12-20-2009, 01:31 PM
[slight negativity warning]
Here is something important I forgot to include, but remembered when I read another thread talking about "needing" catalysts at a particular point in time.
My theory is that if I awakened earlier, my Dad would not have needed to die. I have thought about this issue many many times before, and this is still the conclusion I came to. Is there any self resentment? Sure there is. Do I regret being more awakened now due to the huge catalyst? No, of course I appreciate and love my awakening. But the price is just so high, that I regret my lack of efficiency for awakening so many years ago.
Lesson of my story, learn to resolve issues before they blow up in your face.
Here is something important I forgot to include, but remembered when I read another thread talking about "needing" catalysts at a particular point in time.
My theory is that if I awakened earlier, my Dad would not have needed to die. I have thought about this issue many many times before, and this is still the conclusion I came to. Is there any self resentment? Sure there is. Do I regret being more awakened now due to the huge catalyst? No, of course I appreciate and love my awakening. But the price is just so high, that I regret my lack of efficiency for awakening so many years ago.
Lesson of my story, learn to resolve issues before they blow up in your face.