06-08-2012, 10:56 AM
It sounds like you're going through the remainder of your ego-death experience that started awhile ago. Your ties to the old illusory forms are letting go (or at least being challenged), so it literally feels like everything is falling apart as external desires lose their value.
Basically your consciousness is still trying to hold onto your sense of self that has been elevated, which expects the external to bring about happiness and meaning. It culminates with the realization that happiness is a choice and comes from within. The more one appreciates the present, the less grasping that is felt.
It seems to be the beginning of preparation for deeper polarization, wherein the mind is making room for others. Less absorption and more radiation, to use Ra's terms. The more I focus on others, the more I feel fulfilled.
Basically your consciousness is still trying to hold onto your sense of self that has been elevated, which expects the external to bring about happiness and meaning. It culminates with the realization that happiness is a choice and comes from within. The more one appreciates the present, the less grasping that is felt.
It seems to be the beginning of preparation for deeper polarization, wherein the mind is making room for others. Less absorption and more radiation, to use Ra's terms. The more I focus on others, the more I feel fulfilled.
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