Quotes I Love

[AnthroHeart]

I wondered which density I/we become a galactic Logos.

I think that we also become a sort of Logos of this octave in the very first part of 8th density. But 8th density is officially of the next octave.

I want to be a Logos of this Octave, or one like it.

[AnthroHeart]

When you feel the density of the Field streaming against you and within you, you know that indeed magic surrounds us.

[AnthroHeart]

I sort of wouldn't be surprised if there were a 3rd density world that's getting ready to transition to 4D that has anthros. In this universe, mind you. I'm pretty sure that if you were ready to incarnate into a 4D body that you could incarnate into a cartoony anthro, as it were. I think that if the world were still 3D, I kind of don't think it's likely that it would be cartoony. The reason I think that is because there's something appealing about a world that is fantasy-like. And a world that is 3D is still dealing with a good deal of catalyst. And catalyst is, by its nature, not appealing. So that's why I think that a world that is dealing with catalyst is not fantasy-like. But, obviously, once they fully transition into 4D, then they have the option of going cartoon.

[AnthroHeart]

Lighthead Wrote:
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I think that if it were something simple, it could take something like weeks (although that sounds pretty fast to me). But since it's something like anthros, that adds a whole 'nother level of, I guess you could call, "unreality" to it. In other words, you also have to work on convincing yourself that an anthro is real. I'm talking about subconsciously. For example, your conscious mind might believe that anthros are real, but your subconscious mind is thinking about what society thinks is real. So that adds a whole 'nother aspect to the mix. Whereas, the average person is just trying to shapeshift into something that every part of his mind knows is real, like a bear or a cat.

I also want to clear up some confusion about 3D and shapeshifting. I think that at the very beginning of 3rd density, something like shapeshifting was extremely possible and even possible to do out in the open. But then, like in the middle of 3rd density is when it gets harder to be able to do something like that in front of other people. And 4D also allows us to go back to being able to do something like that, but you have to remember that we're sharing this Earth with a lot of people who are at a lower 3rd density level. So that consciousness of people who are at a lower light level is holding back the true possibilities of what humanity is capable of. Just something important that I think needed clarification.
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It's going to be even more tricky because I want to look like this. I don't know how biologically I could get a cartoon look. But I'd probably be more realistic than this. 4D I believe will allow for cartoony looking beings.

[AnthroHeart]

I find it easier to do a heart energy exchange with my parallel self than to transform into him. I always welcome the loving feeling.

Earlier when I was focused on transforming, I felt a dense energy in my stomach area.

It could be harder at first to do something that doesn't feel natural. Maybe that's why you feel the dense energy there. But at the same time, you want to trust the actions that give you a positive feeling. I trust that, eventually, you'll figure out what you really want to achieve. Whether it's transformation or just a simple energy exchange from time to time. You might even go way beyond that. Life is a complete journey. Whether it's life here in 3rd density, in the afterlife or in a higher density. If I were you, I would just try to enjoy the journey. I think that a lot of people, when they reach those higher densities, they're going to be like, when I was there in 3rd density, why didn't I just enjoy the journey as much as I possibly could? And when those same people get to those higher densities, I'm pretty sure that, when they reach the level of being a higher self, they're going to send energies to their 3rd density self that encourages that self to simply enjoy the journey, no matter what the circumstances of that 3rd density self. Just enjoy the little pockets of positivity that you find. No one's life is really as bad as all that. We're not living on an Earth that's a complete and total hell planet. It's bad, but it's not that bad. There's always something good to find.

[AnthroHeart]

I can focus on the intent of shifting instead, but I don't see how that would accomplish anything.

I'm glad that you mentioned this because I think that this is a very important thing. You're not really scrapping the idea of shifting. The intention of shifting is actually the absolutely wisest thing to do in your situation. The intention is something that helps prepare your mind to eventually be able to shift effortlessly. And that leads me beautifully into the next thing that you mentioned...

I also worry about the in between shift. There will be a long time where I'm in between human and anthro, a partial shift. I might look ugly and disfigured then. But I'll have to keep my confidence up. I haven't changed appearance yet. It starts internally I guess.

