dealing with guilt and shame

[Ankh]

I deal with guilt over one particular event in my life. I acted out of anger and hurt a dog that was growling at me. It's hard to get over, because of how irresponsible I acted. At times I forgive myself, but then later it comes back and I'm in the guilt phase again. I wish I could forgive myself for good. The dog has died since (not from what I did), but I still carry this guilt.

I think that most of us have done stuff in the past that we are not proud of, and that we have real difficulties to forgive ourselves for. When that comes up in my memories, I like to think of following quote:

The entity was absolved karmically of the destruction of an other-self when it was in its last portion of lifetime and spoke upon what you would call a cross saying, “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do.” In forgiveness lies the stoppage of the wheel of action, or what you call karma.

It seems like those men, those people who were killing Jesus, really didn't know what they were doing. And so it happens to most of us perhaps. That we sometimes do stupid, stupid things that we can't forgive ourselves for, and that we later really can't understand how we were possibly ever been able to do anything like what we did.

*Not* in the light of our new consciousness, but back then - we really didn't know what we were doing, cause if we would, we wouldn't be doing that, right?

Forgive yourself, Wolf. You didn't know what you were doing at that time.