Reality Creation

[Plenum]

I have come to realize exactly what you said that I have everything when I don't want anything. Not in a fixed present time but in a potential where the universe throws at me everything he got when I don't want anything. If on the other end I start wanting something really bad then it doesn't happen. I seem to be really powerful at manifestation but things have manifested more in a negative way than a positive way when I try doing it consciously. It's like the universe is trying to play with me. In general I feel pretty free from seperation, suffering and resistance. But it comes back if I want something and I definitely feel it.

from what I can tell, you've tried to create an equalization of desires.  That's not the same as not having desires.

It's a kind of apathy, in not taking responsibility for one's intent.

The heart center is a strong place to work from, but it also is not the end point.

That's why I tried to say that if you focus on where the next point of balance is, you'll find that the throat center is asking for more attention.  You'll see this feedback in your physical experiences, if you look more closely.

[Night Owl]

It is the result of experimentation rather than unconscious behavior. You think experimenting with reality is falsifying the result?

What do you think my throat center needs then? Understand that this forum is pretty much the only place I express anything so it may be normal that it seems unbalanced. I've never really been on any forum before but I realized there are actually places like this where people are smart, interesting and wise and it never gets boring. So I test my self expression here rather than anywhere else. In my everyday world I feel like with most interactions other selves needs more from me than I need them in the sense that their problems finally find someone they can be shared with and understood and I can help them with their problems when they talk to me where I can't do the same with them because nobody relates to my seeking and thought process. I lose anybody's interest or understanding if I speak freely and honestly so I don't usually express myself that much out of here.

So what do you perceive to be unbalanced in my expression here? I do think I am indifferent often but I am not sure how this is a problem if it doesn't become complete indifference of others.

[anagogy]

What is the name of this new game? Where are the new limits? What are the new matters that comes into play? What is the use or purpose of being a master of manifestation if there is no direction to the manifestation game? This manifestation game you talk about is fun and I feel like I did come here to play this game. But how do you find the purpose to structure such game? I understand it's like a rhythm but how does it groove? Without groove any attempts at rhythm is lost in futility.

From my perspective this reality is here to spur the evolution of desire.  That is how the creator knowing itself manifests.  Those desires can be anything.  As more time goes on, our desires begin to lean more purely in the direction of desire to serve others, or more purely towards a desire to serve self.  Once a desire becomes recognized, we do what we can to line up with it.  You identify what you want, and then practice those thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors that are consonant with the desire.  In time you become a pure vibrational match to that desire.  At that point, a new one is born.  The goal just keeps expanding till we reach identification with the creator.  The purpose is the growth, not necessarily for the what the growth will net you, because you are already the creator, but for the experience of growth itself.

A lot of people fall into the trap of thinking they have to be this enlightened super human, and if they aren't they are somehow failing, but really there is no better or worse in the universe.  

From the simple to the complex, the evolution of desire is the purpose of this game.  The desire of a paramecium to ingest bacteria is as full of the creator's perfection and majesty as the social memory complex giving birth to the light of suns.  And it is arguably not any better to be free of desire than it is to be full of desire.  They are just different.

Sometimes there are times when there isn't passion burning within us, and those periods of life are more reflective in nature, almost like a mini "between" life review.  After enough distillation of thought a desire will eventually be birthed.  If we are ever confused about the desires that are growing within us, they naturally get louder with time and cry out to us for expression.  Because this world is so varied, you can't help but rub up against contrasting catalyst.  Since unwanted gives birth to the wanted, even mild contrast eventually becomes obvious.  Sort of like rubbing sandpaper on your skin.  At first, it is not very noticeable but over time, the effect of the resistance becomes obvious, and what is wanted simultaneously becomes obvious, because it is simply the opposite end of the stick of what you are then presently experiencing.

So the purpose of the game is to simply find out what you really want.  If one is beyond desire, they no longer ask what the purpose is, because they have no reason to ask that.  I say that based on studying a rare few individuals who were at that place.

So do whatever it is that elevates your mood the greatest, and then see where your inspiration leads you.  See what you desire when you are feeling your best.  It doesn't have to seem great to be great.  Sometimes the greatest advancements to self and society stem from the simplest of desires.

[Plenum]

It is the result of experimentation rather than unconscious behavior. You think experimenting with reality is falsifying the result?

I think there are certain parameters to each lifetime.  And when we are incarnate, we are free to do what we please.

HOWEVER - because of the potential to get off track, we've put in place certain signposts when we wander off course.  Those signposts are a telltale signal that lights up when:

1) we are about to head off track, and make possible decisions that would truly lose our life's momentum as to what we planned to do here originally

2) once we go off track, there are 'nexus points' where we can get back on course.  Again, these are opportunities, rather than commands to tell us what to do.  We truly have ultimate free will in how we recognise or respond to these signals.

Responsibility is about acknowledging these signposts, rather than writing them off.

So what do you perceive to be unbalanced in my expression here? I do think I am indifferent often but I am not sure how this is a problem if it doesn't become complete indifference of others.

When I reference the throat center, I am speaking more to the principles underlying this energy center.  That is, responsibility, ownership, attunement to signals (catalyst), care-taking with one's situation.

I know this may seem like a strange interaction between us, but something about your situation seems to be requesting a clearer view.

[Nicholas]

Understand that this forum is pretty much the only place I express anything so it may be normal that it seems unbalanced. I've never really been on any forum before but I realized there are actually places like this where people are smart, interesting and wise and it never gets boring. So I test my self expression here rather than anywhere else.

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In this reality, bringing forth our love may also involve revealing our vulnerability. We cannot express one without the other. Its a challenging and sensitive issue in trying to ascertain which place upon the map of life, where each and every individual is presently placed. We can only discover each others hearts and attempt to offer inspiration and advice. We cannot really change each other, but we can connect, regardless of which place we are situated in this circle.

Its a progressive atmosphere!  

[AnthroHeart]

My mom is looking into getting trained in QHHT, a form of hypnosis. I got certified in hypnosis a few years ago.

Today I heard on the radio a Progressive commercial where they were trying to hypnotize the listener, but it was brief,
not anything serious. That was a really strong synchronicity. I wonder if synchronicities mean that we are closer to manifesting our desires. It seems like it. I created a wall collage with 13 furry pics so I could see them when I wake up each day. Or when I lie down, I look at all the anthro pics I have on the wall, and just take it in with no expectation.

[Nicholas]

My mom is looking into getting trained in QHHT, a form of hypnosis. I got certified in hypnosis a few years ago.

Today I heard on the radio a Progressive commercial where they were trying to hypnotize the listener, but it was brief,
not anything serious. That was a really strong synchronicity. I wonder if synchronicities mean that we are closer to manifesting our desires. It seems like it. I created a wall collage with 12 furry pics so I could see them when I wake up each day. Or when I lie down, I look at all the anthro pics I have on the wall, and just take it in with no expectation.