An in-between shift is absolutely something that you don't want to do, and what I'm talking about is not that at all. The first thing is the intention that prepares your mind to be able to shift. This intention of shifting should be the gentlest focusing ever. If you do it for an hour, it should be a very light focusing. This intention, I think, ideally should take years of preparing the mind. This stage helps you work out all the kinks, insecurities and blockages in your mind that prevent you from shifting. And after you've done the work of preparing your mind for years, the actual shifting into an anthro should be so effortless that it would be like putting a hot knife to butter. If you truly do put years of work into this, you should be able to slip in and out of your anthro self, effortlessly. Ideally, it should be as easy as breathing. And it should ideally be easier to control than your breath.

[AnthroHeart]

Oh noes, not another 3D incarnation.

Unless I don't have to work, then it would be swell.
And I don't get murdered.

Gemini Wolf...

You do realize that you're posting on a Law of One forum, right? And you also realize that the title beneath your username is "Wanderer of the 8th density Logos", right? Have you processed the fact that you have more than 10,000+ posts on a Law of One website - and that many of your threads are very inquisitive and intelligently articulated inquiries into the Law of One and its subordinate facets?

You've won the game of life, my friend.  :idea: :exclamation:

Oh, and look at that... your post which I'm quoting was made...

18 minutes ago. (Now 21 minutes. See? 18, 21. One infinite, two one.)

Negate your anxiety, worries, doubts and nervousness. You've got it right this time around, you're not getting left behind, you're not forsaken in any shape, form or fashion, and you're a beautiful soul who has already paved its way to metafreedom. Rejoice! - for you are victorious.

[Raz]

Cool synchronicity, today when I was out walking I received; "from this point it matters not where you are or what you do, you will come to the same place when you are through."
Perhaps that message was 4r u 2 Gemini =)

[AnthroHeart]

Cool synchronicity, today when I was out walking I received; "from this point it matters not where you are or what you do, you will come to the same place when you are through."
Perhaps that message was 4r u 2 Gemini =)

Maybe, but that's like saying 100% completion is 100% completion. So it is a tautology.

[AnthroHeart]

Can you expand upon the Law of One in a little more philosophical detail than what Ra did here? As if the questioner had said yes.

Ra: I am Ra. Consider, if you will, that the universe is infinite. This has yet to be proven or disproven, but we can assure you that there is no end to your selves, your understanding, what you would call your journey of seeking, or your perceptions of the creation.


That which is infinite cannot be many, for many-ness is a finite concept. To have infinity you must identify or define that infinity as unity; otherwise, the term does not have any referent or meaning. In an Infinite Creator there is only unity. You have seen simple examples of unity. You have seen the prism which shows all colors stemming from the sunlight. This is a simplistic example of unity.

In truth there is no right or wrong. There is no polarity for all will be, as you would say, reconciled at some point in your dance through the mind/body/spirit complex which you amuse yourself by distorting in various ways at this time. This distortion is not in any case necessary. It is chosen by each of you as an alternative to understanding the complete unity of thought which binds all things. You are not speaking of similar or somewhat like entities or things. You are every thing, every being, every emotion, every event, every situation. You are unity. You are infinity. You are love/light, light/love. You are. This is the Law of One.

May we enunciate this law in more detail?

http://www.lawofone.info/results.php?s=1#7

This is a very poetic way of stating that you are Intelligent Infinity.

13.12 Questioner: Could you tell me how intelligent infinity became, shall we say (I’m having difficulty with some of the language), how intelligent infinity became individualized from itself?

Ra: I am Ra. This is an appropriate question.

The intelligent infinity discerned a concept. This concept was discerned due to freedom of will of awareness. This concept was finity. This was the first and primal paradox or distortion of the Law of One. Thus the one intelligent infinity invested itself in an exploration of many-ness. Due to the infinite possibilities of intelligent infinity there is no ending to many-ness. The exploration, thus, is free to continue infinitely in an eternal present.

Thus, we each are an individualization of intelligent infinity. We are an infinity within infinity. However, what does Ra say about intelligent infinity in terms of what it actually is?

13.5 Questioner: Thank you. Can you tell me of the earliest, first known thing in the creation?

Ra: I am Ra. The first known thing in the creation is infinity. The infinity is creation.

13.6 Questioner: From this infinity then must have come what we experience as creation. What was the next step or the next evolvement?

Ra: I am Ra. Infinity became aware. This was the next step.

13.7 Questioner: After this, what happened?

Ra: Awareness led to the focus of infinity into infinite energy. You have called this by various vibrational sound complexes, the most common to your ears being “Logos” or “Love.” The Creator is the focusing of infinity as an aware or conscious principle called by us as closely as we can create understanding/learning in your language, intelligent infinity.

