the center point on that see saw is how you feel about anything you do in life.  Just do those things that lean in the direction of emotional well being.  You'll find most "spiritual progression" boils down to the emotional journey.  The tangible journey is just the dressing on the side for the most part.  Its relevance is only insofar as it compliments the main course.  

I think you'll find though with many advanced spiritual individuals that they are sublimating those red ray sexual urges up to higher energy centers.  Not that there is anything wrong with the act or in releasing it at the lower energy centers, but it can be used to potentiate higher energies.  What we call libido or sexual energy might be better thought of as prana itself, or creative energy, and it can be sublimated to higher energy centers in a way that is just as satisfying as the lower ones.  But that process is one that takes some time to learn.

[AnthroHeart]

Because I get some twisted thinking that's pretty hot to me. But would I do it in real life, probably not. But some fantasies I surely would.

How does one take their red ray energy and move it upward making better use of it?

[Glow]

Wouldn't it only effects men's red/orange Ray?

Isn't that the transfer, male polarity contributes energy female polarity inspiration?

I wouldn't worry about it personally, if it is an indulgence into a fantasy that shuts down your green ray that might need to be considered. Then again that could be catalyst.

[AnthroHeart]

Wouldn't it only effects men's red/orange Ray?

Isn't that the transfer, male polarity contributes energy female polarity inspiration?

I wouldn't worry about it personally, if it is an indulgence into a fantasy that shuts down your green ray that might need to be considered. Then again that could be catalyst.

No, my green ray is going strongly during this.

[Glow]

Wouldn't it only effects men's red/orange Ray?

Isn't that the transfer, male polarity contributes energy female polarity inspiration?

I wouldn't worry about it personally, if it is an indulgence into a fantasy that shuts down your green ray that might need to be considered. Then again that could be catalyst.

No, my green ray is going strongly during this.

How could it be green Ray if your fantasy is dominating others? Your heart may be working but that isn't the same as the heart chakra. Maybe you are talking about other fantasies perhaps?

I don't mean that in a judgemental way, just clarifying the different between green Ray, and others. I'd think domination fantasy would be yellow Ray. But I'm only going off what you've said you visualize in other threads.

[AnthroHeart]

No, sometimes my fantasy is being dominated, not dominating others. But I realize that is still lack of green ray.

Mostly I fantasize about stuff we're both into.

[Glow]

No, sometimes my fantasy is being dominated, not dominating others. But I realize that is still lack of green ray.

Mostly I fantasize about stuff we're both into.

To be honest I have no idea how the being dominated ones would work Ray wise. I guess it would depend on your motivation for the experience, is it as service as in love so green Ray or unworthiness/self subjectation that might mean a blockage of green and yellow Ray.

its confusing to figure out but I wouldn't worry about masterbation in general

[AnthroHeart]

I think if we like to be dominated, and the partner likes dominating, it can be beneficial for both. But I'm not like that with any humans. Just fantasy. And no rape or anything like that.

[anon_guy24526]

"Ra: I am Ra. It is partially possible, given the background we have laid. This is properly a more advanced question. Due to the specificity of the question we may give general answer.

The first energy transfer is red ray. It is a random transfer having to do only with your reproductive system.

The orange- and the yellow-ray attempts to have sexual intercourse create, firstly, a blockage if only one entity vibrates in this area, thus causing the entity vibrating sexually in this area to have a never-ending appetite for this activity. What these vibratory levels are seeking is green-ray activity. There is the possibility of orange- or yellow-ray energy transfer; this being polarizing towards the negative: one being seen as object rather than other-self; the other seeing itself as plunderer or master of the situation. "

This is from session 26, answer for question 38

[Nau7ik]

Indigo I know what you mean. I've had similar fantasies. I wouldn't judge yourself.

It is simply apart of learning, than can be known and understood and I think more balanced. It's difficult to speak about because I go by feeling and intuition.

I don't deny or ignore fantasy, but let them be expressed and known. And, the unwholesome fantasies will fall away as light is shined on them. This is what I've discovered so far.

We end up judging ourselves and thinking "this is bad, I can't be the spiritual person I want to be."
But we are also human males. So it's not a matter of being less spiritual, it's a matter of being human.

Ask "what is my lesson here, what I am seeking to learn about myself?" During meditation, and see if an answer comes to you. I've been doing this because there is a confusing cyclical theme that is recurring and each time it comes around (a certain characteristic of sexuality that is apart of my dark side) I learn a little bit more.

