Admission: I can't sleep in my bed at night nor in complete darkness.

[Adonai One]

I just sleep on the sofa in my family's living room, in my regular clothing. Not only that, I don't even go to bed at a normal hour. Even when I had a normal job, it was the night-shift. I go to bed at 5-in-the-morning and wake up at 10 or noon. My family doesn't even think I truly sleep at all because of this.

Why do I do this? Because I feel vulnerable while sleeping and I am scared of the dark. Yes, I know it's all the creator -- even the darkness -- but that does not cure this primal fear of mine. Even when I see things, I try to muster up all the acceptance and love I have but I still feel uncomfortable. Thus I take the easiest path and avoid sleeping in the dark. It's not a huge burden to live this way but I want to know this:

Is this something that spiritually needs to be resolved or is it just a primal quirk? Will I truly gain anything spiritually by forcing myself to sleep in darkness at night?

[Meerie]

I don't think it is something to worry about, why force yourself to sleep in complete darkness if it is something that makes you uncomfortable?
I for one cannot sleep when it is too light.
But why can't you sleep in your bed? you could leave a light on in your bedroom too or leave the shutters open so that there is no darkness?

[Adonai One]

I don't think it is something to worry about, why force yourself to sleep in complete darkness if it is something that makes you uncomfortable?
I for one cannot sleep when it is too light.
But why can't you sleep in your bed? you could leave a light on in your bedroom too or leave the shutters open so that there is no darkness?

My room is painted a dark grey and the window is blocked by a dresser I can't move without special equipment. I just can't make myself comfortable in it. Neither can I meditate in it. I guess I should just buy some paint. That might resolve the issue.

[Aureus]

Changing from the outside to the inside is one way to go about it.. But what is much safer and efficient is changing from the inside to the outside. It sounds like your higher centers are going too fast for the lower to follow. As always I will recommend meditation.

I'll quote a character I had in a dream last night: "When you meditate you notice the person you think you are is not the person you're carrying" Inside you're full of godly potential, which can be made real if only you give it a chance, not by forcing it, but by allowing it.

[Brittany]

Due to some things I saw as a child, I had this same problem for about 20 years. I couldn't sleep in complete darkness, nor with any of the doors in my room open. I would always try to get in bed with my parents, and when I got too old for that I would leave the bathroom light on or open my blinds so the street lights outside would shine in. When I moved into my own place I started hanging Christmas lights on the walls. Occasionally after a really bad nightmare I will still turn them on.

The way I got over it wasn't exactly fun. I got very depressed, to the point that I hit rock bottom and just wanted to die, or even to stop existing. I was so depressed and hopeless that I just didn't care if anything came out of my closet to get me. I laid in bed in the dark and dared anything that was there to show itself. At that point the devil himself could have come out of my closet and I wouldn't have batted an eye. Obviously I eventually came out of the depression, but after that my fear of the dark was greatly reduced and I had no problems leaving the lights off.

At a later point I decided to purposefully face the last of my lingering fear and just forced myself to go to sleep with all the doors in my room open (closet doors and main door). It made me VERY uncomfortable, but I decided it was time to confront that discomfort. Of course, nothing came out to get me. I was fine. Sometimes the only way to conquer a fear is to just dive into it headfirst.

***Edited for typo.

[Marc]

When I was young I had a great fear of the dark and looking out into my room. I would see very frightening demons and skeletons. Then one day I realized I was a child of God and asked God to protect me. It went away and I have no fear anymore. Fear is the unknown/darkness and love/light takes away all fear. Focus on the trust you have in your guides/higher self and if you wish to be free from fear you can be.

Later in my teenage years demons/negative entities told my friends how scared they were of me. I had no fear of them and only shed light on their weaknesses, I also exorcised a entity or two from some friends. Fear in my opinion is what makes us mortal and fearlessness makes us invincible.

[Ashim]

I already wrote about this in this thread.

Eliminating fear....

http://www.bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=4053

[xise]

I have a strange discomfort/fear with darkness. I think I have a strange discomfort/fear with my third eye opening.

