Wanderer.. lost... and Wanderer again

[Horizon]

Greetings to all. I've been MIA so to speak for a year and wished to revisit the forums and share what has transpired in the last year. I've since had 2 seperate knee surgeries that refused to heal correctly (one of which landed me in the hospital with a deep vein blood clot). I also developed problems from a prior abdominal surgery, which has apparently disrupted my capacity to learn chakras.
Needless to say, I'm functionally disabled, but I accept this and will continue my service as best I can. I don't see it as disabling, more than a different path to the same objectives. If I have to drag myself out to my garden and keep it going, then so be it
I also went through a stage of agnosticism/athiesm after having to listen to cult ministry teachings from a family member. But I'm back now, and shall forevermore dwell in the light and love of the Creator.
Even though I still know that I'm a Wanderer, I've yet to discover my purpose, which gnaws at me from time to time. I vaguely recall my past incarnations. One from Venus, one from pre-apocalyptic Lemuria, and one in Egypt (I believe in that order). I met another whom I related a story from our past in the outskirts of Egypt. Haven't heard a word from her since.. I was called Ptah'Ruk (Taruk ?)(it comes to mind when I think of ancient Egypt). I only remember it during a brief childhood. Venus on the other hand, has always been a place that my heart wishes to 'return back to'. I've read a few books about Lemuria (Mu), and it seems more like present than past to me. Along with seeing what they interpret the glyphs to mean and thinking 'no, that's not what they mean'.
To this day I am still unable to astrally project or use psychic abilities, although I'm sure they were prevalent in the first 2 of my 3 incarnations. I can feel my hands tingle with energy constantly, so I feel I will be working in a healer capacity at some point, and I'm patient.
I've read many articles about the events of 2012 and the Ascension/Harvest/Transformation and I'm thrilled to know of it. I live in the country which is usually quite dark at night, yet as I look around the hilltops and mountaintops, I can see a faint glow that resembles the glow of city lights, but I know it is the Earth itself beginning to glow from the transition.
The first time I saw the movie Avatar (last week), I remember getting all tingly and thinking 'I've seen luminated landscape like that!... somewhere..'. I rarely ever watch TV, so I'm thinking I have been through a transition before and I liked it so much that I wanted to do it again. I also remember the bond they had with their homeworld, and I remember a deep emotion of 'longing for that life again'.

[Namaste]

Hi Horizon, thanks for sharing, and welcome back.

Only you can find out your specialised purpose, but from the sound of it, you may have already found it with healing.

Remember that one of the deepest purposes of all Wanderers if to be themselves, to radiate love, peace and harmony. Doing so it is the greatest gift of service at this time.

L&L

[Eddie]

For many wanderers, the mission is simply "to be". You help lighten the vibration of the world by your presence.

[Sorrun]

Greetings and a very warm welcome back, Horizon.

I also developed problems from a prior abdominal surgery, which has apparently disrupted my capacity to learn chakras.

If you do not mind me asking, why would that disrupted your capacity to learn/do chakra/energy work?

[Aaron]

Since this is the first time we've met, hello!! Glad to have you back.

[Horizon]

Greetings and a very warm welcome back, Horizon.

I also developed problems from a prior abdominal surgery, which has apparently disrupted my capacity to learn chakras.

If you do not mind me asking, why would that disrupted your capacity to learn/do chakra/energy work?

Hello
It was an umbilical repair and in the aftermath of the surgery I began developong an unusual amount of hard scar tissue inside an up towards the solar plexus. I'm thinking it has distorted a needed energy stream.

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Thank you all for your kind comments. I'm glad to be here. I may have figured out my purpose in healing, but I am inclined to think it is a STO capacity since I'm broken up pretty good. My guess it is more along the lines of spiritual/emotional healing. My hands tingle alot and my heart mostly seems to be warm and vibrant (sometimes feeling twice its size) although I am quite the hermit and not very social.
I'm just kinda hangin out waiting for 'the word'

[Namaste]

Have you tried using your hands on yourself? You might be surprised...

Give yourself 30 minutes a day to self heal. First thing in the morning after waking is a great time, as the body is already very relaxed.

Your yellow-ray energy center can be balanced regardless of the physical condition. In fact, in doing so, that may help the physical condition heal a lot faster (along with the core belief it can happen, of course). It sounds like your green-ray is open too, which is a strong indication that the yellow-ray is not blocked

[Horizon]

Have you tried using your hands on yourself? You might be surprised...

Give yourself 30 minutes a day to self heal. First thing in the morning after waking is a great time, as the body is already very relaxed.

Your yellow-ray energy center can be balanced regardless of the physical condition. In fact, in doing so, that may help the physical condition heal a lot faster (along with the core belief it can happen, of course). It sounds like your green-ray is open too, which is a strong indication that the yellow-ray is not blocked

Yes, I've tried my hands. I get pain flares in my knee and have gone straight to them with both hands. Makes it rather difficult to meditate or concentrate, as you could imagine I'll keep working on it though. Have a great weekend!

[WalksN2Worlds]

Not to worry, we will do this until we understand that our bodies are just a means to keep us from going where we need to go. A remembering. If we focus on our bodies, our spirt lacks.