Eternal Services - Closed

[Parsons]

I feel like it is childish to behave as though I were throwing a tantrum... I'm also a really big guy and I have seen fear in the eyes of others in my physical presence. I guess I'm afraid someone might see me yelling and beating up a pillow or whatever even if I was home alone... Although now that I'm saying that it sounds kind of silly to think that.

[Unbound]

Have you ever done any work with your inner child?

[Parsons]

No... I suppose I keep myself in such rigid control that I have shut him out. How can I express that?

[Unbound]

Well, a good first step is to go back in to your memory and connect with your child self. See what he was feeling, what his dreams and ideals were, what he saw in the world. Look through your life and try and see when or where you decided it was time to "put him away".

[Free Spirit]

Hey Tanner,
just want to say thanks for the work that you have done for me. I think it was about a year ago that you did the re fragmentation
of my consciousness. After about a year of hard work, I'm proud to say that I've been off abilify and my high blood pressure meds for about a month. Despite growing pains that come with releasing all the negativity, I'm doing well!!
It's like a fog has been lifted, and I can see again!
Thanks again, friend.

[Unbound]

Hey Tanner,
just want to say thanks for the work that you have done for me. I think it was about a year ago that you did the re fragmentation
of my consciousness. After about a year of hard work, I'm proud to say that I've been off abilify and my high blood pressure meds for about a month. Despite growing pains that come with releasing all the negativity, I'm doing well!!
It's like a fog has been lifted, and I can see again!
Thanks again, friend.

Awe, that warms my heart, it's comments like these that make all the effort worthwhile. I am so glad you are doing well and have grasped a greater part of your own potential, I look forward to seeing your continued growth.

[Free Spirit]

thank you for that Tanner. Likewise, I can't wait to see who I shall become when the it is all said and done.
Thanks again man.

[Unbound]

It really has been such a pleasure being able to work with everyone I have had the opportunity to work with here. There have been a lot of interesting and special experiences. I'm glad to be able to offer these services and I hope that in time to be able to offer more.

At this point in time, I must confess I could use some aid myself, as with the Yule season about there is some money stress trying to keep on top of everything while also taking time off for visiting with family so if anyone has it in their hearts and would not be harmed by doing so it would be so appreciated if any financial assistance could be offered. (There is a link in the first post of the thread. ) Thank you.

Also, I am considering doing a service whereby I will 'call down' a symbol in the Language of Light to be used specifically by whomever requests one. The idea would be to generate a symbol which is a personalized concentration of the most deep desires of the individual which can be used as an object of meditation, contemplation or as a mantra (as the symbols often come with 'names'). Custom, personalized symbols could be fun and useful, no? You tell me, folks.

[Unbound]

(Thanks, folks... )

[Parsons]

I was having moderate panic attacks most of the day today. The latest one I had was fairly severe. This time, I just didn't have any fight left in me. I couldn't stem the waves of panic; I just couldn't stand feeling like that anymore. I started becoming very upset. I had an unbelievably powerful emotional breakdown; I just completely lost it emotionally. I wept like a toddler having a meltdown. I felt very good afterwards and I even wept with joy a little. I am now feeling the first symptoms of panic again, however.

So, I keep coming back to the question: which is the chicken and which is the egg? (Are the physical symptoms causing the attacks or vice versa?)

I'm not sure if you are capable of 'seeing' physical ailments, but the only panic attack triggers I have been able to identify are upper back pain and stomach/solar plexus discomfort combined with a feeling of disconnection with my body. I can't tell if those two ailments are something physically wrong triggering the attacks, or if my mind is causing the physical symptoms. I would love to rule out physical dis-ease if those symptoms are caused by my panic attacks. So if you are capable, I would appreciate you scanning my stomach for an ulcer and scanning my upper spinal column for some kind of issue (in between my shoulder blades). If you are not capable or are otherwise unable to do that, I appreciate the consideration regardless.

If the physical symptoms are being caused by the attacks, I am at a complete loss as to why I am having them. I have followed most of the suggestions made to me in this thread as both preventative measures and to cope when having an attack. The preventative measures are difficult to guage in how effective they really are. I can say all methods, whether suggested here, modern psychology coping mechanisms such as EMDR, or methods I have devised, are usually only 5-10% effective when having a full blown attack.

That is the primary reason it is so frightening to me and why it really got to me today. There is literally no escape. Meditation, sleep, laying down in a dark quiet place, listening to classical or favorite music, watching a favorite movie or TV show, playing a videogame I really enjoy, performing the microcosmic orbit, reciting mantras, clearing chakras, going for a walk, going for a drive, using a back massager, laying on my back on the floor, masturbation, drinking cold water, energy visualization, rationaling nothing is physically wrong wit me... I've tried literally everything I can think of and it very rarely helps. Many of the coping mechanisms listed will sometimes make the attack worse.

My attacks seem to be increasing in frequency. So I am here again reaching out for help/healing/insight. Thanks for reading.

[Unbound]

Hmm, I don't really have the accuracy long distance to say whether or not you have any particular physical issue. Alas, I can't really do that kind of diagnosis.

I keep getting the words "tension, resistence" in my head. You said that you felt better after crying and having an emotional release, but then later the panic started to come back again. After your release, did you go right back to the other extreme of emotional control? My thought is perhaps emotional release needs to be a more consistent kind of thing, and you are probably releasing large amounts of emotions suppressed in your life. I can tell you from my own experience that it can take a long time to release and clear that out, especially after a life-times of the same habits.