I think it is natural to surround ourselves with comforting images. I have mine at home too. I can relate to filling the home up with comforting images 

I suspect the QHHT types of healing involves having a sense of inner comfort though.

[Night Owl]

What is the name of this new game? Where are the new limits? What are the new matters that comes into play? What is the use or purpose of being a master of manifestation if there is no direction to the manifestation game? This manifestation game you talk about is fun and I feel like I did come here to play this game. But how do you find the purpose to structure such game? I understand it's like a rhythm but how does it groove? Without groove any attempts at rhythm is lost in futility.

From my perspective this reality is here to spur the evolution of desire.  That is how the creator knowing itself manifests.  Those desires can be anything.  As more time goes on, our desires begin to lean more purely in the direction of desire to serve others, or more purely towards a desire to serve self.  Once a desire becomes recognized, we do what we can to line up with it.  You identify what you want, and then practice those thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors that are consonant with the desire.  In time you become a pure vibrational match to that desire.  At that point, a new one is born.  The goal just keeps expanding till we reach identification with the creator.  The purpose is the growth, not necessarily for the what the growth will net you, because you are already the creator, but for the experience of growth itself.

A lot of people fall into the trap of thinking they have to be this enlightened super human, and if they aren't they are somehow failing, but really there is no better or worse in the universe.  

From the simple to the complex, the evolution of desire is the purpose of this game.  The desire of a paramecium to ingest bacteria is as full of the creator's perfection and majesty as the social memory complex giving birth to the light of suns.  And it is arguably not any better to be free of desire than it is to be full of desire.  They are just different.

Sometimes there are times when there isn't passion burning within us, and those periods of life are more reflective in nature, almost like a mini "between" life review.  After enough distillation of thought a desire will eventually be birthed.  If we are ever confused about the desires that are growing within us, they naturally get louder with time and cry out to us for expression.  Because this world is so varied, you can't help but rub up against contrasting catalyst.  Since unwanted gives birth to the wanted, even mild contrast eventually becomes obvious.  Sort of like rubbing sandpaper on your skin.  At first, it is not very noticeable but over time, the effect of the resistance becomes obvious, and what is wanted simultaneously becomes obvious, because it is simply the opposite end of the stick of what you are then presently experiencing.

So the purpose of the game is to simply find out what you really want.  If one is beyond desire, they no longer ask what the purpose is, because they have no reason to ask that.  I say that based on studying a rare few individuals who were at that place.

So do whatever it is that elevates your mood the greatest, and then see where your inspiration leads you.  See what you desire when you are feeling your best.  It doesn't have to seem great to be great.  Sometimes the greatest advancements to self and society stem from the simplest of desires.

I know I'm not completely out of desires all the time. It's just not fixed in time. But when I find a new desire it becomes apparent that I can't define myself with it over time. At the basis of things I already know what is the passion or what it is that sparks some new desires in me. I love progressive music. I love everything about it. Listening, watching shows, playing etc. But the universe seems to suggest my interest in this has no direction in a place where it's all about earn money or die. This money system is killing every sparks of energy I have. I feel it's gonna force me into a lifestyle I can no longer enjoy being alive. I'm trying to learn as much as I can about reality before this happens because I don't know how to prevent it from happening. Here again attention is on what is not wanted but the opposite hasn't worked either. I have not succeeded in transforming a passion in a lifestyle. I don't have interests in things that earn money apparently. This is an attempt at using what is left of me not being completely apathic about this place before it takes over me. So I work at dissociating with what is forcing me out of what I truely desire because that's all is left of something I can associate with. A desire that leads nowhere. All I can do is love that desire. I figured if no positive manifestation is possible then working at not letting the negative define what I am is the best thing I can do so far. So all is left is everything I am not. So I am nothing. Yet I am everything. So I'm basically nothing and everything at the same time for a while now. The negative side of things has lost it's power over me but it maybe leave me with a bit of apathy toward myself. How does one not become apathic when trapped in a box? An infinite box. Infinity can seem really small at times.

[Night Owl]

It is the result of experimentation rather than unconscious behavior. You think experimenting with reality is falsifying the result?

I think there are certain parameters to each lifetime.  And when we are incarnate, we are free to do what we please.

HOWEVER - because of the potential to get off track, we've put in place certain signposts when we wander off course.  Those signposts are a telltale signal that lights up when:

1) we are about to head off track, and make possible decisions that would truly lose our life's momentum as to what we planned to do here originally

2) once we go off track, there are 'nexus points' where we can get back on course.  Again, these are opportunities, rather than commands to tell us what to do.  We truly have ultimate free will in how we recognise or respond to these signals.

Responsibility is about acknowledging these signposts, rather than writing them off.

So what do you perceive to be unbalanced in my expression here? I do think I am indifferent often but I am not sure how this is a problem if it doesn't become complete indifference of others.

When I reference the throat center, I am speaking more to the principles underlying this energy center.  That is, responsibility, ownership, attunement to signals (catalyst), care-taking with one's situation.

I know this may seem like a strange interaction between us, but something about your situation seems to be requesting a clearer view.

I actually think I've been all in for a desire and it kept it from happening so I guess I didn't learned how ownership and responsability can better my existence. I instead take responsability and ownership of thoughts until I can no longer define myself with it with time.

I don't think this interaction is strange. I am a seeker of quality, meaning, truth and beauty and I think this place holds the best quality of people to interact with. And you are part of that so I guess I am exactly where I should be just as you. I think I can bring the best out of people to come out. If you find the best of you to be strange, then maybe the oddity of this universe is what makes it so magnificient.

[Night Owl]

My mom is looking into getting trained in QHHT, a form of hypnosis. I got certified in hypnosis a few years ago.

Today I heard on the radio a Progressive commercial where they were trying to hypnotize the listener, but it was brief,
not anything serious. That was a really strong synchronicity. I wonder if synchronicities mean that we are closer to manifesting our desires. It seems like it. I created a wall collage with 12 furry pics so I could see them when I wake up each day. Or when I lie down, I look at all the anthro pics I have on the wall, and just take it in with no expectation.

I think it is natural to surround ourselves with comforting images. I have mine at home too. I can relate to filling the home up with comforting images 

I suspect the QHHT types of healing involves having a sense of inner comfort though.

I do it too, my walls are covered with cool looking album covers.

[Fastidious Emanations]

What is reality without desire? With absolutely no will to exist the illusion becomes discontinuous. Hence the asymptotic perception of 'chaos' from 'here', that is the idea of desire manifesting reality.

