How I became lost..

[AnthroHeart]

This world is very intense. I went through something similar. When you first awaken, you quickly become under psychic attack (mainly from 4d negative beings). This gives you opportunities to process your fears by bringing them to the surface. As more and more fears are released, you start being less and less vulnerable to psychic attack. Until a point when you no longer experience them. Of course STS entities are not doing it to help you, but it has this effect of helping you anyway. If, of course, you succeed in processing your fears. Which I'm sure you are able to. Each of us is able to.

Indeed, I had 3 mental breakdowns after I awoke. The first was the most fearful because it felt like my world was literally shaken violently and my mind couldn't cope. In the 2nd I thought I was going to hell. And the 3rd I was being pulled to hell in the form of a black hole. But balanced between this was feelings of being in heaven. I do crazy things when I think I've graduated. It lets me know who I truly am.