One last thing, masturbation could even simply be by habit. We are creatures of habit, so if this is the case pay attention to what you really feel. Because there are times when I habitually feel like masturbating but then I realize that I don't really want to.

I've said a lot, lol. But this is a question I've asked myself and sought understanding.

[GentleReckoning]

No, sometimes my fantasy is being dominated, not dominating others. But I realize that is still lack of green ray.

Mostly I fantasize about stuff we're both into.

To be honest I have no idea how the being dominated ones would work Ray wise. I guess it would depend on your motivation for the experience, is it as service as in love so green Ray or unworthiness/self subjectation that might mean a blockage of green and yellow Ray.

its confusing to figure out but I wouldn't worry about masterbation in general

Yellow ray desire to be controlled by others/desire to control others. Doesn't in and of itself doesn't interfere with the green ray.

[WanderingOZ]

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Is it true that masturbation impedes spiritual progress?

I tkink you's are putting to much thought into it. As male you have a biological need to masturbate. If u don't your going to end up with stained jammies. As long as you don't get caught up in nasty thought thought forms I suggest you take matters in hand and enjoy.

WanderingOZ

[anagogy]

Yellow ray desire to be controlled by others/desire to control others. Doesn't in and of itself doesn't interfere with the green ray.

32.14 Questioner: I just meant was it possible, say, for a green-ray… when we’re talking about green-ray activation and energy transfers, is it possible for a green-ray person who is primarily green-ray activation to vary on both sides of green ray a large or a small amount in energy activation, or does he stay primarily green-ray?

Ra: I am Ra. We grasp the newness of material requested by you. It was unclear, for we thought we had covered this material. The portion covered is this: the green-ray activation is always vulnerable to the yellow or orange ray of possession, this being largely yellow ray but often coming into orange ray. Fear of possession, desire for possession, fear of being possessed, desire to be possessed: these are the distortions which will cause the deactivation of green-ray energy transfer.

You can substitute "control" for "possession" in the above, because that is all possession is.

[AnthroHeart]

I want to get closer to Logos, even to go where Logos is.
So I tell my self not to masturbate because that will make my body feel week and unable to channel much energy.
Plus the cartoon porn I look at, and sometimes real porn, is not natural.
At least not natural according to the majority of society.
And I'm sensitive. I don't want to put holes in my aura or pick up on negative entities.

It's sometimes a hard decision to make.

[Cyclops]

G: Final one from me, Q’uo. This question comes from a “friend.” This “friend” wants to know if the activity known as masturbation expends vital energy that would otherwise be available for higher charka activity?

There are two answers to this query, for there are two levels of masturbation. The physical body of your species is naturally sexual and has a natural capacity for sexuality. If an entity does not masturbate, when the period of time has come in which sexual energy has been built up to the point where there is a need for release, masturbation will take place without any help; it will occur as a night dream or something of that nature. So, on that level, masturbating when there is a build-up of sexual energy and no appropriate outlet with another partner has little impact upon the amount of energy or essence of self that is preserved for metaphysical work.

However, there is a legitimate point to be made in terms of the dedication of the self to spiritual seeking in that there is a magical aspect which can be accessed by the seeker who wishes to dedicate the energy that would otherwise be used in sexual release to the winding of the coil, shall we say.

However, it is equally true that sex itself may be used, whether in masturbation or sexual congress with another, to express positive polarity and the worship of the one infinite Creator. The mind is preeminent in this matter. Depending upon how a seeker feels about his sexuality, he may find it more skilful to work with refraining from sexual expression in terms of how he personally is impacted by the experience of reserving his sexual energy for winding of the magical coil. Or, depending upon the entity and his personality and the way he feels about his body, he may find that it is more helpful to create a spiritually-dedicated masturbation in which the object is to experience that orgasm which is the steady state of the one infinite Creator, that inexpressible and inutterable intensity of unconditional love that is the ecstasy at the heart of the experience of orgasm.

The body is the creature of the mind. We would encourage your friend not to focus upon sex until he has focused upon who he is, how he expresses his essence, how he feels is the most resonant way to manage his humanity in the sense of his red-ray sexuality.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

I want to get closer to Logos, even to go where Logos is.
So I tell my self not to masturbate because that will make my body feel week and unable to channel much energy.
Plus the cartoon porn I look at, and sometimes real porn, is not natural.
At least not natural according to the majority of society.
And I'm sensitive. I don't want to put holes in my aura or pick up on negative entities.