[anagogy]

I appreciate desires because they represent the feeling of life coursing through me.  There is nothing quite like keenly wanting to do the thing you are doing at this precise moment.  Enjoying the perfect meal, going for the perfect walk, watching your favorite movie, or perhaps desiring to cooperatively assist someone else and then basking in the feeling of being genuinely helpful to another.  Desire plus an absence of resistance equals beauty in motion.  Absence of resistance and no desire is beauty in stillness.  One represents the potential, and one represents the kinetic from my perspective.  Perhaps we could characterize it as the difference between peace and passion -- creator at rest and creator in motion.  Both are nice at the appropriate time.  

Absence of resistance is connection with the creator, in whichever form it appears in.  That is why it feels like love or bliss.  The less distortion, the less resistance.

The ego desires because the ego sees itself as separate, incomplete, and limited.  It exists as the demarcation between who you are, and where you are.  It is the self that consciousness has imagined itself to be.  If one saw themselves as truly unified with everything, then there is nothing to be desired because you already are whatever, whoever, and wherever you might seek.  I think there is a big difference between that state of being and the state of someone who is depressed and seemingly low on desires.  In the case of the depressed person, they actually have extremely strong desires, but they also have extreme resistance, so all that energy being summoned through them by their constant asking spurred on by negative contrast just beats them to death (literally).  There is nothing worse than having strong desire that cannot be actualized or expressed.  That is a sure fire path to all sorts of maladies.

So from a spiritual standpoint, the question we should always be asking in any given moment is: how can I soothe my current distortions/resistance?  The desires will take care of themselves, but the resistance is our work.  The desires will evolve to more and more subtle levels given their natural evolution, till they eventually become the pure distilled love that sees all things as love, whether it happens in the next moment or in six billion years.  It isn't a race, so we are free to savor and enjoy the journey.

Our conception of self is always evolving as we progress through the densities.     

[Night Owl]

There is really no limit to your capacity to break down things to a simple level anagogy. I wonder how did you find such balance? Is it only the result of the LOO or have you experienced extreme unbalance to reach such level of balance?

I think your analogy with peace and passion is more than on the spot. I have experienced passion to a level where it brings me down to depression. So I work toward peace instead. I had depression for a while and so knowing what it is I seek a way that doesn't go back there. There is no turning back. I prefer stillness than depression. My current state is somewhat strange in that knowing what depression is I don't think I'm still depressed because I have found peace and soothed resistance with most of my existence. I am more in a state where I am a potential in stillness and I make choices out of not going back there, out of not creating more resistance because I know it's not useful but I also don't know what else to do. I end up finding peace when I have no desires because having them keeps them from happening and so I put more work into peace than passion since I crossed the LOO's path. My very few strong desires are not gone but perhaps I am not here to experience the manifestation of desires but to find peace. So I soothe resistance of what happens. But the result is strange in that I simultaneously experience an increase of passion for peace but a decrease in passion for what result happens. Until nothing happens. I have no resistance when nothing happens but instead the universe sends me some pressure where I should be wanting something and I wonder if I am the one who desires that unconsciously or if this is the distortions and resistance of someone else whose release of negative energy impact me. Or both. Since I really have a hard time finding a new desire to keep me going I figured it is much more related to someone else having an impact on me but yet at the source of all things I'm stuck with the why am I here question. I intentionally chose to incarnate here and forgot why and now that I'm here I miss the point. What is there to do when you find complete peace? Is it useful to experience distortion when you know peace? Peace is already hard enough to reach and understand.

[anagogy]

There is really no limit to your capacity to break down things to a simple level anagogy. I wonder how did you find such balance? Is it only the result of the LOO or have you experienced extreme unbalance to reach such level of balance?

Thanks for the compliment.  I strive for clarity, but even the clearest map is not the territory.  Often in life I have been blessed to have a very clear map, but that doesn't mean I navigate the actual terrain as well as I can sometimes read the map.  I often fall ass backwards into negative contrast.  It's part of being human I suppose.  But I just do my best to interpret those experiences in a positive light and realize they are just bouncing off places for a new and improved states of being.  Get cut off in traffic?  Maybe the universe is delaying you from a car accident that would have occurred shortly thereafter otherwise.  Someone break up with you?  Maybe the universe has someone better in store for you.  Get fired from your job?  There is probably something even better on its way.  Sometimes when we ask the universe for new experiences, the old structure has to break down first before the new one can be fully realized.  So yeah, my experiences of imbalance clarify my understanding of balance. That is one huge caveat about manifestation: you have to be willing to accept the new vibrations that fall outside of your comfort zone. That is one of the trickiest parts to master in my opinion.

I think your analogy with peace and passion is more than on the spot. I have experienced passion to a level where it brings me down to depression. So I work toward peace instead. I had depression for a while and so knowing what it is I seek a way that doesn't go back there. There is no turning back. I prefer stillness than depression. My current state is somewhat strange in that knowing what depression is I don't think I'm still depressed because I have found peace and soothed resistance with most of my existence. I am more in a state where I am a potential in stillness and I make choices out of not going back there, out of not creating more resistance because I know it's not useful but I also don't know what else to do. I end up finding peace when I have no desires because having them keeps them from happening and so I put more work into peace than passion since I crossed the LOO's path. My very few strong desires are not gone but perhaps I am not here to experience the manifestation of desires but to find peace. So I soothe resistance of what happens. But the result is strange in that I simultaneously experience an increase of passion for peace but a decrease in passion for what result happens. Until nothing happens. I have no resistance when nothing happens but instead the universe sends me some pressure where I should be wanting something and I wonder if I am the one who desires that unconsciously or if this is the distortions and resistance of someone else whose release of negative energy impact me. Or both. Since I really have a hard time finding a new desire to keep me going I figured it is much more related to someone else having an impact on me but yet at the source of all things I'm stuck with the why am I here question. I intentionally chose to incarnate here and forgot why and now that I'm here I miss the point. What is there to do when you find complete peace? Is it useful to experience distortion when you know peace? Peace is already hard enough to reach and understand.

Depression can be harsh.  Nobody wants it -- it is the choking off of life force, the cutting off of desire.  Peace, which I call absence of resistance with little desire is nice, but strong nonresistant and noncontradicted desire is even better in my view.

If you are having trouble identifying your true desires (which is also why you are here -- they are one and the same), all I can tell you is the way I figure out mine.  I basically just think to myself: if I had unlimited money, and unlimited time, what would capture my interest the greatest?  And I just sort of daydream about that and find myself drifting around interesting possibilities.  Just identify something extremely general and just gradually let the momentum of thought accumulate till it becomes more and more specific and defined.  You might start off with something as general as: I want to help people in some way.  And then you narrow down ways of helping that you find satisfying or interesting, and so on.  Or maybe you are just interested in music, and you just want to something involving music.  And then again, just keep entertaining the possibilities until they become more distilled.  The problem for most people is they say, "I want this.....but its not likely." So they attempt to be more practical, which drains the lifeforce and motivation from the ambition. Also, no one has to carve out the ultimate desire, just find the best one you can find right now. Maybe that is as simple as: what am I going to eat for lunch that I will most savor and enjoy today? Those little experiences that result from clarifying desire are what put you in vibrational proximity to your great spiritual desires believe it or not.