I call it more of a discomfort rather than fear, because I just keep imagining I'm going to have the s*** startled out of me by suddenly seeing a ghost. I actually don't think I'd be too upset if a demon (or insert another horrible normally fear causing entity here) came to visit but gave me notice...

I just don't want to be startled lol

[Brittany]

I feel you on that, Xise. The thought of ghosts, demons, etc., doesn't scare me, but if one just popped up in front of me I would probably have an accident in my pants lol.

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I very rarely see non-physical things with my physical eyes, but when I was a little kid I slept with my door open one night and saw a ghost standing out in the hallway and it terrified me, even though it was in the form of a child and did nothing to harm me. Another time I watched my bed start shaking back and forth. Just the act of seeing something I knew I shouldn't be seeing was more scary than the thought of what was actually happening.

[Zachary]

My advice is to just feel the fear. Go into your room at night with the lights turned off and be afraid. Accept it. If you practice this on a consistently you will overcome you fear of the dark. It might seem difficult, but it doesn't have to be. All you must do is commit to feeling it fully and completely. Its one thing to be fearful, its another to fear being fearful. What are you REALLY afraid of?

[Horuseus]

It is useful to reinforce the notion of 'external' reality being a reflection in these circumstances in order to glean understanding. When your physical senses are deprived of the 'distraction' that one perceives as the 3D holographic projection it is then forced to look inward, for there is ultimately nowhere else to look. That being, the concept of 'external' was also born within the faculty of the mind, and what springs forth/you perceive is ultimately all within 'your' consciousness.

It is then not a question of what is 'out there' that the ego construct may find discomfort in facing but rather what is within that one fears.

The fear, as the member above stated, is not so much a fear of a 'thing' itself, but rather fear of facing fear. What you interact with can only be more of 'you', and as such is a fear of an aspect of the self. Again it is useful to understand just what 'fear' entails, for it is a moniker symbolizing the direct opposing definition of Love (Unconditional acceptance), and so it represents nonacceptance/rejection of an aspect of the self ('Failure' to accept is where the controlling aspect arises within those that follow the negative pole/path of evolution). It is in a sense a misalignment from the true nature of the Self and the awareness of Oneness it entails, and that which creates segregation will bring to fruition it's Human translation, the emotions you feel, fear.

As we follow the fractal branches of thought patterns it is apparent that the segregation is a 'as of yet unaccomplished task' to 're'-integrate those parts of the self which are now bursting forth to your consciousness pleading for attention. The fear is a culmination of suppressed aspects of the self over a period of what you may consider to be 'time' of variable trigger causes. Love these parts of the self, and thank them for they have provided the service of bringing to the surface of your attention that which required so. Know the fear will only ever bring more of the same, and that your reality will reflect these ideals, and so if it is not your preference you have the option to change that.

For a more 'practical' take on the above refer to the members above, with the addition of Meditation in order to probe your thought processes and follow the cause of the distortions your ego/ program has accepted; In time your neural patterns will rewire themselves. Face the darkness head on, thank it for bringing to surface that which required so.

Accept it, know it and love it.

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If you see that which do you not like, take special care to embrace and examine it and research that which you are seeing. Do not say, “Oh! That could not be me!” Rather, dig deep and find out, within yourself, which is the echo and the shadow of what you are seeing in the mirror of someone else or some relationship of which you have heard that horrifies you. Do not turn your back on that and say, “That could never be me!” Rather, find that portion of yourself that resonates with the dark side of that which you have seen, and bring that dark image of yourself up.

When you face the darkness within you, you can ask it to work for you. You can say, “I need you. I need you, anger. I need you, grief. I need you, all seemingly negative emotions, because I need to persevere. I need to keep going. And you are my grit. You are my resolve. You are the iron that strengthens my will and encourages me to return to my faith. Come with me on this journey. Let us, dark and light side, worship and love the one infinite Creator in its mystery.”

These actions will bring you ever more peace and serenity within yourself. As you acknowledge and embrace your imperfections and task them to help you be better and to help you become that which is ahead of you to become, what have you in mind to become if not that entity which is ever more polarized; more full of the love and the light of the one infinite Creator?

http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/is..._0408.aspx

[zenmaster]

Sooner you face yourself, the sooner you have the freedom it affords.