13.8 Questioner: Can you state the next step?

Ra: The next step is still at this space/time nexus in your illusion achieving its progression as you may see it in your illusion. The next step is an infinite reaction to the creative principle following the Law of One in one of its primal distortions, freedom of will. Thus many, many dimensions, infinite in number, are possible. The energy moves from the intelligent infinity due first to the outpouring of randomized creative force, this then creating patterns which in holographic style appear as the entire creation no matter which direction or energy is explored. These patterns of energy begin then to regularize their own local, shall we say, rhythms and fields of energy, thus creating dimensions and universes.

First I would point out that Ra says that infinity is only the first known thing in existence and as such seem to suggest there is perhaps more that was unknown, but this is besides the point.

Next infinity became aware, there is no explanation given as to how it became aware, perhaps that was just inherent in it since it is infinite. Then, awareness less to infinity focusing, this focus creates energy, an infinite amount. We describe this focusing as Love or Logos. The bold part is the key thing as this is where Ra precisely says what intelligent infinity and the Creator IS.

Thus, the Creator is Intelligent Infinity focusing upon itself. Through this focus it causes potentials to become kinetic, as explained here.

27.5 Questioner: It is not necessary to divide it. The definition of intelligent infinity as one part is sufficient. Could you please now define intelligent infinity?

Ra: I am Ra. This is exponentially simpler and less confusing. There is unity. This unity is all that there is. This unity has a potential and kinetic. The potential is intelligent infinity. Tapping this potential will yield work. This work has been called by us, intelligent energy.

The nature of this work is dependent upon the particular distortion of free will which in turn is the nature of a particular intelligent energy or kinetic focus of the potential of unity or that which is all.

Thus, the Creator has two measures of itself - potential and kinetic, this is the spectrum or the duality through which energy is created. Infinite potential yields infinite kinetic energy. Energy is the medium through which the Creator first experiences many-ness for it is the Primum Mobile, the first motion. The first motion is created by the freedom of will of awareness which established free will when infinity became aware. The second then is the focusing of the freedom of will upon finity, thus entering an exploration of many-ness infinitely in an eternal present.

So, I think you have to look at the entirety of the quote. What Ra is saying, as I first stated, is that each is Intelligent Infinity. In this they are referring to a something which is beyond identity, it is referring to the very beingness which is at the root of everything because in unity there is infinity.

However, you have to remember what the Creator does and is doing. It is in an exploration of finity, many-ness. So you are an individualization of the Creator, Intelligent Infinity, exploring itself as an finite being through an infinite present.

This is a poetic way of saying that you can do anything, be anything, go anywhere and see all that you will, for you have infinite potential, for you are infinity, if you but choose to see it.

It is an expression of the infinite potential for exploration.

So what are you going to do with that from this point? You are still in an exploration of many-ness and finity, oh Creator. Tell me, what have you found out about yourself here in finity?

[AnthroHeart]

Perhaps you are an anthro experiencing human form?

[AnthroHeart]

I used to think about this when I was suicidal. It seems that entities like Ra and some others see earth as a "place of learning". But we don't have any option other than "to learn", do we? Even after death, we have no option but to reincarnate again and again until we have suffered / learned enough to rise to upper densities. If we don't have to option of "dropping out" of this "school", then would it not be more appropriate to call it a prison?

I remember that one time, I wanted not only to die, but cease to exist. I still wonder if such an option is available which allows our self-awareness to "dissolve" back into the Creator. Otherwise it would appear that we're prisoners with no way out.

Actually, i have a different understanding.  After death, you choose whether you incarnate, and if you don't want to reincarnate again  you don't have to. But know this, after this life you undergo spiritual healing.  All of your hurts and frustrations are healed in their entirety.  After this period of rejuvenation, you don't fear incarnating again.  You feel like you could handle anything.  Also, while it may sound great remaining in the spirit world, trust me, stagnation will eventually lead you to physically incarnate again.  And you won't look at it like some kind of prison sentence but rather, a wondrous opportunity to take advantage of.

Believe it or not, there are some souls that are not suited for individuality, or even incarnation on physical worlds. These souls progress through other means, such as assisting incarnated beings. This is how they progress. Physical incarnation, while more difficult, provides more efficient catalyst, and allows for much faster progression. It is a short cut, if you will, to the ultimate destination.

