05-13-2021, 01:43 PM
Hi Angel. Welcome to Brign4th! Thanks for sharing a few of the key moments in your journey. Though on the surface it may seem like your awakening was accidental due to chemicals, we all have various means of awakening. Many have done so as a result of a chemically induced altered state of consciousness.
In your case, perhaps your conscious mind was not yet ready, or you just couldn't fully integrate the experience, or you didn't have the benefit of guidance or structure as you indicate. This is the danger of the accelerant of chemicals. Lacking guidance, readiness, or ability, one can destablize or disarrange the self. I'm sorry to hear about he subsequent years of challenge. Asylum and prison? Wow - two of the most difficult environments for anyone to live through. Many are the wanderers and spiritual seekers who inadvertantly slip into the gutters and, thanks to a largely spiritually ignorant society which doesn't understand how to help them, are not able to find their way back. I'm glad that you have since found your footing and are finding your way to service to others and humble seeking. Perhaps your own harrowing years might offer you insight into helping other souls with these types of challenges.
I hope you find connection and inspiration here. With love/light, Gary
In your case, perhaps your conscious mind was not yet ready, or you just couldn't fully integrate the experience, or you didn't have the benefit of guidance or structure as you indicate. This is the danger of the accelerant of chemicals. Lacking guidance, readiness, or ability, one can destablize or disarrange the self. I'm sorry to hear about he subsequent years of challenge. Asylum and prison? Wow - two of the most difficult environments for anyone to live through. Many are the wanderers and spiritual seekers who inadvertantly slip into the gutters and, thanks to a largely spiritually ignorant society which doesn't understand how to help them, are not able to find their way back. I'm glad that you have since found your footing and are finding your way to service to others and humble seeking. Perhaps your own harrowing years might offer you insight into helping other souls with these types of challenges.
I hope you find connection and inspiration here. With love/light, Gary
Explanation by the tongue makes most things clear, but love unexplained is clearer. - Rumi