It's sometimes a hard decision to make.

I actually think I can be of help here!
Firstly, releasing the bonds that others thinking has over you is a natural progression of one attempting to polarize, so for you to be concerned with what the majority of society thinks can tell you that you need to exercise the opposite, a lack of concern for what society thinks.  At least, you should do so within the context of not letting others damage your view of yourself, more so than becoming apathetic of others opinions.

I personally masturbate too much, but in doing so I have no loss of vital energy or physical energy, hell, I used to use serial masturbation as a form of staying awake, after doing it three times it's like you wake up the mind enough to wake up the body for a while.  However, in my years of disgusting kinky porn watching, I've never felt any loss of spiritual energies.  I can say there were times were once I was done I looked at what I was looking at from a sober non-horny mind and went 'wHAT DA FU-- did I just EVEN!@', most notably was when I stumbled upon the more brutal porn films and found the roughness of it all very hot.

I think it's also important to keep the advice Ra gave when working with catalyst, whether it be of violent thoughts or erotic ones, it is okay to explore these things within the mind, and even more appropriate to keep some things to the confines of the mind.
Examples: Rape, Murder, Theft
You get the idea, it's okay to think something, it's even more okay, albeit, COMPLETELY HUMAN (which is partly why you're here) to find new things exciting and arousing and 'Hot'.  I like saying that word.  Hot. lol.

I think you should enjoy your porn, and just try not to overindulge in it as it can in excess be similar to a psych operation attempting to rewire the ways you experience reality.  Most porn turns women into sexual objects, which can interfere in men's ability to socialize with a woman without bringing sexual energies into the mix.  So try to use your imagination now and then instead of doing the easy thing and looking up porn.

ALSO, masturbation is somewhat excluded from the causes of polarizing events as it is once discovered by the body, a natural form of coping.
This is seen in young children who are abused, they often begin masturbating earlier than is usually common, I myself only know this because I began masturbating when I was around 7 years old, got caught, and subsequently had a psychiatrist tell my mother it was a sign of mental distress, which was blamed on her, which she lashed out on me for.
However, I still do it, fairly often too since I'm a pretty lonely person.

Do you have any questions? Cause like, you shouldn't be overly concerned at finding something in a fantasy setting hot. It's not like you're going to go emulate everything you see, otherwise we'd all be blowing ourselves up looneytoons style and shooting the crap out of each other GTA/first-person-shooter-games style.

[GentleWanderer]

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[AnthroHeart]

Well I'm not attracted to women at all. My mom's negativity through my life has ruined that for me.

And when I read interesting things on this site and get excited, I don't feel sexual at all.

I don't recall ever really being excited about watching videos of sex, but I did find them interesting and arousing.

But I'm not into traditional sex, even between 2 men. It's pretty perverse, although I'm not into violent stuff.

[Infinite]

Is it true that masturbation impedes spiritual progress?

Is a very relative question. Depends of your concept of  "spiritual progress".

And that no spiritual master or guru masturbates?

Yes. A master or guru must have total control of yourself and transcended the sexual desire.

I feel like when I do that that I'm giving into fantasies.

Depends of the fantasy intensity . It's possible projects to the "target" (if you desire someone real).

Or do some use the masturbation to build energy and work with that energy?

It's the other way around. The objective is to accumulate the sexual energy to work with it.

What about masturbating for pleasure, does that somehow dampen your spirituality?

Like I answered in top.

Does it go against a discipline of the personality?

It's a normal habit in a population that suffer a lot of influence in the sexual center. The energy must be discharged.

Peace, love and light.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Well I'm not attracted to women at all. My mom's negativity through my life has ruined that for me.

And when I read interesting things on this site and get excited, I don't feel sexual at all.

I don't recall ever really being excited about watching videos of sex, but I did find them interesting and arousing.

But I'm not into traditional sex, even between 2 men. It's pretty perverse, although I'm not into violent stuff.

Don't fret friend, I'm into weird stuff like tentacle mind-break vore stuff, hypnosis porn, transgender 'shemale' and 'sissy' stuff.
I personally find women attractive but find almost all of them to be in one way or another unappealing personality wise.
I also cannot highly respect women who tease men vehemently anymore, as I find it messed up to wave something someone want's in front of their face then to keep them from it.

