Waking life becoming a psychadelic experience (without entheogens)

[AnthroHeart]

How do you define being awakened Minyatur?

Tuning in with my higher self, becoming it incarnated here on earth in awareness. 

Well that's half true, awakening did makes me realize you're never truly asleep.

Then I'm still asleep. Or partially asleep.
I am comfortable here.

Just cause I know about the Ra material doesn't awaken me.
I still have forgotten. Even if there really was things to forget.

[Indigo Light]

I can only remember vague things. Like the minute I rread Ra I knew it was right in many degrees. I mean I don't think there is an representation of the creator that has it all pinned down. I cant rem where I came from, only its not here. I only have one true ability, that I know I placed for myself to specifically have in this incarnation, and that is my inner compass or light. Even from a young age, I was aware of it. I have always let it guide me.

[Minyatur]

How do you define being awakened Minyatur?

Tuning in with my higher self, becoming it incarnated here on earth in awareness. 

Well that's half true, awakening did makes me realize you're never truly asleep.

Then I'm still asleep. Or partially asleep.
I am comfortable here.

Just cause I know about the Ra material doesn't awaken me.
I still have forgotten. Even if there really was things to forget.

I went on this forum while more awake. I was wondering if you either were toying with me in pretending to be asleep, or your higher self was toying with me despite being asleep. Hence the "never truly asleep".

None of your sentences are ever random and are always pinpoint what needs to be said.

[Indigo Light]

lolololol so many levels to the game. I also wonder if Gemini is toying or not. Asking a lot of questions he knows the answer to and such. Must be an anthros quality manifested through the veil.=)

[AnthroHeart]

But I never know what my higher self is thinking or doing.
I'm not that in tune with it.

I'm glad to hear that I'm not totally random.

[Minyatur]

I can only remember vague things. Like the minute I rread Ra I knew it was right in many degrees. I mean I don't think there is an representation of the creator that has it all pinned down. I cant rem where I came from, only its not here. I only have one true ability, that I know I placed for myself to specifically have in this incarnation, and that is my inner compass or light. Even from a young age, I was aware of it. I have always let it guide me.

I don't remember much outside of this earth, I have a vague notion that is hard to put into words of what this earth truly is and what the all truly is. Mostly it's like repeating the same things I've said while more asleep but while much more aware of what they imply.

One thing I can tell you is that self truly is irrelevant. You'll play your part while never having a choice in the matter, all you'll experience is awareness of the choices until this awareness reaches back Unity.  

Even the most STS entities never existed for themselves. They always existed solely for the All. That others may acquire awareness and understanding of what they incarnate as the One of Itself.

[AnthroHeart]

lolololol so many levels to the game. I also wonder if Gemini is toying or not. Asking a lot of questions he knows the answer to and such. Must be an anthros quality manifested through the veil.

I have never had a satisfying answer as to whether we're awake or not or what that even means.
It could just be being aware of greater reality. Or just knowing what it is.

I don't ask questions I really know the answer to.

[Indigo Light]

I personally think that you are highly random. Though I do agree that a lot of times you say what is needed.

[AnthroHeart]

I personally think that you are highly random. Though I do agree that a lot of times you say what is needed.

That's because I am spiritually immature to an extent. What others say doesn't truly "click". So I'm just guessing the best that I can.

[Minyatur]

But I never know what my higher self is thinking or doing.
I'm not that in tune with it.

I'm glad to hear that I'm not totally random.

You are your higher self asleep, but your higher self does interact with this reality through you simply while being unaware of it in a way. During my last mushroom trip you've said a lot of things that I was meant to hear at the moment. 

Tan spoke to me a bit of other Octaves but said that he couldn't speak much of them. Then I see a message you wrote about peeking into other Octaves and that they aren't truly isolated.

My thought was, nice try but no, ain't doing that.

[Minyatur]

I personally think that you are highly random. Though I do agree that a lot of times you say what is needed.

He's only random when it's directed to someone else.

[Indigo Light]

lolololol so many levels to the game. I also wonder if Gemini is toying or not. Asking a lot of questions he knows the answer to and such. Must be an anthros quality manifested through the veil.

I have never had a satisfying answer as to whether we're awake or not or what that even means.
It could just be being aware of greater reality. Or just knowing what it is.

I don't ask questions I really know the answer to.

I thought you did know the answer to them.

[Minyatur]

lolololol so many levels to the game. I also wonder if Gemini is toying or not. Asking a lot of questions he knows the answer to and such. Must be an anthros quality manifested through the veil.

I have never had a satisfying answer as to whether we're awake or not or what that even means.
It could just be being aware of greater reality. Or just knowing what it is.

I don't ask questions I really know the answer to.

Your higher self awareness would be very close to know that you are all things. You'd be aware that what you play is a given role as the One so that you may work on your own distortions while helping others with their own. 

All of your actions are answers to calls. Through answering these calls, you also are calling to yourself. Nothing is random.

[Minyatur]

lolololol so many levels to the game. I also wonder if Gemini is toying or not. Asking a lot of questions he knows the answer to and such. Must be an anthros quality manifested through the veil.

I have never had a satisfying answer as to whether we're awake or not or what that even means.
It could just be being aware of greater reality. Or just knowing what it is.

I don't ask questions I really know the answer to.

I thought you did know the answer to them.

A big part of his role include confusion, lots of confusion.

[AnthroHeart]

lolololol so many levels to the game. I also wonder if Gemini is toying or not. Asking a lot of questions he knows the answer to and such. Must be an anthros quality manifested through the veil.

