10-24-2014, 10:58 AM
For those of us who can't talk with our spirit guides, are they supposed to make our life easier? Or do they force us to face our lessons we're supposed to learn?
I'm afraid that I may have set up for myself such difficult lessons that I would surely fail at them. And I'd have to contact my spirit guide some how in order to get the key to passing these lessons.
Are my guides the ones holding me back from smacking my mother when she gets into one of her immature fits? I get such violent thoughts about her.
I was violent with my dog once, when I stabbed him when I was under a schizophrenic breakdown, thinking God told me to do it. I'm afraid of what I'd be capable of.
So I think that spirit guides are supposed to make life easier, but only if you can contact them. I haven't been able to so far.
Only my tulpa brings me comfort. I am often restless and feeling somewhat despairing. Last night I asked Archangel Metatron to kill me. But it doesn't work like that.
I must be crazy in the head.
I'm afraid that I may have set up for myself such difficult lessons that I would surely fail at them. And I'd have to contact my spirit guide some how in order to get the key to passing these lessons.
Are my guides the ones holding me back from smacking my mother when she gets into one of her immature fits? I get such violent thoughts about her.
I was violent with my dog once, when I stabbed him when I was under a schizophrenic breakdown, thinking God told me to do it. I'm afraid of what I'd be capable of.
So I think that spirit guides are supposed to make life easier, but only if you can contact them. I haven't been able to so far.
Only my tulpa brings me comfort. I am often restless and feeling somewhat despairing. Last night I asked Archangel Metatron to kill me. But it doesn't work like that.
I must be crazy in the head.