We all have our sexual oddities, it's just a part of the distortions of the indigo's interactions with the sexual energies of the lower three chakras, red, orange, and yellow.
For instance, I find it stupidly arousing to strap a woman down and make her orgasm until she's falling in and out of consciousness, at no point is sex even required, I could sit there with a vibrator and a stupidly big grin on my face for hours.
I even devised a method for enacting on a best friend her tentacle fetish by using rubber hosing, polyester fabric, and a lot of lube.

Truly mister Gemini, if you find your own sexual fantasy preferences questionable, then that's a green ray distortion asking you to explore the darker part of your psyche to understand why you like that stuff.

I'll provide myself as an example:

Regards my fascination with the tentacle genre, it's been apparently a very popular fad in the East enough so that a westerner visitor was 'infected' so-to-speak by the eroticism that came with the sight of something with many limbs caressing and fondling the female form in sexual ways.
I personally theorized that this sexual desire was born of originally a sts sexual energy configuration of being overpowered and rendered helpless by an entity with a greater evolutionary advantage over the body, and has since been transformed into the whole spectrum of energies from 'consentacles' to tentacle rape to a mixture.

The overall underlying desire for finding such a genre 'Hot' is a simple psychological desire to be dominated, without the negative effects of being enslaved.  Though some people do want that, exceptions always exist.

As for why the additionals of the genre, vore, and mind-break come into play, I've realized that I have a strong desire to not only overwhelm someone with pleasure, but to completely envelope them in it to the point they can't think straight or resist, hence the mind-break.  As for the vore, apparently that genre, as does furries, has a VERY LARGE group of people that find it erotic, from men wanting to become the food and be eaten to women wanting to become the sustenance for another.

I think the energies associated behind the cause of the vore erotica is a mixture of memories from 2D vegetation states filtering up into the 3D red ray providing it with a memory of the yearning and pleasure of being consumed, as well as a psychological 3D desire to, once more, be dominated or made helpless in some manner.  If not that last part, then it's a distortion of the yellow-ray juxtapositioning over red-ray desires the identity of food onto the yellow-ray identity, making someone yearn to be the food.
This is strictly similar to men who want to be a woman purely out of sexual curiosity and yearning, their identity is being juxtapositioned over their true identity, they're effectively attempting to bring fantasy a step closer to reality.

You will find in sexuality that the mannerisms of Control and Acceptance are somewhat more clearly defined, many perversions can be linked to parental abuse or maltreatment, my mother treated me more like an employee who's only purpose was to do what she said or get my teeth bashed out of my mouth.  That's somewhat warped my sexual desire towards the desire to dominate women in lieu of responding to the helplessless that was ingrained in me at a young age by a maternal figure.

There's a core to your perversions, if you wish to call them such.  As long as you're not going out forcing yourself on anything, I don't see anything wrong with you entertaining fantasies and sexual desires not attainable in the 3D realm.  You're not sexually assaulting benches or trees or dogs or other people.  Like, even if you were having sexual intercourse with an animal, as long as you're not clearly hurting it, I could care less.  Same goes for if you love your car sexually, or love a pillow or the edge of a table.

Human sexuality has used everything from polished wood to snakes to intestines to animals and inanimate objects to express pleasure.  The fact you're not going out and harming anything is means alone to stop judging yourself so harshly.

I mean, Gemini, there are people in the world who cannot become aroused by anything except young girls or boys, others in the world can't pop an erection without seeing a girl pop a balloon by sitting and bouncing on it.  Others get off expressly to clowns.

Please be a bit more gentle on yourself.  You're not hurting anyone with your sexual desires, well, not anyone but yourself if they disturb you.

Would you or anyone else be willing to share what all specifically it is you all find attractive?  I've pretty much shared my big weird three lol.

[AnthroHeart]

Would you or anyone else be willing to share what all specifically it is you all find attractive?  I've pretty much shared my big weird three lol.

I've never said this before, but my big thing is anthro scat porn that's cartoony. I don't like young people, but I like young looking anthros. But the scat porn is always with adult anthros for the most part. I've never understood the psychological reasons why. I think it's a form of humiliation. Because I'm very submissive to thoughts of anthros. Like this one. I'm not the only one though, and I've done a very graphic RP with someone else with the same fetish.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Doesn't it feel a little better to get that off your chest?

I've found that scat and urine porn typically have to do with extreme ranges of domination but go even further into psychological needs not being met at a young age.  My ex was into diaper and scat play so it's nothing new to me, and I don't judge you for having those desires the same way I don't judge her.