[AnthroHeart]

Is desiring to spread love via green-ray a noble goal? Can it be the ultimate fulfillment of an individual?

What do you feel when you say "Yes" to those questions?

It makes me tremble inside. Like it is so meaningful to me.
I've fallen short so many times.
It is all I can do.

Though I use my indigo ray sometimes, I don't have control over it like I do with green-ray love.

I think I can do my best to be worthy of the unconditional love that ET beings give to us.

Can I really show them the love that they show us?

They know nothing but unconditional love. So it is easy for them. But not so easy  for me.
but then again it is natural for me to show green-ray love.

I think you know the answer. "Yes". Say that word to yourself when you think of your desire to love. Maybe you have fallen short but you can choose now to say "Yes".

[AnthroHeart]

Time scales according to size remember, so billions of years is perceptively perhaps not as 'long' as it seems to us.

[AnthroHeart]

So the artwork and cartoons that I admire will still be around in 4D? Are we sure about that? And even more?

All what you like in 3th will be reality in 4th. No gadgets, no tv's, it will be a reality, so beautiful. We can't imagine that.

How do you know that what we love will be there?

Actual biological entities instead of drawings?

It's your desire, your vibration. You will be the Creator in a fourth density environment.

[AnthroHeart]

Is the story any better with me? Was I tricked into negative polarity in a previous life, or have I always been positive?

My friend, your greatest demon is self-doubt. No entity has always been either polarity.

[AnthroHeart]

What if you came here to learn to love what you usually are not?

It would be counter-intuitive so probably very true.
I am here to love All That Is.

Picture your higher self as that which cannot attain the Light himself and as such you came here in order to bring yourself closer to it.

Closer to the Light of 7D ?

Yes, there is ressitance to that Light which needs to be worked on prior to entering it. That is what we all are doing, what we always have been doing as we grew in awareness.

[AnthroHeart]

From my perspective you seem to indulge and welcome thoughts that aren't in harmony with your growth and expansion. It is apparent you are dealing with a heck of a lot of mental catalysts (mental illness) and I can sympathize with the difficulties you face. I do think you don't take yourself seriously enough. That doesn't mean being hard on yourself or feeling guilty, but understanding and accepting the very important role you have here on Earth as the unique expression of the Creator you are.


I think at some point you could find use in applying some form of mental discipline such as:

Setting aside 1 minute of each day to affirm only good thoughts about yourself. Heres an example:

Repeat the mantra: I am clear minded, I am loving, I am grounded. - over and over again. For this one minute only let these words into your mind. Just one minute of the many minutes of your day! Surely this is something you are capable of Gemini. At your own pace, if you desire, increase the time each day, week, or month- whatever works best for you. If not just set aside that one minute each day- set a timer.  Even if you don't feel it in your heart just letting these words fill your mind is already a step forward. Eventually you will feel the meaning and truth behind the words and you will let in so much Love that your guides and the angels share with you. They are always with you, you have to open yourself up to them to feel it. It won't simply happen to you. Why? when your attention is focused on lack these thoughts can block the communication and love they share with you. This is the nature of Free Will. They are ever patiently waiting for you Gemini. You are such a beautiful dear soul. You have blessed this Earth and the people on these forums with your incredibly deep, unique and sincere expression. You are a dear soul and there is so much love for you Gemini.

 You may not feel any positive affects the first day of doing these mantras, the second, the third or fourth...but know it is having effect. The reason it may take a while to feel the positive effects is because you have built illusory structures in the mind that need to slowly come down....but stick with it! That one minute each day; And each time you do this, you will get stronger, more clear, and more balanced and closer to feeling the Love that you are and is ever around you. You have inner help Gemini, let them help you...release yourself into their arms and let them heal you and nurture you.

I have quite the journey ahead of me; I am far from being fully balanced but I share with you what has helped me and continues to help me. I too deal with mental health challenges. We all have our ups and downs. Hopefully you don't feel down all the time as there is no need and regardless of what challenges face you, you are capable of feeling true peace and happiness with yourself and your life. If there's anything you have questions about or anything I can help you with or if you just feel like sharing your thoughts and feelings one on one- don't hesitate to shoot me a pm. I am here for you to support your spiritual growth and expansion.

[AnthroHeart]

IGW - then you need to learn to love yourself - feeling uneasy with others is intrinsically linked to lacking self worth.

