why is catalyst so painful?

[Confused]

I know that othes and Ra have said that Catalyst can be anything or everything that comes to awareness, so it can be good/plesant thoughts.

but I normally associate catalyst with SOMETHING bad or unpleasant, an unwanted.

there is something in the human mind (or my mind at least) that seems to resist the beautific change that the promptings of catalyst offer, and yet these are promptings that do not go away until addressed.

there is something in the ego that wants us to say that we are right, and have always been right, and the catalyst is a thing that points to the contrary, that an opinion or behaviour needs adaptation to the present circumstance.

funny, because Ra did not use our term ego, maybe because it was already so loaded.

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I say catalyst is painful because I had a weekend of spiritual purging, and while much better for the experience, it wasn't a pretty mental experience lol.

The design of the catalytic nature of evolution under a thick veil and a very gross and least dense physical frame is an experiment too. Experiments can go awry. In many ways, 3D life form evolutionary history on Earth has proved it, in my opinion. However, we can do it together, if we trust in each other enough to link our hands.

Professor Barnhardt: There must be alternatives. You must have some technology that could solve our problem.
Klaatu: Your problem is not technology. The problem is you. You lack the will to change.
Professor Barnhardt: Then help us change.
Klaatu: I cannot change your nature. You treat the world as you treat each other.
Professor Barnhardt: But every civilization reaches a crisis point eventually.
Klaatu: Most of them don't make it.
Professor Barnhardt: Yours did. How?
Klaatu: Our sun was dying. We had to evolve in order to survive.
Professor Barnhardt: So it was only when your world was threated with destruction that you became what you are now.
Klaatu: Yes.
Professor Barnhardt: Well that's where we are. You say we're on the brink of destruction and you're right. But it's only on the brink that people find the will to change. Only at the precipice do we evolve. This is our moment. Don't take it from us, we are close to an answer.

Quote Movie Source: The Day the Earth Stood Still (2008), from http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0970416/quotes?qt0504934