I'm just glad you can be honest about it, that's truly a first step to discovering why you've these desires.

I find scat porn is usually a sign of bad experiences at a very young age with the experiences of feces and urine, but honestly there's some people who, as you said, find the humiliation aspect of it the be the biggest pull towards it.
Similar to this, many crossdressing men who go by the label 'sissy' find the humiliation of being emasculated the primary draw to such fetish.

I personally just want to have sex without needing to worry about pregnancy, and since I prefer feminine qualities, I find the sissy fetish hot.  Not so much being one, but being with one.  Too bad I'm too shy to go find a random person online to hook up with haha

Gemini, remember to hold a bit of forgiveness towards yourself and your thoughts towards your desires that you find disturbing.
It's all to serve a purpose.

I'm also happy to know I'm not the only one who has particularly intense RP's (sometimes better than sex) with some fetishes.  Just wish it wasn't so hard to find people to RP with lol.

[Mahakali]

Yes, it can be bad for your spiritual progress, depending upon a few factors.

Orgasm causes a discharge of energy, so if you're fapping constantly and discharging it into fantasies, you won't be building up as much prana in your energy body.

Stopping fapping for a month or two can help tremendously with building up energy... and, anyways, think about the first orgasm you ever had, after not fapping for 10 or 12 years. The amount of energy you released and experienced.

you can do what you want, but to stop fapping for an extended period of time as an experiment is something I'd highly recommend.

[Nau7ik]

Someone asked about masturbation in a Q'uo channeling. He seemed to be a highly spiritual seeking, imo. Q'uo noted the male body and energy as being one factor. I don't remember the rest.

Q'uo did talk about sacred sexuality with a partner, and also the solitary dedication of the sexual energy, the orgasm to the infinite creator. I'm not sure how this works, dedicating the moment of orgasm to the infinite one. I'll have to try and find the channeling again.
But if anyone knows more on this please, share it!

[AnthroHeart]

Yes, it can be bad for your spiritual progress, depending upon a few factors.

Orgasm causes a discharge of energy, so if you're fapping constantly and discharging it into fantasies, you won't be building up as much prana in your energy body.

Stopping fapping for a month or two can help tremendously with building up energy... and, anyways, think about the first orgasm you ever had, after not fapping for 10 or 12 years. The amount of energy you released and experienced.

you can do what you want, but to stop fapping for an extended period of time as an experiment is something I'd highly recommend.

If I build up too much energy I get into psych breakdowns. It triggers my schizophrenia, and I get nightmares.

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Yes, it can be bad for your spiritual progress, depending upon a few factors.

Orgasm causes a discharge of energy, so if you're fapping constantly and discharging it into fantasies, you won't be building up as much prana in your energy body.

Stopping fapping for a month or two can help tremendously with building up energy... and, anyways, think about the first orgasm you ever had, after not fapping for 10 or 12 years. The amount of energy you released and experienced.

you can do what you want, but to stop fapping for an extended period of time as an experiment is something I'd highly recommend.

If I build up too much energy I get into psych breakdowns. It triggers my schizophrenia, and I get nightmares.

Mahakali, in general I'd agree that a period of abstaining from masturbation can lead to mental clarity and may even build up vital energies, but Gemini beat me to it in saying that for him it's not exactly the best idea.

You see, masturbation is not just an occurrence, it is a habit, in some instances this habit is addictive and stopping cold turkey will incite withdrawel like symptoms, for me personally I experience in the first week a mental calm, but this is then subjugated in the second week to great emotional turmoil, mainly, an excess of energy.   This excess isn't healthy, hence why for some people masturbation is not only appropriate but necessary.

In general we may look and see that every creation has within it the nature of uniqueness.  I personally have an excess of red ray energy at different periods across a year, and at others times have a lack of red ray energy.  I currently am in a lacking-phase, a result is my desire to masturbate is diminished, I really only do so right when I wake up recently, and find the energies of arousal are a bit distant from me.  Compare this to October last year, 7 times a day every day until the orgasms were weak and almost not worth the effort put in to achieve them.

Though that's me, others are less...Turbulent in their energies.

I think abstaining for a day, then two, then three, and going like that and feeling out what is the best balance of holding onto energy versus discharging it is helpful, but overall I have one suggestion for any orgasm.

Don't just experience it, become one with it.

