Greetings from the Dark

[Shin'Ar]

Is it self-deification through this ephemeral form which you seek at the expense and exclusion of others for no other reason beyond self-empowerment with no intention of using the attainment of your goal for the benefit of others around you? If it is evolution into the negatively oriented spectrum of the higher levels of creation which you seek, you then must be thusly aware that your gaze must have always been and continue to be solely fixated upon self-aggrandizement and lack of perception of value in 'others' around you, even with the knowledge that there is only One of Us here, correct? To what extent do you plunge your spearhead of darkness and to what degree does your self-professed situating within malignancy extend to? Is yours merely an ideological or conceptual affiliation with darkness? I do not sense you as the murderous type and were you to have directly extinguished the incarnation of another aspect of the All you would have been to a great degree barred from awakening to the degree which you have, unless I am incorrect in this assumption. My intuitive sensing reveals to me that your modus operandi is in the utilization of your Ajna to bend the wills of others to fit your own, perhaps? You are not at all obligated to refute or clarify my musings if you deem such revealing of information to be sensitive and more than you are comfortable with although it would provide better in-depth understanding of one who is situated in the shadows to the proclaimed degree you are with the comprehension you claim to hold.

Yes. Self-aggrandizement is the means and ends of all that I do. I display but a fraction of my self here. I sanitize the darkness, so that it becomes almost palatable to the children of light, who are all too eager to accept and love. But do not mistake this for callowness. I seek mastery of self in service of the Creator. I have said this many times throughout this forum, but few have bothered to apprehend its meaning. I am Creator, and all that is, is my creation. To master the self is to master the creation.

I will leave unstated the extent of my malignancy. I will say only that everyday existence on this planet requires immense discipline. Aggression, contempt, and violent rage are all funneled into socially acceptable outlets. So that the beast of tooth and claw, becomes the ambitious young man - and rising star. I grip tightly those impulses within myself that are counterproductive to my goals.

The first step on the road of the negative path is mastery of self. Once accomplished the self is aggrandized, through mastery of others. Other beings are but errant aspects of self, not yet joined with the will of the Creator. This process/concept is generally misunderstood by those of the STO persuasion. Mastery of another means my will becomes their will, my pleasure, their pleasure. Slavery of another being is not to bind them in chains, and have them forever resent their bondage. To master another truly, is to have their will become and extension of my own. The vassal that resents its bondage is a burden to the master, as revolt is inevitable - however, the vassal who becomes joined with the master's will aggrandizes the master, so that the master's will commands and reflects and ever greater portion of the creation. When the entire creation reflects my will, there will be no more distortion, and the illusion of separateness will end.

-Zaxon

What is being revealed here in this connection is the very obvious evidence of the difference between self and consciousness.

Zaxon seeks his self with the understanding that this self is this same personality which he now bears. And he sees it as an entity which polarizes toward the more destructive attributes of creation.

However, Zaxon does not realize that his path and his self are not one and the same thing. One is deliberate choice and will, and the other is temporary following and adapting of or evolving of that true self, consciousness.

But, these two are bound by a common factor and that is past experience. Past which has resulted in the character and construct of that field of consciousness.

Zaxon thinks he is seeking self and Creator by applying his present identity to the process, and deliberately choosing to continue on the same path this consciousness has been following for countless ages. But the present identity of Zaxon has nothing to do with the attitude of his field. That has resulted from the experiences of a very long journey most of which had nothing to do with Zaxon at all.

Zaxon, you are right in that when your will is all that there is, then there will only be the Creator.

Your error is in that you think Zaxon is the Creator.

the lusts in which you are feeding succeed in nurturing only the physical Zaxon and the field of consciousness which has been attuned to that sort of Being.

In reality you are actually depriving your self and starving your self of the many possibilities that abound. Zaxon thinks that his only love is darkness because that is what is familiar to the field of consciousness, comfortable. the easy way out.

experiencing creation and the All requires much more than arnchair chip and dip feeding. Feeding what tastes good and familiar is pleasurable, but what are you doing to seek new opportunities? What are you missing?

Trying different things is what adds spice to the All.

What you are experiencing is the same old same old.

In my opinion you are much like the engorged overweight person who is so full of the same old that they cannot even get out through the door to life anymore.

Anyone can be comfortable. try stepping out of that zone and see what other doorways open up before you.

But we both know of your addiction to things that appease the flesh and temporary form. It is not likely that in this lifetime you can conquer that. Just as you have not been able to in past lives. But when do you become aware that each of these lives has been an opportunity to finally conquer that addiction and win the battle of self over temporary lust and gratifications?

Just my observation and opinion, and not meant to be the preaching of any particular doctrine.