[AnthroHeart]

Thank you anagogy, for the talk about desires. I've got little ones, and big ones. I'm going to be building a new computer with my tax return, with the help of my friend. I am looking forward to that.

[Night Owl]

There is really no limit to your capacity to break down things to a simple level anagogy. I wonder how did you find such balance? Is it only the result of the LOO or have you experienced extreme unbalance to reach such level of balance?

Thanks for the compliment.  I strive for clarity, but even the clearest map is not the territory.  Often in life I have been blessed to have a very clear map, but that doesn't mean I navigate the actual terrain as well as I can sometimes read the map.  I often fall ass backwards into negative contrast.  It's part of being human I suppose.  But I just do my best to interpret those experiences in a positive light and realize they are just bouncing off places for a new and improved states of being.  Get cut off in traffic?  Maybe the universe is delaying you from a car accident that would have occurred shortly thereafter otherwise.  Someone break up with you?  Maybe the universe has someone better in store for you.  Get fired from your job?  There is probably something even better on its way.  Sometimes when we ask the universe for new experiences, the old structure has to break down first before the new one can be fully realized.  So yeah, my experiences of imbalance clarify my understanding of balance.  That is one huge caveat about manifestation: you have to be willing to accept the new vibrations that fall outside of your comfort zone.  That is one of the trickiest parts to master in my opinion.

I think your analogy with peace and passion is more than on the spot. I have experienced passion to a level where it brings me down to depression. So I work toward peace instead. I had depression for a while and so knowing what it is I seek a way that doesn't go back there. There is no turning back. I prefer stillness than depression. My current state is somewhat strange in that knowing what depression is I don't think I'm still depressed because I have found peace and soothed resistance with most of my existence. I am more in a state where I am a potential in stillness and I make choices out of not going back there, out of not creating more resistance because I know it's not useful but I also don't know what else to do. I end up finding peace when I have no desires because having them keeps them from happening and so I put more work into peace than passion since I crossed the LOO's path. My very few strong desires are not gone but perhaps I am not here to experience the manifestation of desires but to find peace. So I soothe resistance of what happens. But the result is strange in that I simultaneously experience an increase of passion for peace but a decrease in passion for what result happens. Until nothing happens. I have no resistance when nothing happens but instead the universe sends me some pressure where I should be wanting something and I wonder if I am the one who desires that unconsciously or if this is the distortions and resistance of someone else whose release of negative energy impact me. Or both. Since I really have a hard time finding a new desire to keep me going I figured it is much more related to someone else having an impact on me but yet at the source of all things I'm stuck with the why am I here question. I intentionally chose to incarnate here and forgot why and now that I'm here I miss the point. What is there to do when you find complete peace? Is it useful to experience distortion when you know peace? Peace is already hard enough to reach and understand.

Depression can be harsh.  Nobody wants it -- it is the choking off of life force, the cutting off of desire.  Peace, which I call absence of resistance with little desire is nice, but strong nonresistant and noncontradicted desire is even better in my view.

If you are having trouble identifying your true desires (which is also why you are here -- they are one and the same), all I can tell you is the way I figure out mine.  I basically just think to myself: if I had unlimited money, and unlimited time, what would capture my interest the greatest?  And I just sort of daydream about that and find myself drifting around interesting possibilities.  Just identify something extremely general and just gradually let the momentum of thought accumulate till it becomes more and more specific and defined.  You might start off with something as general as: I want to help people in some way.  And then you narrow down ways of helping that you find satisfying or interesting, and so on.  Or maybe you are just interested in music, and you just want to something involving music.  And then again, just keep entertaining the possibilities until they become more distilled.  The problem for most people is they say, "I want this.....but its not likely." So they attempt to be more practical, which drains the lifeforce and motivation from the ambition.  Also, no one has to carve out the ultimate desire, just find the best one you can find right now.  Maybe that is as simple as: what am I going to eat for lunch that I will most savor and enjoy today?  Those little experiences that result from clarifying desire are what put you in vibrational proximity to your great spiritual desires believe it or not.

First of all thanks for all that clarity. I guess I'm no different than you on the fact that I find it way easier to help somebody else clarify the map reading but when it comes to the travel even though I don't lose myself often it just happens sometimes. Lately I feel like 1 or 2 days a week I am really negative and it just takes me a day or two once I've decided I don't want to be negative and it's all cleared and then I feel really good. Like today I feel good. I also realized I may appear somewhat more negative than I really am because I' talking of stuff that happened in a relatively distant past and I'm just shaking some thoughts about the past in trying to understand myself better. These thoughts appear because lately I've been still a lot so there's not much to think about the present.

I've also come to think what I mean by not having desires is I feel like things really simple as eating or getting out of bed no longer feel like I want to do them but more like I have to. That can bring up some negativity. I don't necessary feel negative about those things in particular but when it comes to do them I heavily question the why it must be done.

Concerning my fondamental strong desires I think I can say these have just brought out frustration and has brought me to believe desires are no longer of positive benefit to me. These desires are so strong I just ain't ready to accept any alternatives. I'm completely fine not having them fullfilled in that I can be perfectly fine if I want to in any situation but I would not have energy in fullfilling any alternatives. And I wouldn't feel happy either, maybe just content. But I'm content already anyway. More importantly thinking about that made me realize one important thing. I realized that my parents raised me by negative reinforcement and that because of that, no matter how much I'd like to take control and responsability over my life, as strange as that may sound I have absolutely no clue how to manifest positivity. All the positivity that is part of my life happened by alternatives because I wasn't searching for it or because I didn't desire it. I am super strong in manifesting the negative because I've been taught how to perceive how negativity may come and so by trying not to make that happen it attracts it. All the positivity and the negativity I have in my life has happened because I tried to prevent negativity from happening. Even though I may be able to learn how to manifest positive I can't unlearn that. It's stuck with me for life until my incarnation ends. I think all I can do is make more room for different thinking but it'll always be there somewhere. I know how to make simple positive things happen by not having attachment to outcome but it is not happening with intentions.

In the end that's my problem if I really want to focus on making an important positive thing happen by intentions I am just not able to do that as of now. I have never been able to. Positive manifestation is a mystery to me. And I think what can bring more negativity out of me is when someone has expectations of me like I should do something. As simple as a request it may sound to the other it is just too much to ask of me as of now. I think that is also why any attempts at having discipline has completely failed and drained me of energy. And I know deep inside of me I will never be satisfied with alternatives that doesn't come from my own intentions. I don't want to live a life built up by someone else's negativity.