I experience pain and tension in the exact same area you describe and actually in many cases I trace the charge back to other individuals so that is another possibility, that you are picking up energy from others and resisting to it.

The sensation I'm feeling is energy trying to travel from the solar plexus, to the heart, and through the throat, but the energy doesn't get released from the solar plexus, it gets caught rather than being expressed and released from the system. What do these areas mean to you? What do they correlate with in your mind?

[AnthroHeart]

Is the goal of everything to be ok with where we are at now? Can we be more ok with where we are at?

Not to really try striving for something different.

[Unbound]

Is the goal of everything to be ok with where we are at now? Can we be more ok with where we are at?

Not to really try striving for something different.

Well, I think that you can maybe look at it beyond the need for goals and purpose and more directly ask yourself, are you okay with where you are at? If so, then you have already answered your question.

Being at peace with where you are at is like being a rock sinking in to a lakebed. You will surely settle and not much more, but you will always sink a little deeper and move a little gradually from the movement of the lake. Can you be "more ok"? I'm not sure, but I know that peace is something that gradually settles and deepens the more it is experienced.

I think more important than worrying about whether not 'being ok' is 'right', focus on the feeling of being ok.

[AnthroHeart]

I am ok with where I am at. I am not sure if I'll be more ok when I am back in 5D or 6D. Through this viewpoint I'm not sure if I'll find enlightenment. I don't think enlightenment is something you strive for.

[Unbound]

I don't think enlightenment is something that happens or an event. I think enlightenment is a process. We are always in the process of enlightenment. We can always touch and work with more love and light, until we unify with infinity.

Consider that contentment with where you are is entirely contextual. If you are ok here, and ok there, that is fine. The state of being "ok" is the same contentment either way.

[AnthroHeart]

Even thought I got to go shopping today (something I don't really like), I'm feeling pretty good today.

[Unbound]

Try to enjoy it for today, perhaps?

[Parsons]

I keep getting the words "tension, resistance" in my head. You said that you felt better after crying and having an emotional release, but then later the panic started to come back again. After your release, did you go right back to the other extreme of emotional control? My thought is perhaps emotional release needs to be a more consistent kind of thing, and you are probably releasing large amounts of emotions suppressed in your life. I can tell you from my own experience that it can take a long time to release and clear that out, especially after a life-times of the same habits.

I think I did somewhat go back into that mode. Now that I have had time to intellectually process the incident, I visualize an extremely dense ball of trapped emotional energy being released. As soon as I had released a large amount, I felt that I (mostly) returned to clamping it off but was able to stick my foot into the door and leave it somewhat open. I slept extremely well last night and when I woke up and listened to music while showering, I felt a colorful palette of emotions as each song came on instead of the usual gray scale. I can still feel a large mass of emotions that still needs to be expressed, but I can at least see its there now. I was also able to visualize new methods of managing my energy centers/conduits and was much more confident with my ability to adjust them.

I experience pain and tension in the exact same area you describe and actually in many cases I trace the charge back to other individuals so that is another possibility, that you are picking up energy from others and resisting to it.

Would you suggest absorbing it, processing it, and releasing it for them or attempting to shield myself from the emotional charges? Or a combination of the two? I also had an interesting visualization of allowing some of the excess solar plexus energy travel up to my heart, then release it to the world and everyone in it, like a beacon or lighthouse. I'm not sure if that is a responsible way to process some of the energy or if I should hold on to it and let it continue to flow up to my throat/third eye/crown.

The sensation I'm feeling is energy trying to travel from the solar plexus, to the heart, and through the throat, but the energy doesn't get released from the solar plexus, it gets caught rather than being expressed and released from the system. What do these areas mean to you? What do they correlate with in your mind?

To me, the solar plexus is my thoughts of people I know in my life and society. My heart is the universal love and forgiveness (or lack thereof) those same people. My throat is honesty, wisdom, and open communication to those same people.

[Unbound]

I will answer your question all in one by saying that opening the chakras to the path of least resistance means creating a circulation between yourself and all things. Each energy has its own nature and essence. Does it feel like it needs to be released? Does it feel it needs to be transmuted upwards? Does it feel it needs to be moved to another center? The energy that makes up your being is highly intelligent and in fact is also friendly. Spend some time getting to know this energy, rather than simply seeing it as "that thing moving through you". The energy and your own personality are deeply intertwined.

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Note: "Negative" entities won't want to create a circulation, they want to create a one-way transfer as much as possible. Pro-tip for determining what kind of 'connection' or circulation you are making. if you notice energy leaving, but you are not 'giving' it, it may be a negative chord, which can be dissipated by consciously giving, thus creating a return to yourself, and therefore breaking the one-way.

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As for dealing with the energies of others, I have honestly found there is no singular way in which to deal with energy as each energy seems to have its own needs and wants in terms of how it is processed. Typically, I try to "use" the charge I have going through me.

[Unbound]

We are again closed as we are withdrawing from this space for a time.

[Diana]

 Isn't that a dichotomy? 

[Unbound]

Yin yields to yang, yang yields to yin.

[isis]

Yin yields to yang, yang yields to yin.

I just gave you your 6666th like.