[Monica]

Is this something that spiritually needs to be resolved or is it just a primal quirk? Will I truly gain anything spiritually by forcing myself to sleep in darkness at night?

Ultimately, it's all spiritual, but honestly, sometimes we agonize over things unnecessarily. It could just be some simple little thing like your body clock being off. My chiropractor reset my body clock and that helped tremendously for me to be able to fall asleep!

There are 'blue ray' light boxes that help also. They're sold as jet lag devices. The protocol is to place the blue light at a certain angle early in the morning for the designated number of minutes, to reset the body clock.

You can accomplish the same thing by making a point to get up early and go outside in the Sunshine. Sure, you'll be running on low sleep that day, but it might help you get sleepy earlier that night.

Do you have any infected teeth or teeth with root canals? If so, that could be it right there. I suffered with extreme insomnia for about 15 years. Ionized water helped a lot, but not completely. My body clock kept getting out of whack and I kept having to go back to get it reset. Finally, I had a tooth extracted, that had had an infection all those years hiding behind an old filling, and guess what? For the first time ever, the chiropractor's technique of resetting my body clock held!

During those years that I had insomnia, I felt a sense of dread about going to sleep. I couldn't figure out why. Despite my prayers, meditation, etc. I felt like there was a creepy energy in the room.

Well, there was! It was in my own mouth!

What are infections, but little 2D nasties...parasites that higher STS entities can control to do their bidding. So whenever there is any sort of infection, it might not just be on a physical level. Why do we recognize from Ra that these little critters have consciousness, yet seem to forget that when there is a cold or flu going around, or when we have some sort of infection in our bodies?

So my suggestion is to first rule out any infections you may have. Secondly, get some Sunshine! And thirdly, goodness gracious, get some paint!! I don't think I could relax either in a grey room! How gloomy!

I suggest some pretty pastel color, like baby blue, pretty pink, sunshine yellow, lovely lavender, soft mint green...I'd strongly suggest staying away from 'Earth' colors such as beige, brown or grey. Or you could go with a bright white. But I would definitely paint that room asap! Oh and be sure to get 'semi-gloss' paint! We accidentally bought a can of 'flat' paint and it was soooo blah. We then realized why: the flat doesn't catch the light. So we absorbed the loss and bought the same color in semi-gloss. Wow, what a difference! We can see the light bouncing off the walls. What is in the light? Love Consciousness!

[Daydreamin]

I recommend getting outside and downloading as much Solar Energy from the Sun as possible.

This guy can explain it better........if you are impatient start it right before the 4:00 minute mark.

[becausewecan1212]

Been there, can def empathize with you. As with any fear, I realized that I had to face it head on. For me, this meant venturing outside in the early morning hours, with a flashlight for comfort, and going for a walk. This was a major accomplishment for me condsidering that I live with my parents in a fairly rural area, and it was very dark and at first I felt completely alone and vulnerable. But then I remembered that I am never seperated from the creator the presence is always there and always will be. This aha moment made all of the difference, knowing that god has my back no matter what was all I needed to feel at home in the dark. In time have no doubt that the night will be your friend as well-kind of look forward to it.

I just sleep on the sofa in my family's living room, in my regular clothing. Not only that, I don't even go to bed at a normal hour. Even when I had a normal job, it was the night-shift. I go to bed at 5-in-the-morning and wake up at 10 or noon. My family doesn't even think I truly sleep at all because of this.

Why do I do this? Because I feel vulnerable while sleeping and I am scared of the dark. Yes, I know it's all the creator -- even the darkness -- but that does not cure this primal fear of mine. Even when I see things, I try to muster up all the acceptance and love I have but I still feel uncomfortable. Thus I take the easiest path and avoid sleeping in the dark. It's not a huge burden to live this way but I want to know this:

Is this something that spiritually needs to be resolved or is it just a primal quirk? Will I truly gain anything spiritually by forcing myself to sleep in darkness at night?