Now that I've found peace and some clarity how should I approach this? How can I learn to manifest positive? I guess I should start with basics and train the process?

[anagogy]

Now that I've found peace and some clarity how should I approach this? How can I learn to manifest positive? I guess I should start with basics and train the process?

Learning to manifest positive is basically just learning how to not sabotage the natural unfolding of events. It is basically automatic.  Basically, things gravitate to your experience that are active in your consciousness right now.  So your natural curiosities begin to worm their way into your reality provided you don't block it.  You are constantly thinking about whatever it is you care about.

So as a simple example: someone is overweight.  They don't like being overweight. That preference equals an automatic request to the universe to be thinner.  The universe says "okay, sounds good".  The infinite understanding resident in intelligent infinity offers a perfect template of thought that will manifest that reality.  But Source doesn't create reality for you, it just shows you how.  So the way the universe communicates those thoughts is through emotion.  Positive emotions are saying, "these thoughts are vibrationally closer to the reality you want to manifest", and negative emotion means, "these thoughts are moving you away from what you want".

The thing is, if that person remained in an unresistant state of appreciation predominantly, circumstances and events would begin to form that would result in a thinner body.  Without even deliberately trying to manifest what they want, they would naturally find the thoughts that matched their desire.  It is like you are in a stream, and the stream is always flowing towards what you want as a result of just experiencing catalyst.  Its always taking you to what you want.  But sometimes you paddle against the current.  Everytime we doubt, we paddle against the current.  Every time we are critical of the process we paddle against the current.  But if you just drop the oars, the stream will begin pulling you in the right direction.  So that would be like meditation where you just stop thinking, and let the stream carry you.  Positive thinking is like paddling downstream towards your goal.  You can get there faster that way, but you can just sit back and let the stream take you there if you want.  The current of the stream is like your strength of desire.  It is self propelling, provided you aren't paddling against it.  The paddling is your conscious processes.

So if you find processes overwhelming, and have a bad habit in life of paddling against the stream, simple releasing thought meditation is a great way to go about it.  We all, without exception, have desires potentiated subconsciously. You might call these your "karma to be resolved".  So if you release enough thought, the stream is going to start taking you to some of them.  You don't even have to "try" anything.  Just practice "letting go".  It is similar to "surrender".  The events will show up very naturally.  We only have to "try" when there is a lot of resistance.  Work and play are words that can be applied to the same circumstances.  One involves resistance, the other does not.  The difference is often interpretation, but what causes interpretation?  The level of resistance you are entertaining (or not entertaining).  
 

[Night Owl]

So you are saying basically that any manifestation is by its fundamental nature positive and it only becomes negative if you resist it. Though I totally understand that I can't help but think about moments where if I would have not put any resistance I would still have ended up doing things I don't want to do. There is probably resistance at the source of why I ended up at those situations, there was resistance from me to be part of those moments and there is resistance to forget about it because it bothered me at the time. Even to lessen resistance I have to resist resistance itself because it is already there naturally to me.

I also understand resistance has the purpose of showing oneself what he is not. Because I have too much resistance I can only see what I am not. But on most occasions I resist some situations because I find no potential to feel pleasure in doing something or be part of something within myself. I feel like I resist so much things because I don't like to do them. But do I resist because every opportunity seems unpleasant or unpleasant opportunities present themselves more because I resist them? Should my life be only a series of events of things I don't like to do? Does manifesting pleasant situations requires to just absolutely accept every unpleasant situations without resistance? Because I feel like if I just do that my life will end up being only doing what I don't like doing without resistance. Am I right to resist situations I find to be unpleasant or am I just an a****** who doesn't like anything? Sorry if I become annoying about this, but I try seeing what would have been different in every situations with my life if I had not resisted and to me it would seem worst but I can only work with what has already happened. I have already found peace for what comes from now on but I try to understand what has been wrong in the past so I don't become my past.

Resistance....resistance .... resistance everywhere....

The funny thing I notice after talking about all of this is the more I try not to involve the ego in everything the more it shows up because I'm so strong at manifesting what I try not to manifest. That's kind of nasty and hilarious simultaneously.

[anagogy]

So you are saying basically that any manifestation is by its fundamental nature positive and it only becomes negative if you resist it. Though I totally understand that I can't help but think about moments where if I would have not put any resistance I would still have ended up doing things I don't want to do. There is probably resistance at the source of why I ended up at those situations, there was resistance from me to be part of those moments and there is resistance to forget about it because it bothered me at the time. Even to lessen resistance I have to resist resistance itself because it is already there naturally to me.

At the human level of vibration (3rd density), we are almost always going to have a little bit of "resistance".  In fact, that is what our particular experience of reality is -- a certain threshold of resistance to unity, which equals the illusion we experience currently.  However, resistance is always relative.  It is probably more useful to simply talk about "perceived resistance", because everyone is at a different place.  Two people could experience the exact same catalyst and one perceives extreme resistance while another perceives none.  The actual level is relative to pure undistorted unity (though there is really no point in trying to measure that).  A good way to summarize perceptual resistance is: one person's hell is another person's heaven. Another way: how much joy do I experience on a day to day basis.  

It is common for wanderers to experience more perceptual resistance than a native 3rd density.  That's why they often have allergies, depression, and personality disorders.  Obviously those are not always signs of wanderers.  It is interesting that many wanderers want to "remember" the density they hail from, because it would actually make the perceptual resistance increase, but it might also give them more tools to deal with that so it's kind of a trade off.  The reason it increases perceptual resistance is because an awareness of the higher degree of harmony of a higher density would heighten awareness of the absence of that.  Wanderers already have that to a certain degree subconsciously as faint memories, and that is why they inadvertently resist the planetary vibration.

What you call "resisting resistance" I call "fighting the trained momentum of thought".  Society trains us into a lot of resistant patterns of thought.  Very few escape that conditioning.  So we are actually taught and trained from a very early age to resist those spontaneous creative behaviors that proceed forth naturally from unity (for example: ignoring your emotions even when they are screaming "don't do this").  The best thing you can do when faced with doing tasks you don't like to not attempt to "resist it" but rather accept it as it is, (essentially be present with it), and then gently turn your thoughts or interpretations downstream away from resistance.  Essentially, what this boils down to is a kind of spiritual optimism.  Take a glass is half full approach, and assume the best.  Do what you have to do, since we all have responsibilities, (pay bills, go to work, whatever, but try to look for positive aspects in those things)  By doing this we activate vibrations closer to what is wanted, but not so far that the resistance of the vibrational jump throws us against a wall of negativity.  Trust me, oftentimes 'less is more'.  Just lean gently in the direction of what is wanted.  As you turn away from the resistance, more and more actual wanted experiences will naturally begin to manifest.    