Send that love you send out to the Universe to your self too :¬)

[Lighthead]

The things you quote crack me up. This is like your treasure chest.

[AnthroHeart]

I just want to reunite with God or Source. Be one again. I'm tired of illusion and duality, and lack of love.

I do think love never is lacking, more like distorted.

[AnthroHeart]

I believe it was Seth who stressed that you get what you think you will get when you die. When we first pass on, the veil drops and our immediate thoughts create the immediate reality so much more vividly than we are used to. If we think we will be alone, we will be alone (for a time). If we believe our guides will be there, the guides will be there. If we think we are going to a beautiful heavenly vista, boom, What Dreams May Come! If we think we are going to hell, we will experience "going to hell".... again though, only for a short time, because eventually we realize what is going on. But that initial transition to the afterlife can be as sweet or sour as we think or want it to be.

Those who are totally balanced and ready will just ascend to their home density. Those who need a hand or two will definitely have them, in abundance. If you got the impression that Ra said we walk the steps of light alone, I'm sure Ra meant that we walk the steps of light as our singular spark of the Creator, and our own freewill signature. Stressing the importance of our choice after having wandered to 3D. But we do nothing alone, we just have the illusion of being alone as one of the interesting experiences of 3D.

[AnthroHeart]

From my point of view, you always have a "new template" in the works.  Your "higher self" is really just you, in a relatively resistance free state of time/space.  It is "you in the future".  As your future projection, its function as your analog self is to hold the vibrational template for the new and improved furthest expansion of your self.  In this way, it works as your guide, by offering an "ideal pattern" for you to entrain to.  

So every time you come to a new conclusion or preference, it immediately rides that impulse to its probable conclusion, and adds that preference to the probable reality.  It amends it every time you reach a new preference.  Of itself, it is beyond desire, but it exists as a guiding point for the space/time analog.  It lives that reality vibrationally, and acts almost like a "bookmark" for that point in space and time.  It functions as a vibrational compass, and your emotions are your translation of proximity to its template reality.  This is what is meant in the power of "following your bliss".  The whole reason you perceive anything as "bliss", emotionally speaking, is because it is approaching the vibrational template that your higher self has adopted.  The feeling of self joining self results in metaphysical joy, as you tune yourself to the frequency it is holding.

Where "letting go" fits into the mix is that it equals the surrender of your current white knuckle grip of focus on your current reality, and allows your focus to drift closer to what is wanted.  As this focus is relaxed, you experience emotional release because you are focusing less contradictory energy relative to your desires.  As the will is released, your focus will tend to naturally recoalesce towards the vibrational perspective of your higher self.

Another way to think of it is simply: the reality you desired was created the very moment you desired it, by your higher self.  You just have to tune to the higher self which is just finding the same thoughts it has found relative to the desire, which you are naturally inclined to do because the thoughts "feel good" and make you happy.  So really, all "conscious creation" is more a matter of "releasing resistance" rather than trying to "intend reality to morph".  

If there were no resistance, the reality would automatically come about.

Thank you anagogy for the advice. I never new the higher self already created my desired reality.

If I am correct, letting go is still a thought, because I see that truth in my mind.

I am releasing resistance for sure, because I can feel the actual resistance.

Now, should I seek my higher self, or work just on releasing resistance?

Letting go is more of "letting go of thought".  When you release thought, you release your hold on the old reality.  So meditation is a good way to release resistance.

When thought is released, your conscious focus naturally floats up, like a cork in water, to a less resistant place.  This just happens to be the focus of thought your higher self has already acquired.  As the larger part of you, the higher self is like the anchor your consciousness naturally drifts towrad when will is released.  Are there less resistant places than this?  Sure.  But they are beyond your higher self, and are beyond the focus of "self" in general.  That would be some 8th density/enlightenment/shedding ego stuff.    

Seeking your higher self *IS* releasing resistance (from the perspective of ego).  They are one in the same.

Letting go is the best. I'm glad you've learned that skill now, Gem!! Another one of my favorites in the same vein is the "acceptance" meditation: Taking 10 deep breaths where you just accept everything as it is in the moment as perfect. It creates an awesome change in consciousness afterwards.

I believe thoughts won't really manifest without intention behind them. I become an observer of the reality that "I" am in. And who is this I?