I think energetic properties-wise we can look at masturbation via male to be more common due to the manner of the southpole of the entity having a means of ejaculation built in, the propelling of physical substance is matching the propelling of energetic substance.  To propel by hand rather than another is still giving to the energy surrounding you.  In my experience, orgasms have the energetic pattern colors of gold and violet, an overall healing energy that despite disbursing into the immediate area, can still cleanse it somewhat, if not make the environment being masturbated in become more homey feeling.

On the flip-side is the female southpole that while having the same ability to ejaculate if specific stimuli are met with the physical and mental/emotional energies of the body complex, seems more inclined to the general pulsations during orgasm designed to direct incoming energy.  This is actually mimicked in a scientific study that found the female orgasm serves to direct sperm towards the Fallopian tubes and hence the egg for fertilization means.  This action of female orgasm pulsations are akin to the opposite of propelling, to pulling in, and can be seen to be a function of the southpole attempting to meet an external energy by becoming one with it by pulling it into itself.

Sex and masturbation in general are much more directly tied with metaphysical energies, and is actually much easier to explore than most other energies in that it remains mostly pure regardless of how it is handled.  Even in yellow-ray and orange-ray imbuements of the red-ray sexual desire through such kinks and fetishes like bdsm or roleplay, the overall sexual energy being played with remains as it is.  A build up then release isn't a proper view of an orgasm.  It's more an accumulation of energy, thought, and emotion blending into an expression of the pleasure and love given by Creator moment-by-moment being channeled into the physical body, then through it, then outwards from it back into the environment or into another or unto another.

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I might have spent a bit too much time looking into these things.  Sexual meditations, and masturbation meditations are very interesting, I do suggest if anyone is interested in learning more about the nature of the sexual energy, to meditate in a state of arousal and persisting that aroused state across the meditation rather than letting it dissipate.  Or, if you really want the challenge, to meditate while masturbating, though the masturbation isn't being done to achieve orgasm in this instance, rather it should be done to begin the movements of the sexual energies to be inwardly observed.  In the euphoric haze of high arousal, you might even begin to feel the microscopic movements of energy through the feet up to the red ray.

In my experience, feeling the energy running up through the feet was more orgasmic than orgasms themselves, as it curls along the inner arch of the foot and causes a rippling physical sensation that can travel up over the ankle into the lower calf where it dissipated into warmth, try not to lose yourself to the pleasure, I personally cannot track the energy up beyond the knee as by that point the intensity of meditation needed to remain aware is beyond my reach.

I do not know why tracking the incoming energy up the feet is harder than tracking it from the red ray upwards through the chakras.  It makes me wonder if right beneath the red-ray is a metaphysical singularity sucking in similar to the spiraling singularity of the violet ray propelling energy from the m/b/s complex back into the universe to incite further responses.  If that red-ray singularity is true, then moving upwards from the feet into it should be easy, unless the singularity only takes in what is needed, then maybe my inability to go all the way is a sign of something.

Sexually speaking though I'm a bit experimental, so maybe I've twisted some energies that might need to be smoothed out.

Wish I had another to explore sexual energies with, but when you're a strange person...  Tis can be a bit hard to manifest haha

I wonder why masturbation is seen by some to be a bad thing.  I personally find it to be more natural than some of the sociological things our society calls 'natural'.

Like, for instance, did you know EVERYONE is actively practicing abstinence.  It's true, when's the last time you had sex with an unattractive person?  A lot of people practice abstinence against unattractive people.  Similarly, everyone is a slut (...Sadly I feel that word is going to insult some female viewers, which is really sad because the term applies equally, if not more so, to men.)

We're all always embodying the dichotomy of celibate/free-giving sexual energies.  Masturbation is just a tool in working within that spectrum, whether or not it is wrong or right is a basis by basis deal.  I personally find that man and woman are far more similar than dissimilar especially in the sexuality genre.

...All this talk about sexual energy makes me want to do a sexual meditation tonight.

[Mahakali]

If I build up too much energy I get into psych breakdowns. It triggers my schizophrenia, and I get nightmares.

So transcend them. That implies an underlying energetic distortion deep within your subconscious that needs dealing with. Go into your nightmares and beat whatever they're about.

refusing to build up energy will just ensure that those subconscious distortions remain problematic and manifest at the worst possible time.

It's like saying you'll never turn on the power to your computer because you don't like the wallpaper that comes up. Change it; you'll be much happier with a computer.