I also understand resistance has the purpose of showing oneself what he is not. Because I have too much resistance I can only see what I am not. But on most occasions I resist some situations because I find no potential to feel pleasure in doing something or be part of something within myself. I feel like I resist so much things because I don't like to do them. But do I resist because every opportunity seems unpleasant or unpleasant opportunities present themselves more because I resist them?

Both.  The best practice you can get into vibrational wise is to sleep well, wake up refreshed, and get yourself into a really good mood before you go do whatever it is you do.  If you can master that, all actions taken from that vibrational place are more likely to take you towards what you are wanting rather than its exact opposite.  Every action births the next, remember that.  Always ask yourself: was this action inspired from a place of connection, or a place of separation?  Did you feel good about doing it or did you feel bad?  When you feel positive emotions your attention is on what is wanted, when you feel negative emotion your attention is on unwanted.  Always do a gut check.  Gently turn your attention to more positive interpretations till you feel your heart center glow with warmth and joy.  And then do whatever it is you were going to do.

Should my life be only a series of events of things I don't like to do?

Definitely not.  There is both positive and negative in everything.  Both are complementary parts of the magnet that is the spirit.  Learn to lean your attention towards the positive aspects and those patterns of consciousness will expand in your experienced reality.

Does manifesting pleasant situations requires to just absolutely accept every unpleasant situations without resistance?

It only requires attention be more on what is going right, than what is going wrong.  The more attention you pay to one, the bigger it gets whether it is fame, fortune, pain, or illness.  It just keeps growing or expanding.  Take illness for example.  Somebody with cancer might go to the doctor and have a tumor cut out of them, but if they are still spending their attention on the resistant thoughts/interpretation that gave rise to that unwanted tumor it will simply grow back in the course of time, or manifest in another, yet equally negative way.  And if they don't figure that out, it will just keep getting worse and worse.  The effect (manifested reality) is not the cause.  Outer changes are superficial and do not last long.  The vibration of which it is a crystallization is the thing of import.

But really we can just let go.  When things get too complicated, I just let go.  Stop thinking.  Rest in pure awareness.  Watch your emotions gradually rise to joy over time signalling your attention has withdrawn from the negative focus.  Consistent meditators naturally find their interpretations change to positive over time.  And as that interpretation becomes more and more positive, it will naturally find avenues of focus in its experience that will travel down extremely satisfying corridors.

Because I feel like if I just do that my life will end up being only doing what I don't like doing without resistance. Am I right to resist situations I find to be unpleasant or am I just an a****** who doesn't like anything?

The thing is, you can't release resistance without moving towards what is wanted.  Everything is just a congealing of thought.  The only thing that keeps you from the experiences you desire is resistance.  So no matter how you let it go, you are going to start moving towards what is wanted.  It defies materialist logic, but I'm telling you that's how it works.  The impulses WILL come.  Circumstances are actually always changing.  It is just that oftentimes they are changing to the same thing over and over again because someone is keeping the same patterns of thought active.  We are the creator.  Were there no resistance, things would manifest effortlessly.

Sorry if I become annoying about this, but I try seeing what would have been different in every situations with my life if I had not resisted and to me it would seem worst but I can only work with what has already happened. I have already found peace for what comes from now on but I try to understand what has been wrong in the past so I don't become my past.

It's not annoying.  I'm just offering a different perspective.  Try it on for size.  If you don't like it, you can always throw it in the trash.

Resistance....resistance .... resistance everywhere....

The funny thing I notice after talking about all of this is the more I try not to involve the ego in everything the more it shows up because I'm so strong at manifesting what I try not to manifest. That's kind of nasty and hilarious simultaneously.

Yeah, the word "try" is full of resistance.  At least, that is what Yoda taught me.

[Night Owl]

Thanks a lot anagogy. You must have put either a lot of time or effort in writing all those answers. You are definitely the best balance companion one can dream of. I like going at the very basis and source of things and you have helped me tremendously in reaching that. I'm like an ever flowing waterfall of questions and it is simultaneously a bless and a curse. Deep inside of me I have already started all those processes and understand them well but sometimes I think I get discouraged because the amount of resistance I find within myself is almost endless. I see resistance also as a bless and a curse in that resistance has definitely been a part of me keeping my mind sane and free of society's lies. It more than likely had a role in me encountering the LOO. But at some point I need to clear it to become what I am instead of what I am not, that is the one who manifest. I don't want to cause more negativity all around me there's more than enough but I'm filled with it. It is the task of a lifetime. Connecting with darkness is the fastest way to learn but there comes a time where what is learned must be manifested to keep going. I do not fear the darkness but I have uncovered within myself a fear of manifestation instead. I think I'm so strong at manifesting negativity that I fear this power of manifestation. The thing is I am also really powerful at manifesting the best from others, just not from myself. I have no power over your answers but just me being here I think you have manifested the best from you. I wish I was able to do that to myself even though you are me at some level.

At this point Yoda definitely is the answer. You know what is strange about you mentioning that? I have this exact poster in my bedroom of yoda and it's written the famous quote: Do or do not There is no try. This is strange and amazing synchronicity. I think I should contemplate it more. Yoda is the master of all masters after all.

[seph7sevn]

If we are the creator, then I can't imagine why anything wouldn't be possible.  [...]  With enough motivation even a mighty river can be adjusted.  It just requires more influence is all.

This certainly sounds plausible, but I'd like to add a few points.  

1) Our access to intelligent infinity is tightly controlled until we have the wisdom to use its power responsibly and not muck things up, which we human spiritual infants are amazing at (just look at our planet - do we really want unlimited creative power at our disposal?  Also known as, "you don't give a toddler a nuke").

Personally, I think that our access to intelligent infinity is only "controlled" by our ignorance of how to use it.  I don't think that any force is actively restricting our ability to use it, rather, I think being a "toddler" naturally limits your ability to use it in the same way that being a toddler limits your ability to walk or run, not because it is an impossibility for them to walk or run, but they simply haven't learned the necessary discipline of how to do it (i.e. developed the muscles, developed the coordination etc.).  

I believe there is a free reach for the energies of the mind/body/spirit.

2) This is the more important point: we are here to learn to process catalyst through Love and Acceptance.  I've often wondered why the idea of "manifesting" simply felt wrong to me - the reason is that manifesting can run directly counter to love and acceptance - it can be a form of not loving and not accepting What Is.  If we're using it as a form of escape from conditions we haven't loved and accepted, then we are working against our own highest good and our soul's goals.  That simple.

You raise some good questions Stranger, I will attempt to clarify my point of view.  I will try not to make this novel too long.

