(08-21-2012, 11:15 AM)βαθμιαίος Wrote: Ra said that we will each receive the opportunities that we need. What we do with those opportunities is up to us.
This is where my frustration lies. I can't seem to accept that I have everything I need right now. I'm stuck living on a mattress on my parents floor, just been relegated to ever other weekend with my daughter instead of every weekend if I am to get this divorce finalized, drowning financially to the point that I can't do much with my daughter when I actually do get to see her. Counting every penny so that I don't go negative after the child support and insurance are taken out. Plus I haven't worked a full 40 hour week in years and the hours that I do work make it hard to find a second job outside of X-ray unless I work overnights and I can't even find that. I just applied and got turned down the day after from a hospital that I used to work at and am more than qualified to work at.
Every opportunity to find another X-ray job runs in to a roadblock. I don't have money to go to school for MRI. I just had to borrow $600 because my car broke down. I can't have the woman that I have fell in love with. I have no privacy whatsoever.
It's just one stumbling block after another but I know there is a reason for it and I'm trying with all my power to figure it out but when I never get even the least bit of positivity from any aspect, it becomes quite frustrating. I know all of this stuff is extrinsic and within the illusion but to be able to look passed all of this is becoming quite draining
One positive note is that I did visit the Cassadega spiritualist camp on Sunday to get more positivity in my life and hopefully I can keep attending classes as it was quite nice. Problem is most classes are at night and I work but I'm gonna try to go on the weekends that I don't have my daughter
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