07-09-2022, 11:26 AM
(06-10-2022, 08:32 AM)IndigoSalvia Wrote: Quite often I do/think/say things that I later second-guess. Given the opportunity, I apologize, clarify, etc.
I am so far from "100% positive thoughts" that aspiring toward that goal feels too big and unrealistic for me personally.
I feel more comfortable aspiring toward love and acceptance moment by moment, when my awareness settles upon it. And it is a practice, trying to build a habit, I suppose.
I have recently meditated on why I act from fear, anger, scarcity, etc. when another part of me "knows" that love, understanding, abundance is an option as well.
I've had both experiences -- fear and love -- and choosing love feels sooo much better, simpler, easier. Then, why do I still choose fear, anger, etc. in the moment?
It still has something to teach me, I guess. My aspiration is simply to bring my awareness to love as quickly as I can, whether that's in the moment or after it. For me, it's slowing way down and breathing in love, intentionally.
I have a teenager who is figuring out his own person by "pushing" against me. Lots of catalyst. Lots of opportunities for us to practice.
I very much relate to the problem of "unruly thoughts". It's certainly part of the human condition in 3rd density. My spiritual director suggested that I try a certain "switchword" on for size.
The technique is simple. When I experience "unruliness", I say "CANCEL CANCEL CANCEL CANCEL" and then let my mind just relax, no more "trying". Wow, it worked! Can't hurt! Give it a try and see if you get a positive result.
The concept of "switchwords" is well known in spiritual writings. The idea is that somehow these ultra simple "self commands" bypass the "left brain analytical system" and go directly to the non-discursive but near-subconscious levels of the right brain with a deeper effect.
I'm not sure about that but CANCEL CANCEL CANCEL CANCEL works for me. A very handy tool.