05-13-2016, 11:40 AM
Greetings All,
I appear to be new to the forum and to the Ra material as well. I'm not really into carrying around baggage so Ill spare you "my story" for the most part. One thing that I do need to get across, for the sake of communication, is that Ive been a seeker for a while now and the search has taken me many places (in the mind) in which I had never intended to go while on the search for "truth." Ive always just wanted to know what is true. Long story short, having emerged from entertaining a variety of beliefs and philosophies, the most useful tool Ive found in cutting through the excess, is to dismiss all that is not. The process was extensive and resulted in a long and painful unraveling of the story in which "I" continue to fabricate. The result appears to be a rather simple. I am this... That's it.
Now I must say that what Ive experienced was sold as "spirituality" and from what I could tell, is still selling very well. However, truth has nothing to do with spirituality in this regard. Spirituality, as a concept is a wonderful thing but, what and where exactly is it? If I cant locate it how do I know that Im not just seducing myself with more and more fantastic mind f*** material?
I need to back up here and explain that I am not judging, criticizing, or condemning anything. Rather explaining my conundrum in entertaining what I actually feel is really quite vital to my evolution. I feel and have felt for some time now that what I could really benefit from is a better way of living, which appears to be at the heart of the Law of One, rather than a method of dis-identification dissolution. I am constantly battling maya although in this regard it seems that she has something to offer of actual value. The concept of Love. I just have to learn to accept it and let my heart open up a bit.
So I am asking for help with this if anyone has dealt with this themselves. Specifically in regard to the chakras. Im reading Carlas book the 101. She goes into great detail about how to balance each ray. My mind says that all of "my chakras" are balanced, that is, until I start reading about how they are unbalanced and how to go about balancing them. f***! Another concept is this service to self/service to other? What others? Help!
I just cant seem to let the mind expand like it used to. Maybe a byproduct of hacking through bullshit for the last (insert digits).
I want to expand in love. I can feel the heart of Carla pouring through those pages and it is AMAZING. What a wonderful being! I want to get closer to that.
I dont know. <--- (thats the most honest Ive ever been in my life). Thanks in advance for any and all input
I appear to be new to the forum and to the Ra material as well. I'm not really into carrying around baggage so Ill spare you "my story" for the most part. One thing that I do need to get across, for the sake of communication, is that Ive been a seeker for a while now and the search has taken me many places (in the mind) in which I had never intended to go while on the search for "truth." Ive always just wanted to know what is true. Long story short, having emerged from entertaining a variety of beliefs and philosophies, the most useful tool Ive found in cutting through the excess, is to dismiss all that is not. The process was extensive and resulted in a long and painful unraveling of the story in which "I" continue to fabricate. The result appears to be a rather simple. I am this... That's it.
Now I must say that what Ive experienced was sold as "spirituality" and from what I could tell, is still selling very well. However, truth has nothing to do with spirituality in this regard. Spirituality, as a concept is a wonderful thing but, what and where exactly is it? If I cant locate it how do I know that Im not just seducing myself with more and more fantastic mind f*** material?
I need to back up here and explain that I am not judging, criticizing, or condemning anything. Rather explaining my conundrum in entertaining what I actually feel is really quite vital to my evolution. I feel and have felt for some time now that what I could really benefit from is a better way of living, which appears to be at the heart of the Law of One, rather than a method of dis-identification dissolution. I am constantly battling maya although in this regard it seems that she has something to offer of actual value. The concept of Love. I just have to learn to accept it and let my heart open up a bit.
So I am asking for help with this if anyone has dealt with this themselves. Specifically in regard to the chakras. Im reading Carlas book the 101. She goes into great detail about how to balance each ray. My mind says that all of "my chakras" are balanced, that is, until I start reading about how they are unbalanced and how to go about balancing them. f***! Another concept is this service to self/service to other? What others? Help!
I just cant seem to let the mind expand like it used to. Maybe a byproduct of hacking through bullshit for the last (insert digits).
I want to expand in love. I can feel the heart of Carla pouring through those pages and it is AMAZING. What a wonderful being! I want to get closer to that.
I dont know. <--- (thats the most honest Ive ever been in my life). Thanks in advance for any and all input