Certainly, a lack of acceptance of "what is" would equal a certain amount of resistance, but I think it is a bit more complicated than that.  After all, we are not here to accept and love *all* catalyst, else if someone was dominating your mind, body, and soul the answer to dealing with it would simply be "Thanks for all the torture!  More please!", and keep letting them do it.  Therefore even the path of love and acceptance requires a certain degree of rejection of those ways of being that are *not* in resonance with who we really are.  Another way of saying it is: you can't be love, by resonating with hate.  So attempting to be love, by necessity involves a rejection of hate.

Thus I see "manifestation" as more "being true to yourself" and not disregarding your deepest core soul personality.  I see it more as the process of deliberately tuning into the self that you really are.  Certainly there is a negative version of manifesting which involves trying to change others (which can only be accomplished by harnessing their attention -- usually through fear or shame).  That isn't something I would ever advocate.  That sort of creation amounts to rejection of others -- just as not attempting to manifest your personal desires amounts to a rejection of self (I would even describe as a betrayal of self in a way -- which in its own way would be an 'unloving' and uncompassionate rejection of the catalyst of self).

So I think there is a balance to be achieved there.  I don't see manifestation as wrong -- we're doing it 24/7 whether we are conscious of it or not.  It is simply where we are pouring our attention.  You can pour your attention into rejection of others, rejection of self, or you can pour your attention onto acceptance of others, and acceptance of self.  It is not wrong to seek out certain conditions over certain other conditions.  You don't have to accept all catalyst because all catalyst is not in resonance with who you really are, in the same way that the catalyst of being underwater is not in resonance with the catalyst of being a cat.  It is not a part of its nature to be in resonance with that catalyst, and it is not wrong for it to desire the catalyst of land.  In the same way, its okay for us to have "preferred catalyst" or preferred experiential conditions, or to seek to manifest those preferred conditions.  We have natures that thrive better in certain conditions than other conditions.  The cat doesn't need to learn to love the catalyst of water in order to receive the desired catalyst of land.  It is enough that its attention is concentrated on land.  It is designed for land, and to attempt to find resonance with water would be a rejection and denial of its own essential nature.

The only time "control" enters the picture is when attention is on unwanted, which brings it into one's experience, which then requires you to attempt to futilely "control" that unwanted thing in your experience.  If it wasn't invited in in the first place by attention, there is no need to control anything.  Creation is our heritage as creator.

So to summarize, it isn't controlling (unloving) to place your attention on what you want.  It is the most natural thing in the world.  It is love, it is appreciation.  It is simply tuning into who you really are.  You don't have to appreciate all catalyst, to get the catalyst you really want, you just can't be using the catalyst anymore.  If your attention is on it, you're using it, which keeps it active in your experience.  Tuning into desired catalyst isn't spiritual stagnation, it is spiritual progression.  I don't see the spiritual lesson that you must love all catalyst, rather I see the spiritual lesson as one of coming to know yourself or to discern and understand what catalyst you prefer, or are resonant with, which you then tune to.

So ultimately, I would say, to make the best and proper use of the experience/opportunity with which life supplies us, any "manifesting" work should be first preceded by the complete and unconditional acceptance of What Is.  

But then, if we do that, we begin getting what we want/need anyway, automatically - perhaps because we have learned the lessons inherent in the catalyst by accepting it with love, and we can move on to more subtle refinements of our love with lighter lessons.  God gives us exactly what we need, whatever's in our hearts is already a loud prayer and request - there is no need to work at it.

[Also perhaps we want to split this discussion into its own thread, since not everyone will be looking at a topic entitled "Masturbation"]

From my perspective, you can't actually love all catalyst unconditionally (and that is not the purpose of this spiritual game anyway -- else the negatives are doing a disservice to the creator which is not the case).  Going back to my absurd cat analogy -- the cat in its present form will never achieve pure resonance with the catalyst of water (this of course is a general analogy -- not literally saying there are no cats on earth that don't enjoy water of course).  In the same way, none who are positively polarized will ever achieve resonance and loving acceptance with the catalyst of child abuse, torture, and general negative STS douche baggery to the point where we will actually "love" or accept that particular catalyst.  It is not who we are in our present form and we have to be true to that.  So you don't tune into love by concentrating on those things born out of hate and trying to love the unlovable.  Again, that catalyst is not in resonance with who we really are, and not being in resonance with that is a natural part of our present form, and one is not spiritually required to love it in order to progress.  It is the metaphorical "water" to our "feline ness".  Not compatible energies.  So instead, you place your attention on what you can, legitimately appreciate.  *That* is how we tune to unconditional love, by focusing on the aspects in resonance with who we truly, at a soul level, are.  From my perspective, tuning to unconditional love is about not allowing your frequency to dip down into resonance with that catalyst that is not compatible with who we really are.   

I feel like people misunderstand that to mean you have to love horrible torturous catalytic conditions, because it is a "spiritual lesson", when nothing could be further from the truth.  That which is not needed simply falls away as you stop using the catalyst.  It is counterproductive from my perspective to look at darkness and pretend that it is light.   You stop hating because you stop looking at the "hateful", and start looking at the "loveful".  When you become love, the hateful conditions cannot stay in your experience.  They are not vibrationally compatible.      
Thus, it is far from wrong to learn to manifest one's desired reality.  From my perspective it is what this whole process is all about.  To learn to vibrate as purely with who we really are as possible.  This is the creator knowing itself in my opinion.  

If is a process of trying to "escape" conditions then it can't work because attention is still on unwanted.  You have to be moving towards what is appreciated rather than running away from what is not appreciated.  One is based on love (attention to what is wanted), the other based on fear (attention to what is not wanted).  We are always moving vibrationally closer to that which we appreciate.  

Wow, thanks for your thoughts on Reality Creation. That's one metaphysical area that I am working on learning more about and to practice appropriately.

[seph7sevn]

Hey all.

I guess I'm learning about Reality Creation as I go. Aren't we all, though?

Consider the articles the below links go to as food for thought. And they pretty much sum up where I am currently at with this subject.

And in the interest of saving myself a lot of typing, below are a couple of links that lead to another website I like, specifically to a few shorter notes and articles about reality creation and how it occurs. There are several articles in the "Notes" section of the site and a couple of longer articles about how reality creation works vs. much of the law of attraction/manifestation stuff out there that is in Internet Land...

http://montalk.net/notes/reality-creation-redux

http://montalk.net/notes/reality-creation

http://montalk.net/notes/law-of-attracti...-awareness

[anagogy]

Hey all.

I guess I'm learning about Reality Creation as I go. Aren't we all, though?

Consider the articles the below links go to as food for thought. And they pretty much sum up where I am currently at with this subject.