I have never had a satisfying answer as to whether we're awake or not or what that even means.
It could just be being aware of greater reality. Or just knowing what it is.

I don't ask questions I really know the answer to.

I thought you did know the answer to them.

A big part of his role include confusion, lots of confusion.

So true. I don't sometimes know if I really know something or not.

[Indigo Light]

lolololol so many levels to the game. I also wonder if Gemini is toying or not. Asking a lot of questions he knows the answer to and such. Must be an anthros quality manifested through the veil.

I have never had a satisfying answer as to whether we're awake or not or what that even means.
It could just be being aware of greater reality. Or just knowing what it is.

I don't ask questions I really know the answer to.

I thought you did know the answer to them.

A big part of his role include confusion, lots of confusion.

hahahha agreed.

[AnthroHeart]

lolololol so many levels to the game. I also wonder if Gemini is toying or not. Asking a lot of questions he knows the answer to and such. Must be an anthros quality manifested through the veil.

I have never had a satisfying answer as to whether we're awake or not or what that even means.
It could just be being aware of greater reality. Or just knowing what it is.

I don't ask questions I really know the answer to.

I thought you did know the answer to them.

A big part of his role include confusion, lots of confusion.

hahahha agreed.

I believe my higher self relished confusion.

[Minyatur]

A big part of his role include confusion, lots of confusion.

So true. I don't sometimes know if I really know something or not.

Through this you are very helpful to others. You are the first one I came to really appreciate on this forum, you openned my mind in many ways  and set me on the course toward awakening.

Honnestly while more awake I felt that if I was fully awake, speaking with someone on this forum who is not awake would be perceived by me as the same as if they were awake. I know their higher selves and their higher selves can communicate with me even while being asleep. It's just in more subtle manners.

[AnthroHeart]

I appreciate that Minyatur.

[Minyatur]

A big part of his role include confusion, lots of confusion.

hahahha agreed.

I believe my higher self relished confusion.

Or he did not understand confusion so much and wanted to experience it.

My higher self did not know rest so much and wanted to experience it.

Our lives are mirrors unto ourselves.

[AnthroHeart]

A big part of his role include confusion, lots of confusion.

hahahha agreed.

I believe my higher self relished confusion.

Or he did not understand confusion so much and wanted to experience it.

My higher self did not know rest so much and wanted to experience it.

Our lives are mirrors unto ourselves.

That makes perfect sense.

When I once thought I was experiencing being the galactic Logos, I found no rest.

[Minyatur]

You remember your question about your higher self laughing?

That will be your higher self reaction toward being unveiled in awareness. A good laugh because your higher self goal is to understand all things and to become one with all things.

You will be glad to have lived this life as part of your experiences on your way toward Unity.

[AnthroHeart]

You remember your question about your higher self laughing?

That will be your higher self reaction toward being unveiled in awareness. A good laugh because your higher self goal is to understand all things and to become one with all things.

You will be glad to have lived this life as part of your experiences on your way toward Unity.

I'm sure I will.

But right now that makes me sad.

[Minyatur]

You remember your question about your higher self laughing?

That will be your higher self reaction toward being unveiled in awareness. A good laugh because your higher self goal is to understand all things and to become one with all things.

You will be glad to have lived this life as part of your experiences on your way toward Unity.

I'm sure I will.

But right now that makes me sad.

It'd be hard to be all things without ever being sad.

[Indigo Light]

Yea I understand that. I believe that momentary sadness to be worth the trajectory growth in the long run. I pmed u back minyatur

[Observer]

Think this thread went way off topic. But thanks for all the feedback guys.

[Minyatur]

To go back on rail, I do psychedelic drugs to crystalize the effect in my daily life, altough I can only retain a little bit of it each time.

When I go on B4 while on psychedelic drugs it becomes weird, it's as if the website keeps me from doing what I want sometimes, weird things happen. I also get a lot of resonance from certain usernames.

What I like most with the drug is that it enables me to have an empathic connection with the world around me which I don't sober. I haven't been able to retain this afterwards.

[Observer]

I can relate to this, mushrooms often give me that empathy as well. But its coming to a point now where I am spending so much time in meditation and deep thought/OBE (or what I think would be called OBE) that the time I spend in waking life is giving me this giant appreciation and gratefulness for ALL beings, even the stalks of wheat that grow ever so silently outside my home. I have planted much new life so far with the start of summer and nurturing even the smallest insects. I am very grateful that my eyes can be so open at this age (20).

[Minyatur]

I can't do OBE experiences at all. I'm already having a hard time recalling a few minutes of dreams each month, although this has been a good month in that aspect.

I do know what you mean but I can't feel it without mushrooms. While on mushrooms I can feel the needs of everything around me and the influences of my energies on everything around me as well as love for everything around me.

[Observer]

i've really learned to integrate my psychadelic experiences into waking life, I think it has a lot to do with the fact that when I was "tripping" i moved from the altered state gradually back to sobriety because I would go on sleep fasting where I would buy 1 oz of psylo's, and gradually eat the whole oz over a 4-5 day period, and allow myself to come back to reality after each individual experience, then after I felt comfortably rooted back, id eat them again to provoke another journey, this definitely helped me find a lot of progress very quick, and has also given me no negative side effects, it allowed me to find that moment of grounding, and integration before the next journey. But now, I haven't used psychadelics in 4 months, and I haven't smoked marijuana in 3-4 weeks. I've been drinking lots of tea and doing 3 daily meditations, one with the sun, one with myself, and one with the moon. and each time it allows me to integrate the divine feminine, the divine masculine and the divine self.