Experience of 4D

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Oh, wow...
My patience has been tried more in this week than in my whole life combined. No doubt.
It was humbling, as I thought I had a cool temperament, but time just seemed to --STOP-- with a sense of separation, impatience, and rage and the whole ordeal.
(Imagine a new life in Chicago, a day where two dozen things go wrong, then our van is stolen that next morning. Yeah.)

I've also felt that brief, intense connectedness lately.
I guess that's what this is all about, letting go of the 'small' ego.

Ok, I passed the point where I felt unconditional love in my heart for about 3 seconds and it was intense. This was a couple of days ago, and I am pretty certain was the threshold to 4D.

4D is VERY susceptable to thoughts. HAVE to stay in love. Otherwise a stream of intense fear comes in and blocks the solar plexus chakra like no other, making one think they're separated. 4D is not always harmonious while you still have distortions.

If you believe "it's impossible to cause disharmony in any way" like Ra said, then it is. If you believe you can cause disharmony, then you can. you get what you believe.

You're so right Monica.

4D positive at the point I'm at, is SO responsive to thought. Have to stay in love. If thoughts go negative, it can seem like you were harvested negative. The solar plexus chakra gets all blocked up very intensely. Other selves seem to mirror you a WHOLE lot more.

You face your fears. In this case it was that I had opened all my chakras, but my solar plexus was blocked heavily, which created separation between me and other selves. This meant in my mind that I was BOTH STS and STO, and that I'd never be able to build polarity because I was in the gravity well and I couldn't act in an STS manner to gain that polarity so I'd be stuck without building able to build polarity forever.

Have to remember not to feed the stories. It's very hard sometimes, but you gain strength as you go. But your solar plexus can be blocked up in an instant at this point, which is very scary when you begin to FEEL the separation that you're working to unify. A little separation hurts.

I am no longer intensifying because it intensifies the fears. I am now just focused on LOVE.

4D is really timeless, but there are still clocks. Still, a day seems like it lasts a couple of days. 4D will test your patience to the LIMIT. I helped move a friend, and I am very patient by nature, and my friend took like an hour just to tie down something. Time will flow differently in order to try your patience. But I was happy as a camper listening to the cool music on the radio.

I'm going to start going to church with my friend to support her. It's one step towards unity.

Gemini, I don't think you've been doing anything wrong, because you weren't trying to control anyone. By just focusing on creating your own reality, the UniVerse will rearrange itself to accommodate you, including other-selves who are choosing the same reality you are.

In other words, if you desire to create what seems to be 'better' music, then other-selves who also desire to create better music, will be attracted to you, and you will both coexist in the same reality. You didn't control them or force them to do your bidding! Rather, you just attracted those who resonate with the reality you are choosing.

My suggestion is to relax and not get caught up in fear. Focus on being loving and joyful, as you have already been doing, and you can't go wrong.