And in the interest of saving myself a lot of typing, below are a couple of links that lead to another website I like, specifically to a few shorter notes and articles about reality creation and how it occurs. There are several articles in the "Notes" section of the site and a couple of longer articles about how reality creation works vs. much of the law of attraction/manifestation stuff out there that is in Internet Land...

http://montalk.net/notes/reality-creation-redux

http://montalk.net/notes/reality-creation

http://montalk.net/notes/law-of-attracti...-awareness

There is a lot of literature on the subject. You'll find a lot of it is contradictory in nature. The best teacher is experience in my opinion, and an honest analysis of your own mental state and the resulting events that manifest in relation to it. In my journey I often found stuff that was, shall we say, "intellectually articulate and very intelligent sounding", but in practice I found it to be an over rationalization for how something does or does not work, or just flat out misinterpretation of the actual mental events involved.

[seph7sevn]

Hey all.

I guess I'm learning about Reality Creation as I go. Aren't we all, though?

Consider the articles the below links go to as food for thought. And they pretty much sum up where I am currently at with this subject.

And in the interest of saving myself a lot of typing, below are a couple of links that lead to another website I like, specifically to a few shorter notes and articles about reality creation and how it occurs. There are several articles in the "Notes" section of the site and a couple of longer articles about how reality creation works vs. much of the law of attraction/manifestation stuff out there that is in Internet Land...

http://montalk.net/notes/reality-creation-redux

http://montalk.net/notes/reality-creation

http://montalk.net/notes/law-of-attracti...-awareness

There is a lot of literature on the subject.  You'll find a lot of it is contradictory in nature.  The best teacher is experience in my opinion, and an honest analysis of your own mental state and the resulting events that manifest in relation to it.  In my journey I often found stuff that was, shall we say, "intellectually articulate and very intelligent sounding", but in practice I found it to be an over rationalization for how something does or does not work, or just flat out misinterpretation of the actual mental events involved.

I see what you're saying....however, the aforementioned articles and links gave me what I still currently feel is the best food for thought about reality creation. But yeah, personal experience, especially repeated personal experience, is the best teacher about metaphysical matters.

[anagogy]

One of the better techniques I've found for manifesting what you desire are:

Pretending what you want is already the case right this very instant.  Spend time "feel-ulizing" (sort of like visualization but emotional) the reality you want.  The things that are  coalescing about your consciousness are the thoughts you are activating right NOW.  Whether you are thinking about the future, or the past, the thoughts are occurring in the NOW.  You want more money?  You need to feel wealthier right now.  You want more friends?  You need to FEEL charismatic and likeable. You want more sexual partners? You need to FEEL sexy and desirable.  It is all about the feeling.  Entrain to it.  You can't find the feeling without finding the thoughts and vice versa.  But it is much much easier to reach for a feeling than the oftentimes nebulous thoughts which may or may not generate the desired reality.  The feeling place is almost like a vibrational holding pattern.  If you hold onto a feeling long enough, it starts to become part of your identity, and you start to activate it without even realizing it.  It becomes subconscious essentially.  And more thoughts like it will join it over the course of time.  The perspective will evolve. You'll know when you've reached subconscious purity because you will get a sensation of "inevitability". Faith will begin to come very naturally as you approach vibrational proximity.

Think of your feelings/thoughts as magnets for the specific experiences that match them.  Given enough time and purity, they can attain infinite intensity.  We have great power within us if we care to master it.  

When I was in my teens I had acne problems as many teenagers do.  When medication failed I resorted to a kind of meditation where I would spend time feeling my skin becoming too dry to support the growth of acne.  In a couple weeks, the acne vanished.  The vibrations I was activating no longer supported the acne manifestation.  My mother kept asking me what I was using.  Of course, she didn't believe me when I told her how.

It is all about attention, and becoming aware of where you are placing your awareness at any given time.  What manifestations are you feeding with your attention?  In the beginning I had no idea how I was literally creating the negative experiences in my life by my subtle expectations that I wasn't even consciously acknowledging.  It is sobering when you become more consciously aware at all the idle random thoughts you have throughout the day.  Even your subtle assumptions are in that moment making them more likely to be validated in the course of time.

Another tip is: it is not enough to generate the feeling-place of your desires for a short amount of time, you need to BECOME it, and it needs to transform into a permanent part of you.  Much like dieting does not lead to lasting long term weight loss, spiritual dieting does not lead to long term reality change.  This is tricky, because it requires actual mental effort and many people are not accustomed to real work of that nature.  The fact of the matter is it is much easier and more comfortable to keep thinking the thoughts you are used to thinking.  It is more energy efficient because you have practiced your current thoughts so long that you have become a master at them, so to speak.  Even if they are generating a miserable reality.  Any thoughts you think long enough will become subconscious thoughts.  They are still accessible, but you think them so naturally that it is extremely easy to miss them.  Much like a rose colored lens, you are looking THROUGH them rather than seeing the colored perspective for what it is.  Meditation where you focus your attention on attention itself, and attempt to perceive the difference between attention itself and the objects of attention will vastly improve your awareness of this over the course of time.

Your attention/consciousness is your power.  Learn to harness it, and you will attain a modicum of influence over your personal reality.

[AnthroHeart]

Your attention/consciousness is your power.  Learn to harness it, and you will attain a modicum of influence over your personal reality.

Thanks anagogy. I believe we can have more than just a modicum of influence over our personal reality.

[GentleWanderer]

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[Night Owl]

I think for me it is harder to forget the negative thought patterns than adding new positive ones. I have a really good memory so I must put effort into forgetting. But the negative thoughts often overpower the positive ones and prevent them from staying. Often I find that when I try to empower positive thoughts within my mind I don't believe myself. It might just be so that I work hard at learning this technique. I definitely believe that it works though. For me it's all about being the best person I can be and I find so much resistance at it. I admit I find people here at bring4th to be a real inspiration at being the best person one can be. No matter how much time it can take I feel it is worth it.

[Jade]

Ra says that when we seek love, the first step is the cornerstone. Then the second time we seek love it doubles it. And then each time after that it doubles that. It's a long process, because we have to take into consideration how many times we've "doubled" the negative/separation thoughts over the course of our lives - so many!! Who knows how many!! What an interesting stat to be able to see post-mortum, anyway. So we have to double-down our thoughts on love to slowly erase how much we've exponentially fed the detrimental thoughts.

It's a slow process but then you get to a point where the speed picks up a bit and you really can see the negative wheels slowing down and reversing, and the positive ones taking over. I mean I'm not saying my thoughts are the rainbows of the Creator's love 24/7 by any means, it's still a challenge. But the trick is to catch yourself and to not redouble down on the negative thoughts when they pop up. Which is why mantras/positive intentions are so powerful in daily life duties as a preventative measure.

[AnthroHeart]

To experience Love, do we have to feel Love?

Or can we act lovingly without feeling it?

Cause the reality I am creating doesn't really tug on my heart strings.

But sometimes I get goose bumps when I do feel it.