Story of my Awakening From Day 1

[Aaron]

Please note that I'm not trying to determine the exact explanations for this, but to find any common truths between different perceptions.

Of course, life means many different things to many different people. What I can say one way, you can say another, and so on and so forth... the beauty of the human mind. It's so hard to put the Truth into words. In fact, it might be impossible! But the love that we are both capable of feeling is certainly the same thing inside. It's universal!

Agreed, to feel highly enlightened already *might* be a sign of the ego kicking in. Maybe finding the key to the next set of lessons might be part of the graduation to the next level of enlightenment. Hey if it was easy, everyone would be enlightened already.

Yes, as you become more conscious, ego doesn't just vanish. It "rises" with you and still seeks to come out at every occasion, in everything you say. I think it's again a matter of balance, of shining the light of awareness on that ego continually, always smiling and laughing at it, and never taking it too seriously.
I will be looking for that key... to find what I can do in every moment to spread awakening and realization of the Truth.

Well I think that the next lesson always come to you, just have to be alert and watch for the subtle signs. I view next lessons like pop quizzes. Before the pop quiz arrives, it would improve your chances if you worked hard on improving oneself, so that you would be better equipped to learn and pass from the pop quiz when it actually comes.

I agree, whether or not you feel like you are "ready", the wheel will turn at the right time and you will be facing the next lesson. And like you said, there is never "downtime". If you are continually pointing the "arrow of zen" at yourself, continually focusing attention on the self, continually working hard on improving yourself, you will feel more ready for that next lesson.

Actually I already do communicate deeply with people if I can have a moment of peace with them, but I think that it's a matter of me going crazy if I was to connect with everyone constantly. Currently, I do not have a high view of most people in our society... I see so much potential in everyone but I get sickened by people's actions due to what the society has trained them to do. It's like seeing Angels from heaven being held captive with brain control halos, reaping destruction on the earth. I have not discovered the exact reason why I am still trying to avoid eye contact, but *basically* I think it's to avoid my heart from aching. The more spiritual I get, the more sad I get from my daily experiences. I'm not here to get pity, it is the price I willingly paid for my increasing enlightenment.

Kudos to you for keeping yourself sane! You're the only one who can do it, you know. Haha
I can sympathize with you on the idea of seeing everyone as a human Being trapped by negative codependency on others. It feels to me simultaneously saddening and yet motivating... Time to unplug everyone from the Matrix, one by one!
In this link, a social memory complex called "Aaron" (uncanny, I know) is channeled, identifying themselves as the brother/sister energy of Q'uo. (although the way they use bro/sis, it could just mean they are "friends") I was just reading this last night and there seems to be a lot of relative information here. The session focuses on balancing ego with teaching, always watching the ego, and about how we are all codependent and we polarize that negatively or positively. It's where I learned the useful phrase "negative codependancy". Haha
http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/is...draft.aspx