I used to focus a lot on what I wanted. Even put emotion behind it. My subconscious/higher self/guides know exactly what I want, so I let them take care of the how. Well, it's really the Universe that's doing the work.

I'm sort of working with a template that represents my ideal reality. The template is like a blueprint. It exists, and if I just let go and let the reality shift, I will find it will have minimal resistance.

I was beginning to feel resistance in the shifting realities. I'll be excited to see where this goes.

For me it's 90/10. 90% letting go, and 10% focusing on reality I desire.

Two keys to this: Effortless intention, and unconditional surrender. I like to imagine I am my chakras expressing this intention. See how far you can take it Gem!! I love thought experiments.

This one in particular definitely awakens the beginnings of the christ-self.

Have you ever balanced on a narrow ledge? The key is to let your gravity just kind of sink in to it, you have to relax and let go. It's like doing this but with your mind.

http://www.bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=11645

[AnthroHeart]

Conjuring (not just "visualizing") light is extremely important, and under-appreciated by nearly everyone, even amongst this august body.  I suggest deep meditation, during which you concentrate on filling your body with brilliant white/iridescent light.  This isn't easy--it takes much effort--but it is worth all the effort it takes you.  The discipline you will find it necessary to develop, in order to accomplish this, will open many doors for you. 

All serve the One Creator. There is nothing else to serve, for the Creator is all that there is. It is impossible not to serve the Creator.

Are all desires out of ego?

Do we still have ego when we pass on?

I heard in an audio book that in the afterlife we get the form we desire, if it isn't out of ego.
If the desired form is not out of ego, it is granted.

I don't know if my strong desire to be anthro is out of ego or not.
It feels more like a fulfillment.

Egos are like layers of an onion.  You have egos within egos within egos.  Shortly after death your outer ego is shed, but you have your inbetween lives ego that keeps going, and retains some of the aspects of the physical life ego.

An ego is basically a circumscribed area of consciousness, an identity.

All desires emanate from ego because you only desire things that you have identified as apart from you.  If you didn't you see yourself of separate, desire would be impossible.

[AnthroHeart]

I told a lady that we were all God, and forgot to mention that we are multidimensional which explains why we're not "perfect" here. I thought that God wasn't perfect.

The "imperfections" are just imagined.  They were imagined so that we might have the experience of growth.  You have to pretend you are undeveloped to have the experience of development.

So for the purpose they were intended, the "imperfections" were deliberate, and therefore perfectly serving their intended function.

Our real nature is omniscient, omnipotent, and omnipresent across time and space.  It is perfect peace, love, and utterly still and undistorted.  

http://www.bring4th.org/forums/showthrea...#pid193526

I also want to talk with angels and hear them speaking to me. I guess it takes practice.

Practice develops faith and will. Faith is the key to the indigo ray. Will is the key to the yellow/green/blue rays.

[AnthroHeart]

I like this history. It covers the Merkaba. It's part of the Spirit Science series.

It's based on the workings of Drunvalo Melchizedek who was contacted by Thoth.

It also mentions Ra.

[Aion]

I've done all the Merkaba activation stuff. I was invited to be a teacher for his teachings but didn't feel it was my calling.

[AnthroHeart]

I'm looking to activate my Merkaba. It allows you to travel the universe, and offers protection.
There was a time in Earth where there was an electromagnetic void, and 3 days of darkness,
and everyone's memory was wiped because they didn't have a Merkaba to protect them.

You got any good sources on how to activate it and any cautionary notes?

He also talked about synthetic merkabas, and that an out of control merkaba (one without love)
can rip open dimensions.

But the merkaba you make through breathing is natural.

It is supposed to let you meet your higher self.

I'm trying this one here: http://www.greatdreams.com/merkaba.htm

[Aion]

Honestly? Find a teacher. Self-initiation is ripe with so many pitfalls it is better, in my opinion, to go to someone with experience. I used to be someone who thought everything was better done by myself, but I have grown more with my few teachers than I ever did on my own.

[AnthroHeart]

Honestly? Find a teacher. Self-initiation is ripe with so many pitfalls it is better, in my opinion, to go to someone with experience. I used to be someone who thought everything was better done by myself, but I have grown more with my few teachers than I ever did on my own.

I contacted the hypnotist that trained me, and she referred me to another lady who does angel readings. She talks with angels. I am waiting for her to contact me back. I'm not sure how much it's all going to cost.